Ok This Sucks!!

[Grider 92]

I havent had this surgery but a colonoscopy and it is day 5 and finally feel like me again,,,, anesthesia is also a culprit for the bad feelings and pain meds combined w gas pains, and surgery,,,,your body has alot to deal with. long as you are not fainting, bleeding throwing up etc i think some of us just not as tolerant as others,

[leilaniessence 1]

I'm with you all on a lot of your experiences. Right now all I feel like doing is sleeping/crying because of how uncomfortable I feel. I hate to feel not 100% - it drives me bats. I have a lot of things I'm going through right now that sometimes have me thinking, "Why did I do this to myself?" They are:

- Port pain galore! Only my port is on my right side???

- This means I can't fall asleep on my tummy or on my right side, my two preferred ways to sleep. I feel "robbed" of something, if that makes any sense.

- 1/4 cup or a 1/2 cup of any shake/soup takes me FOREVER to sip

- I can no longer take a big gulp of cold Water in these hot days Do you know how crazy that drives me? I just want one freaking gulp of ice cold Water, gosh darn it!!!!!!

- I feel thirsty all the time, even though I'm sipping water like crazy in between "meals" (shakes)

- God forbid I have any kind of liquid, water included, just before bed. I'm a nightime drinker (always have been), but lately, whenever I take a sip of water and lay down right away, my gut starts wreching in pain. Why???

- I always have this feeling of "tightness" or "squeezing" just below my sternum. Sometimes I can manage to forget about it, other times I can't.

- I have a hard time taking a deep breath or yawn right now. I think its my diaphragm that hurts... or maybe my abdominal muscles? It sucks not being able to get in a good yawn, ya know?

- NO ENERGY. Super fatigued. Gah!

Then again... I have to remind myself. I'm BARELY on day 7 post-op. What can I expect? It's the first time I've ever had surgery in my life (I'm 27) and prior to this, I had rarely taken pain meds. Like other experienced bandsters here say (over and over), I NEED TO GIVE THIS SOME TIME. I'm trusting that it WILL get better.

Still... that doesn't stop me from sometimes feeling, "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh"

Hang in there. I'm trying to too!

(P.S. Weight loss is awesome so far, at least).