Long Winter of Discouragement!

PhotoNut · March 18, 2006

Everyone has given you such wonderful support, love and advice Kimber. And you've taken your first step by coming here and telling everyone what you're going through. I'd just like to re-emphasize some of the things which were on my mind when I read your post.

1. You can't button your pants, but you can get them on! A few pounds shed and they'll be comfortable again. Shoot, in the past, if I'd fallen off my diet and been depressed all winter long, I'd have gained an easy 50 pounds or more. I'm sure you would have as well. So be happy about that!

2. Your doc and his staff are there to help you, not judge you. Everyone has their own path to walk and they know this. They won't be comparing you to anyone else and I'm sure they won't post your weight on a bullentin board in the hallway. You're smart to go in and get that fill, or have that talk, whatever you think you need to get you back on track. If you do get a fill, you'll have a couple of days of liquids so it will be like a new start, right?

Spring is just starting to show signs of waking up here. Not sure where you are but it won't be long now. Flowers will be blooming, the days will be longer, the air warmer and soon we will all be able to open our windows again. It's the perfect time for you to wake up from this dark, dreary winter and feel that sense of renewal. And I have this feeling that would make your brother smile. *hugs*

And go have a visit with Darcy, it will do you good.

Kimber-lilly · March 18, 2006

Honestly, I just got home from working a 12 hour shift--one of those trips home when it seems like you just can't get home! Had to stop at the store, then had to get gas (or i surely wouldn't get home!). Now sitting here with my tiny family, reading all your kind and lovely words.

I made an appt for next week with Dr. K. It took me till after 3pm to pick up the phone to do it, but I did it! I totally understand the idea of having to "do" something to have a starting point and I am ready to do that (with all of your help, of course!)

I am thinking seriously about the grief counseling thing. I think I need to do that, too. Good idea.

We are still up to our butts in snow up here, but there are Patches where you can see real earth on the sides of the roads and I know spring will be here pretty quick. That is a yipee thing if there ever was one!

Thank you again for all your kind words. I am ready for a DO OVER!

xoxox

Kimberly

Lcottle · March 18, 2006

Kim,

I know what you whar must be feeling, since I had the surgery in Julu 05, i have lost practically nothing, still a size 14 and I hate it. I feel that I have even failed in something that was fail proof

Especially when I see people who have lost mega weight

you are not a failure, and there is still time to get back on the wagon

I had a fill 2 weeks ago and can hardly eat anything at all

so I figure a slow weight loss is better than no weight loss

plus I have not been able to excercise due to a bad heel spur

SO CHIN UP, KEEP

Sorry to hear about your brother:cry

Louise

My sweetest in the whole world brother died in September. At that time, I was really losing weight quickly and of course, it continued for a while afterward because I just was so sad I could not eat (who would have ever thought that could happen!)

So, then it got cold and I got depressed and just pretty much sat around like a lump of fat until now--Prior to september, I could fit easily into a regular 14 pant. Now, I can't keep them snapped and I could just cry. I haven't seen my doc since October and when I was there, I got the impression (could be a wrong impression) that I was about half way filled and that I (me personally) needed to do more to make this band work for me--I don't know if I can do it!!! I am so bummed that my big fat butt is popping the snaps on these formerly cool looking pants--and I recently had the NSV with my necklace--but I don't want my neck to be thin, I want my butt and hips and belly to GO!

Should I just call and make an appt to discuss? I hate going there--it's NOT them--they are wonderful and supportive--I am just feeling like a failure and a freak.

Talk me out of this tree, please. I am eating all the wrong things. Today started drinking my usual 64 ounces of Water, so that's a help to getting on the right track again.

Help! I fell off the wagon.