What Am I doing?!?

[GipsyGirl 6]

I say change the hospital. The first hospital I went to they denied me - the second one was very supportive and I already lost 30lbs since the surgery

[knoebelcamper 1]

I too was only an 18/20, but I have sleep apnea, high blood pressure, I had lower lumbar surgery 12 years ago and Im on a narcotic and I am depressed. Because of the chronic pain in my back, I have a difficult time exercising. I tried for almost a year and only lost 17 pounds and got so frustrated. I would rather have fresh fruit over a candy bar any day. If I ever over ate anything, it was fruit. I also love vegetables. I was slowly creeping up in size. I weighed 208. There is one thing you will need if you decide the surgery and that is a GOOD SUPPORT GROUP AND A GOOD SUPPORTIVE SURGEON AND HIS TEAM! I don't have that and I am having a lot of trouble. No one from the surgeon's office can seem to give me a real answser about my pills. My medical doctor even called them. I have trouble taking anything that tastes awlful because I throw it back up. I now have a terrible sore throat. I am questioning if I did the right thing as well. I am not sure I should have done this. I did it for lowering my blood pressure, getting off the cpap machine for sleep apnea, getting off the narcotic and losing weight and being more healthier. I feel awlful and I feel I have no where to turn. I have one friend that has been a tremendous help and without her, I would have crawled in a hole. I can only pray i get some professional advice as to exactly what to do. I also called my pharmacy - due to my husband's work, his insurance says we have to go to a certain pharmacy - I called them about my pills and they said that maybe some of the pills can be liquified, but never gave me a number to call. I thought them and my doctors are supposed to help in this matter.

[MsJeannetteA 0]

I'm a size 18 and i'm scheduled for surgery in 2 weeks.. i have a BMI of over 40 and have High Blood Pressure. Tell your therapist to go kick rocks!