Pre Op Hell

[anonymousvegasfatty 1]

I haven't been doing very well on the preop diet either. I started out with the best intentions (two Protein Shakes and a lean green meal). I was so proud of myself for trying different brands of Protein shakes too, so that I could find the ones that were the best for my needs but also the best tasting (Dr Atkins brand and EAS ADVANTAGE carb control). I was doing so good but then it all went down the drain. So far I have snuck in things during my lean green meal (pickles, cucumber, jalapanos, bag of salad with fat free italian dressing, mustard -not at the same time) and even blatantly cheated by sucking on flaming hot cheetos and then spitting them out (my idea at the time of technically not completely cheating). I've gone through crying spells for not being able to eat the things I used to eat whenever I wanted them. I even mourn for the places I used to eat (Texas de Brazil, Sweet Tomato, Olive Garden). I'm an emotional mess 50% of the time, extra cranky 35% of the time and only normal-ish 15% of the time..

My surgery is on Wednesday 6/27 and I'm not sure how this will affect me going under. I'm scared but I can't go back now. I have lost weight despite cheating but will it be enough for my body? I'm so frightened of this surgery that I've discussed death with my family and what to do in the event that I do die. I'm not trying to be overly dramatic but this is just how I feel. Am I alone in this rollercoaster of pre-op madness?

[nrbyar 1]

You will be fine and not die! I think it is the emotions of letting go of the past and when surgery is really happening it hits us in the face. There may be some hard times, but it is no worth it. And, you know your body and what it can handle. I've been able to eat anything I wanted to after surgery (I think getting rid of hiatal hernia changed my life with no more pain!) and am still losing. Keep us posted and don't be scared. This is a very easy surgery with great results.