Emotional & goodbyes

[LovelyT 3]

Im sitting here 12 hours til my surgery & Im a ball of emotions right now. Excited, anxious, scared, nervous, hungry....

Its weird because up until today I was pretty excited about what was gonna happen but now that its finally here Im finding myself surprisingly emotional. I feel like I have been waiting my entire life for this. I've been overweight since birth & have known nothing else. I know there is no guarantee that this will work for me & I got a hell of a long way to go, but Im ready to put in the work. Im tired of living my life this way & Im ready to say goodbye. Good bye to looking at chairs with dread & wondering if Im going to fit in them or break them. Goodbye to cardigans & jackets over everything to hide my fat arms.( Even during the hot summer!) Goodbye to turning down invitations to hang out with friends I havnt seen in awhile because I dont want them to see how fat I have gotten. Goodbe to hearing "you have such a pretty face" or "You would be so pretty if you lost some weight". Am I suppose to take that as a compliment?! Goodbye to hiding behind my camera. I went to Vegas for the first time 4 months ago & took tons of pictures of my friends having the time of their lives.Tell me why Im not in one damn picture? Any picture I took with myself in it got deleted when I saw how fat I looked in it. This sounds dumb, but I cant wait to update my profile picture on Facebook with a picture that's not from the face up & from 3 years ago when I wasn't as fat.

Good bye to not being able to take a compliment from my loving fiance who tells I look beautiful, to only get my "shut up" or "whatever" response. Or even worse, that being together for 6 years & living together for 3, I still make him turn around or close his eyes when I change or I am naked. Goodbye to the looks of pitty I've seen in people's eyes. I was at a store one time & there was a lady & her child in the isle with me. When I passed them with my cart the little boy said "Whoa Mommy, she's faaaat!" . The woman mouthed an appoligy to me while looking embarassed & scolded her son. But no one was embarassed as I was. I sat in my car in the parking lot & cried. Did this 6 year old kid really make me cry? I felt like I was in grade school again. I never want to feel like that again. I'v lost 36 pounds in the last 2 1/2 monhs with diet & excersize alone & can't wait to have this tool to help keep it up. I guess my final good bye should be to the "old" me. The over weight, unhealthy & unhappy me. Im ready to start living the life I've always wanted to live & Im ready to show my body the love it deserves.

[bromo 17]

What a wonderful post, lovely. Good luck to you tomorrow as you begin this journey. You will succeed, I just know it.

[elcee 3,341]

and don't forget the hello. Hello to the new, healthy, slim you.

[Humming Bird 275]

and don't forget the hello. Hello to the new, healthy, slim you.

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Yes! I agree. The hello! Get ready to embrace the thinner you. Your world will get brighter very soon.

[healthy and happy 64]

Wow! You just summed up how so many ppl feel before their surgery! Congratulations! I agree with everyone else. Dont just say good bye! Say hello to the strong, healthy, beautiful new you! Good luck with your journey!

[Atsirc 10]

Thank you for this post. It really inspires me in a time I could really use it!

[kyrasgrandma 228]

Im sitting here 12 hours til my surgery & Im a ball of emotions right now. Excited, anxious, scared, nervous, hungry....

Its weird because up until today I was pretty excited about what was gonna happen but now that its finally here Im finding myself surprisingly emotional. I feel like I have been waiting my entire life for this. I've been

Beautifully written! You have expressed how a lot of us have felt or in my case are feeling right now.

My surgery had to be postponed due to thyroid problems and I am anxious to get this over and start my new life.

Like everyone else says, say hello to the new you. You are taking the best of you on this journey and leaving the worst behind.

[cowboysmommy 0]

Beautiful! Thank you for sharing your story, you inspired me. I am cheering you on from Texas!

[SarahAnn 0]

Wishing you the best of luck, comfort and peace during your surgery and after. Your words were so honest and inspiring! Thank you for posting!

[JinTx 19]

And hello to a new you!! Good luck to you!!

[BayougirlMrsS 3,934]

LovelyT..... that was lovely.

You wrote how i think 99% of us felt, so know that you are not alone. And a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..... today is the BIRTH of the NEW YOU.....the happier, healthier, slimmer & more confident ..... you.

Good luck and know we are all her to support you.

[SecretBeauty 2]

Your post sounds like an excerpt from my own personal diary. At the mention of cartigans I bursted into tears. Cardigans are sadly my trademark. It's everyones joke to play where's Waldo on me to see if anyone can spot me without one. Im still hidden.

Can I tell you how exited I am for you right now?! Yes goodbye to the old but HELLO to the new! Beaches, trips, true compliments, sexiness, health, happiness, new experiences, new adventures, feeling proud and accomplished and to top it off the fact that this will be your new life. Everyday. Filled with these great moments! I can't wait to be 12 hours away from my surgery. Correction- even better- I can't wait to see how we will be 12 months after!! ) best of luck!!!! ((((hugs)))!

[Ro-Jae327 4]

Wow... Almost in tears here. That was me exactly! You will succeed and you will be happy and most important healthy. The best of luck to you and please keep in touch.

[Kali216 0]

That was amazing! You are strong, and I know that you will succeed in your journey! Good luck today and always remember why you are doing this!

[outofbreath 0]

Im sitting here 12 hours til my surgery & Im a ball of emotions right now. Excited, anxious, scared, nervous, hungry....

Its weird because up until today I was pretty excited about what was gonna happen but now that its finally here Im finding myself surprisingly emotional. I feel like I have been waiting my entire life for this. I've been overweight since birth & have known nothing else. I know there is no guarantee that this will work for me & I got a hell of a long way to go, but Im ready to put in the work. Im tired of living my life this way & Im ready to say goodbye. Good bye to looking at chairs with dread & wondering if Im going to fit in them or break them. Goodbye to cardigans & jackets over everything to hide my fat arms.( Even during the hot summer!) Goodbye to turning down invitations to hang out with friends I havnt seen in awhile because I dont want them to see how fat I have gotten. Goodbe to hearing "you have such a pretty face" or "You would be so pretty if you lost some weight". Am I suppose to take that as a compliment?! Goodbye to hiding behind my camera. I went to Vegas for the first time 4 months ago & took tons of pictures of my friends having the time of their lives.Tell me why Im not in one damn picture? Any picture I took with myself in it got deleted when I saw how fat I looked in it. This sounds dumb, but I cant wait to update my profile picture on Facebook with a picture that's not from the face up & from 3 years ago when I wasn't as fat.

Good bye to not being able to take a compliment from my loving fiance who tells I look beautiful, to only get my "shut up" or "whatever" response. Or even worse, that being together for 6 years & living together for 3, I still make him turn around or close his eyes when I change or I am naked. Goodbye to the looks of pitty I've seen in people's eyes. I was at a store one time & there was a lady & her child in the isle with me. When I passed them with my cart the little boy said "Whoa Mommy, she's faaaat!" . The woman mouthed an appoligy to me while looking embarassed & scolded her son. But no one was embarassed as I was. I sat in my car in the parking lot & cried. Did this 6 year old kid really make me cry? I felt like I was in grade school again. I never want to feel like that again. I'v lost 36 pounds in the last 2 1/2 monhs with diet & excersize alone & can't wait to have this tool to help keep it up. I guess my final good bye should be to the "old" me. The over weight, unhealthy & unhappy me. Im ready to start living the life I've always wanted to live & Im ready to show my body the love it deserves.