emptyNest 4 Posted January 13, 2011 I guess I'm in denial, or I have anti-anorexia or something, but I just don't see myself as being as fat as I really am... Is this common? I mean, I can stand on a scale and see what I weigh, and DUH, but when I look in a mirror it doesn't look that bad... I've told a couple of people that I'm having WLS, and I guess I expected them to say something like 'Gee, why? You don't need to lose that much weight.'. None of them did... I haven't told my DH, and don't plan to until the surgeon sets a date.. Why you ask.. because in my denial mode I'm still afraid the surgeon will say I don't need it... EVEN THOUGH the Insurance company has already approved ! Do I need to see a shrink, or what??? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Amanda1982 142 Posted January 13, 2011 I can relate sometimesI feel the same way I look in the morror and say hey I dont look like I weigh 276lbs that is until I see a picture someone else has taken or myself on tv or video. A lot of people I've told did ask me why and said I dont need it. How much do you weigh? What is your BMI? Over the last 5 years has you weight been increasing if so, if this cycle continues what wiil your weight be 5 years from now? Good Luck Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
emptyNest 4 Posted January 13, 2011 Yes. When I see myself in a picture I'm definately FAT! No doubt about that. I've got one on the fridge that's hideous. I'm riding my QH mare and I look as big as her! OUCH! I get tired just walking up one flight of stairs, my knees hurt all the time, and I am definately ready for a change, but when I look in a mirror, I just don't see the fat. Wierd... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
forabetterlife 3 Posted January 13, 2011 I was like that as well I would look in the mirror and be like oh wow I look damn good (and not fat lol) but then I would see pictures and OMG wow FAT!!!!! Now that I have lost alot of weight I look back at those pictures and was like OMG I cant believe I didnt see myself as being that big at the beginning. Good luck you will do great! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Noturningback15 45 Posted January 13, 2011 When I was almost 400lbs I was in denial big time! I looked past all the fat when I looked in the mirror because I just didn't want to see it! When I looked at photos I was humiliated! Now, that I have lost a whole lot of inches and over 80lbs I see that 400lb person when I look in the mirror! Crazy! I just can't get those images from those photos out of my head! Every blue moon I see myself as I actually am but usually it's the bigger me I see. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jennifer Hathaway 12 Posted January 14, 2011 I was the same way. I saw myself in the mirror as not as fat as I was in pictures. Now 95 pounds gone and at goal I see a fat person. My head is very screwed up. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Libbyjane1976 1 Posted January 15, 2011 We are all in denial about our weight. I was over 300 lbs and I was in denial about the way I looked. I"m glad I pushed forward and got my LB because now I am so much healther and have 55 lbs to get to my goal weight. You will look back at old pics and be like I can't believe I let myself get that big. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
MountainMama 5 Posted January 15, 2011 In the same boat with you all. I can remember one time, at my heaviest weight of 325, walking past a bus shelter and seeing my reflection. I had taken extra time to get ready that day and actually said, "man I look good today!" My mom who was with me at time looked at me and said, "I am a good mom because I have given you GREAT self esteem." Looking back, I really did think I looked good because I wasnt seeing myself for what I was looking like to everyone else. Lord knows there are very few pictures of me at my highest weight because I "knew" what I really looked like and didnt want pics to be around for all time showing people that. Yet, in my ever head I convinced myself that it wasnt what it really was, to protect myself emotionally. So glad to be where I am today! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nurseAMY11 0 Posted January 17, 2011 I'm glad you posted this, I felt exactly the same way! I always thought I "carried my weight well" or was "well-proportioned" until I saw a picture of myslef. Even then I would tell myslef it was just a bad angle! lol I don't know, i guess it was better then feeling really bad about myself all the time. Now when I see old pictures I'm amazed that I didn't see it for what it was. What's even weirder is now that I've lost 60 pounds I'm more critical of myself than I ever was before! I think I'm just more aware of my body now and I'm definitely grateful that I chose to be healthier! Oh the mind games we play with ourselves.... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
annalise 0 Posted January 17, 2011 I have the opposite issue. I always knew how horrible I looked before surgery. I've lost 50/55lbs and have about 75 to 100 to go to goal. Now I forget I still have so much more to go. At home I know but when I'm dressed in suits and such for work, I am surprised to see myself in the mirror and not be looking as trim as I feel. In my mind's eye I'm much trimmer than I am. I suppose it has to do with the fact my legs look nice and I have actual ankles. I forget about the tummy pooch, big butt, and second set up boobs on my chest. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
