09/10/10 Bandster

[SarahMarie123 0]

I cannot believe that I am a bandster now! I am doing well physically. I have tightness in my chest...can't take full breaths without feeling full to capacity. For the past 4 days I have been drinking Water (almost 64oz a day) a few shots of Protein Shakes, Soups, and popsicles. It is so weird...I feel like I am starving myself. Is this normal? I am so used to making sure to get *enough* food...which was one of my main justifications for eating so much!

When I start mushes in a few days...I am scared. I know I will eat yogurt, maybe baby food, Soup, and of goodness...mushed up califlower...faux mashed potatoes.

I can't wait to eat *semi*normal foods...like ground beef, ground turkey, lean lunch meat, cheese, veggies, fruits...and to get Protein from food...not shakes...the shakes are getting really gross for me.

I am just a new bandster...getting used to this life.

Any words of encouragement or stories from experience would be helpful.

I am off work and school for 10 more days...so now I am at home healing...going a little stir crazy.

HW/Weight on DOS/CW/GW

255/242/234/145