I Suck!

[adorkbl 156]

Ate so well... all day. Then after a very healthy band sized dinner... I got fixated on a hot dog. I struggled with head hunger for over an hour.

Then I gave in. Grrrrr. And I ate two hot dogs, sans bread.

And then I wanted something sweet. And I went to the pantry and found the only sweet thing in my entire house. chocolate frosting.

And I gave in again and had several spoonfuls.

I suck. I am so disappointed in myself.

Arrrghhh.

I know tomorrow is a new day. But it really makes me angry when I cave to the head hunger. I have been giving myself pep talks all day today to be strong tonight. Nighttime is hard for me. I hate the power food has over my life!!

I want my power back.

[jayres14 17]

Brush your teeth right after dinner, use a strong mouth wash too. I don't know why but when I do this, I don't want to eat anymore, i guess because the food won't taste good with a minty flavor!

[Cazzy 725]

Sounds like u are bored or inactive of an evening and that is when your mind starts playing tricks on you, i know if i sit around after my evening meal just watching tv i get head hungry so i dont do it, i set my exercise bike up in front of the tv get a few sugar free sweets/candy to suck on and i cycle ,, go for a walk, get to the gym or just do something to take your mind off food. Drink plenty of fluids and dont have temptation food in the house. Do you need a fill ?

[Littlefoot 13]

I find brushing my teeth helps me too. Same for at work and snacking at work.

But I also find that the later I stay up, the more I eat or am tempted to eat. My goal (obviously not tonight) is to be in bed asleep by 9-9:30pm. Even if i have to take a benadryl to make me drowsy and force sleep... Just to get out of the habit of getting a second wind and staying up. My eating is worse after 8pm.

Keep your head up. They say all things in moderation. I think the key is not to do that 5x a day everyday for the next 3 weeks. THAT would suck.

I say this because I'm struggling too. I have found that I am wanting things I didn't even want before surgery. And I'm only 3 weeks out. I have had a few bad choices and got frustrated with myself over it... BUT I also realized that it's all things in moderation. I tell myself that I have to keep track, for accountability and if I see a pattern, I'll have to do an intervention on myself. LOL.

Before the surgery, before the liquid diet, I had found a balance in my eating where I had NO cravings. I didn't watn caffeine, or sugar, or carbs or Protein... I Just ate so balanced that all was well. I didn't even want to snack. I so want to get back to that because I'm all outta whack. And I have found that when I have a craving it's because I'm out of balance. It is possible to deal with those. I truly believe that.

However, I'd also like to say that I don't believe denial solves anything. I don't mean bingeing, but if I want a cookie, when I am able, I'll have one. ONE cookie a week is not going to kill me. Now if I am an addictive type of person who can't eat just one...yeah, not a good move to go down that road, but I'm not. At least not with Cookies. LOL.

Keep your head up. Know you're not alone. And one more thing... One thing I learned in during my weight loss is that it's all about numbers.

If I burn 2000 calories a day and I eat 1500 a day and there are 3500 calories in a lb, then every 7 days I'm going to lose 1 lb. If I eat 1000 calories a day, I'll lose 2lbs a week. If I eat 1800 calories a day I'll lose a lb every 17 days. The point is, it is an average. If I want to lose 1 lb a week, as long as my calorie deficit equals 3500 less every 7 days, I'll lose it. If one day I eat more but over the next two days eat less, as long as it balances out, it still works.

So don't beat yourself up over a slip. Just start anew tomorrow. If you hadn't given in, you might have done worse. Don't lose sleep over it. Just keep pressing on tomorrow!

[adorkbl 156]

Brush your teeth right after dinner' date=' use a strong mouth wash too. I don't know why but when I do this, I don't want to eat anymore, i guess because the food won't taste good with a minty flavor![/quote']

That is actually a really really good idea!!! I will try that. Thank you!!

[adorkbl 156]

Sounds like u are bored or inactive of an evening and that is when your mind starts playing tricks on you' date=' i know if i sit around after my evening meal just watching tv i get head hungry so i dont do it, i set my exercise bike up in front of the tv get a few sugar free sweets/candy to suck on and i cycle ,, go for a walk, get to the gym or just do something to take your mind off food. Drink plenty of fluids and dont have temptation food in the house. Do you need a fill ?[/quote']

Yes. I am bored. I know that when I veg out and watch TV I tend to cave to head hunger. Hence my pep talks all day. I made a metal plan to walk my dog and swim laps tonight. Unfortunately I didn't follow through.

Not beating myself up. Just venting. I hate hate hate feeling powerless. Especially when I have been doing sooo good.

Don't need a fill. I have surgery scheduled in 3ish weeks to reposition my band and repair a hiatal hernia. My Dr actually wants to remove all my fill until them... but I didn't want too.

Temptation foods are out of our house. I am making cupcakes for a baby shower this weekend. Oops. I'll wait until time to bake before shopping next time.

[adorkbl 156]

Littlefoot... Thanks for the pep talk. Sorry you are struggling right now too. Hang in there!! It honestly does get easier the further out from surgery you get.