Being cut on next month

[Lookaway 2]

I can't believe I've made the decision to be banded. I'm scheduled for 12-1-11. I have a few concerns. Sometimes I get a little freaked out thinking about it, then I read all the wonderful comments on here, and it makes me feel so much better.

I've had a relationship with food for years, an unhealthy one, but still a relationship that I'm kind of scared of losing. But, I'm also tired of it controlling my life. Fast food and pizza, love it!

I'm scared of blood clots after the surgery since I have a family history of them. My doctor told me not to worry about them, that if I walked, clots wouldn't form.

I am not telling anyone (other than my husband) that I'm having this surgery. I'm hoping I will be able to hide it from my teenage child, because I want to set an example of eating healthy and eating the right portion size, and not that if surgery was the right choice for mom, it will necessarily be the right choice for her in the future, if she gets fat.

My screen name now is Lookaway.....as in Look away, I'm hidious (from a Seinfeld show). After loosing the weight, I'll have to change my screen name to Look at me now! No way will I be loading a picture right now!