1St Fill This Afternoon:)

[armymom2012 51]

I have my first fill this afternoon. I am so ready to do this. This past week I could have eaten just about anything, although I didn't:) I stuck to the plan, but I will feel much better when I know I have a bit of a deterent facing my cravings.

Last night at my class, one of the students I barely know walked up to me and asked me if I had lost weight recently. It felt really good. Honestly my clothes feel looser, but I guess my mind has not adjusted to the change yet, because I still don't see it in the mirror myself. I think it is a bit of my teenage years with Bulimia looking at me again in the mirror:(

But anyway, it was nice to hear the words regardless. I haven't really told many people that I had the Lap Band surgery done, other than family and close friends. Maybe one day I will be able to open up more about it, but for now most people I just say yea, I'm losing weight because of health issues I want to clear up. Is that bad? I'm not so sure why I am afraid to open up about it to strangers, maybe just a bit of insecurity I guess. Who knows. But looking forward to a much bigger change by September when my son comes home from Aphganistan to get married. Hopefully I can where a dress and feel comfortable by then.

[Banded in Bear Lake 8]

I know the feeling. I have not opened up to alot of people about my band. I do not know why, just my husband, children and a few close friends know. I guess I may be insecure about it or afraid I will be one of the ones that fails at it. I am not exactly sure.

[sandybraman 18]

I haven't told many people either - only those I know would be totally supportive. This is a personal matter, girls, and we don't HAVE to tell anyone! Just smile, tell them you're trying to eat right and exercise more (which is true) and let it go at that.

Armymom, take an icepack with you and put it on your port for a few minutes before they do the fill. It helps with the needle AND the bruising.

[Holly Dolly 575]

I honestly don't feel the poke of the needle at all.