no nerves of steel here

[MADE IT 2 MY GOAL..OH YEAH 0]

I go next month on the 10th to meet with my surgeon that did my lapband. This time, I am meeting with him for a consult for a Tummy Tuck. I am so nervous. This is something I want so bad I can taste. The only thing is, I hate going under. I am always so scared that something is going to happen and I wont wake up from it. I've never had any troubles while under or coming out of it. Guess it's just one of those cold feet things everyone goes through. I have a wonderful, nice, and caring surgeon. I know he will take good care of me as he did when he placed the lapband. Still, I have the nerves problems.

Is there anyone out there that can maybe give me some advice? Anything to help with calming my nerves. I'd be very grateful!

[Scamp 207]

You have the same fear as I do - I hate hate hate the thought of being 'put to sleep' like if I don't wake up and I could - I would be slapping myself for allowing this to happen (Maybe I am OCD lol - Ok I am) When I went down for my first surgery last April I - For the first time ever - Was completely calm. After all the worrying and sorting out my will and everything - Was more calm than I had ever been in my life! I was even joking with the anaesthetist. (About Marillion LOL) I don't know if it was because this time - It was something that I HAD to do - For me, for the first time - This was 100% for me, but I knew I had to do this because living feeling like a freak was a painful thing to always have to cover up because of the skin (Even tho my first surgery was arms and boobs, I guess I saw it as a journey and I saw a photo of my arm by my friends and it broke my heart)

When I went in for my TT it was the same - I was scared stiff of waking up in agony, but I knew that this was something I just HAD to do - To be able to ine the 'me' from the journey and get that one step further towards completion of the new 'Me'

I don't think there is any trick that will stop the nerves, having a great surgeon you can talk to - Even joke with is a good thing - I have complete faith in my surgeon who is a complete artist. The gift he has given me in my Arms/Boobs/TummyTuck is something that I cannot even put into words how thankful I am to him and his skill. I am a different woman to the first one he met about a year ago. I am a different person in so many ways, not that I have suddenly become vain or anything - But I think for the first time in my entire life - I am happy in my own skin (Bar a few things I still have yet to 'fix') And I am actually feeling less like an alien and more like a human now...

Good luck to you - I know you will be fine <3