To be or not to be?

[Mariet 0]

I joined the Lapbandtalk.com today. I am from South Africa and have not had the surgery done yet.

My Story: I lost 28kg by following the Weigh-Less program in South Africe. Very successful. That was 16 years ago. Since then we moved to the farm and as an extreme extrovert I really battled with the being alone on this 800ha piece of earth.

When my father fell ill I nursed him. The day he died he weighed 29kg. I told myself that I would never ever worry about my body again and should I gain weight just think of him who wanted to eat but couldn't.

Well it is 28kg later and I weigh 95kg.

The powers to be of normal weight is not with my father, or with a weight management program, it is with me. I now have to make the decision to be up and down this yo-yo dieting of me or to take the opportunity that lies in front of my eyes.

I don't want to be 80 one day and when someone asks me, what have you done say I dieted. I want to say - I live my life to the fullest and if it means have WLS then that is what I will do.

In SA the lapband costs R85000 and the balloon R30000. But, what if I have the balloon done and after it is taken out all the weight is gained?

Share your thoughts and ideas.

Mariet