Emotions all over the charts

[SkyeBlu 0]

I feel like i'm on an emotional rollercoaster! Did you all go through the same thing?

I have ranged from neutral to elated to "what the heck am I doing"

I was doing ok until tonight when DH and I went to go pick up all of my liquid meals (I am officially on the "pre-op liquid diet" as of tomorrow morning for my surgury on Friday at 2:10 pm) as we were picking out broths I got the most overwhelming feeling of dread and almost broke down right there. I'm feeling borderline overloaded with life as it is, maybe that is why I feel like I am in sensory overload?

On a good note...the entire time we were in the grocery DH didn't point out a single food that I wouldn't be able to eat, he only looked at things that I/we will be able to incorporate into a healthier future. Coming from the "do you have a steak with more fat on it" king it was rather shocking.

Skye

[Teresita 0]

Awwww SkyeBlu your rollercoaster is very normal. Most of us go through the ups and downs because we think we are getting ready to lose a dear friend...food. Once you get your band you will see that is not true. Right now the thought of all liquids is scarey but you find out that your craving for food will be non existent for a few days. You are going to actually want those liquids to stay hydrated and with a few sips you will fee full.

The chewable Vitamins, Calcium and Fiber will become almost like meals. LOL You have already gone through the hardest part, making the decision to have the surgery.

Good Luck and congratulations:clap2: :clap2: :clap2:

[Iluvharleys 15]

Absolutely normal, after all you are going through major surgery. Just focus on the thought that your are starting a new life, one you will be so happy with. Good Luck and don't forget to post and let us know how you're doing when you can.

[Julie* 0]

I am going through the same emotional rollercoaster right now. I start my 10 day liquid diet on Saturday and I am really nervous. I know this is the best thing I could be doing but it's hard to change and awfully scary.

Good luck to you.

[PhotoNut 7]

I broke down and cried one morning over food. It was like greiving. But since being banded, I haven't had any problems with it. Sure I think about some foods I miss - especially when we drive thru fast food row (everything from Texas Roadhouse to Krispy Kreme at one intersection - and I do mean everything!) but now when I think about those foods I shudder in fear. I don't want PBs and I don't want to ruin this great weight loss I'm having!

The motivation prior to surgery? I was told that if my liver was too fatty to safely move aside during surgery (the fat makes the liver way big) that the surgeon would close me up and not put in the band. Until I woke up and heard I had my band, I was so worried about that. No way was I going to wake up unbanded! So I stuck to the pre-diet religiously. I was told I could have all the raw veggies I wanted and also had a small amount of tuna and chicken in a salad a couple of times so that helped.

You'll do fine and yes, the emotions range from elation to dread. And afterwards you might even experience a phase of "Oh dear god, what have I done? Was I ripped off yet again?". That's normal too. I had read about that ahead of time, but when it happened to me I didn't realize that's what it was - until just now while telling you! LOL

[MyKdsDad 1]

Oh heck, yeah, you're normal (well as normal as most folks....LOL (that's a JOKE!!!)) A few days post-op for my DW, I'm at work in the coal mine and I get a call on the cell. Which is VERY unusual. When I answer, all I hear is IIIIiiiisnivelblowsniffgaspdooooooon'tknowwhatI'mOhjeez..... Yep! Joy's at work having "The Attack". LOL And yes, she got over it and she's fine. And you will be too.

[Dancer 0]

Skye, Hang in there sweety! Everyone is so nice here and will totally understand and support you.

Ya'll have such encouraging words. It was good for me to hear, too. I have been wondering about what I will do without food as my "drug".

My surgery is tomorrow morning! I was really excited yesterday but this morning I am more nervous. I know I won't sleep tonight.

Thanks for always being out there and saying such nice things!

[MyKdsDad 1]

:gluck: :rockon: :wow2: :thumb: :cheer2: MCG, all we have to fear, is fear itself! or something like that...lol

[pugmum 0]

Skye,

I was just banded on 2/2/06 and something I have found to be true in other areas of life as well as being banded is that just taking action and allowing the emotions to catch up is okay. For instance, I prayed about and thought about the band for a couple of years, but up until the surgery date I kept wondering if I could do it w/o the band, if the surgical risks were worth it, yada yada. Because all of this was based on fear and I do not want to live my life making decisions because of fear,I decided to go ahead and hop on the operating room table.

Since taking action, believe it or not, my emotions are following because I feel very good about what I did. Now I'm not saying there will not be some grief in having to give up food, but it is only temporary and like someone else posted, your appetite is not the same the first couple weeks of surgery. I think what you're experiencing is completely normal.

Kelli

[SkyeBlu 0]

Thank you everyone! I am soooo happy I found this site! It is nice to find some like souls in life that understand where I am coming from.

My husband is very supportive of me through this process but doesn't understand where I am coming from (this can be a bit tough), it is good to know I have somewhere I can go where people will be able to relate to me as I make my changes.

I noticed that i'm not really missing food...but really missing the sensation of eating (is that odd?).

MsJoysDh...(my disclaimer) I have at no time ever claimed to be normal :couch2: (Hehe)

Again,thanks

Skye

[vinesqueen 2]

Not odd to miss the sensation of eating at all. When I needed to chew something I went for gum, other people have taken bites of food and chewed it and chewed it and then spit it out. For them it was almost required to keep their sanity.

I chewed up a lot of pencils, and I'm not normally a pencil chewer.

And yup, I was a wreck before my surgery. I thought I was going to wear a hole in the carpet from my pacing.

You'll be fine, but don't worry about. (yeah, I know, easier said than done.)

[Kryssa 1]

I had pre-op terror the day before too. I shook and cried all night. All I could think about is that if I died my kids would have to go live with their Dad (yikes! not an option). I made my DH and my sister both promise to fight for custody!

After surgery wasn't much better. I found this site by putting "mourning food + lapband" into Google. I was about 10 days post-op and thought I was going to die, or that my best friend (food) had died.

The good news is that a few months after surgery you will most likely be perfectly normal. And losing weight. Congrats on your decision to have the surgery. One day at a time...