Never gain weight again

[kimalicious 5]

For me if I could keep it up longer than 4 -5 months at a time I wouldn't need the band. If I had the persistence and will power and determination for long term weightloss then why did I have need for the band? I needed the band because I don't have these things. Just because the band is in me now doesn't automatically make those things stay around. I get going some months really good with eating right and exercising and then I will go a few months not doing any of that. I know it's supposed to be a daily fight, but most days I don't have it in me. I guess I just don't want it bad enough as some of you say. It is not a magic pill but I have been lucky that with enough restriction I won't gain tons of weight on my off months.

Just call me Negative Nelly because I fully believe you are on band high at the start. Usually the only reason I get motivated is because I think in my head that people that know I have this band are looking at me thinking why isn't she losing weight? She had WEIGHLOSS SURGERY! What is wrong with her? I can barely eat more than 10 bites at a time, but still keep the weight on unless I am exercising. Well, between working 50 hours a week, going to college, and living 45 minutes away from all of this it is hard to get motivated to workout, when I can barely motivate myself to stay up until midnight to do homework.

My band keeps me from gaining at this point it is the most I can ask from myself. I'm so happy for people that can do more with their band at this point and I'm sure in a few weeks I will get back on track, but don't beat us down because this is our REALITY.

THis was long and rambling sorry. I've been saying that so much lately that I need to put it in my signature! HA!