As far as I'm concerned...

[Ron K 0]

NO one here is a failure. You all made a decision to get this thing done and that's probably the hardest part. Getting to that place where you say "OK. I'm going to DO this!" and psyching yourself up mentally for it. I had alot of thoughts running through my head. For one thing, there was this feeling that I had to do this because I had failed in my Quest to lose how much I wanted to lose and even though I kept off 30 of the 50 lbs I had lost on Weight watchers in 2006, I had a tough time keeping it all off and losing more. I had gained some back but in the 2 months before my surgery I guess with being more active and lots of yard work I lost 15 lbs. Which was good because it gave me a head start I felt going into the surgery. But part of me felt like getting this done was like waving the white flag of surrender and an admission that I screwed up. I had to really get past this and I'm still working on it. If I lose alot of weight now and people tell me I look good and ask how I did it I feel they're going to say to themselves "Well, it's not like he did it himself" and judge me. Someone else had posted that they looked in the mirror and even though they had lost alot of weight they still saw a fat person in the mirror. That's something psychological I'll probably deal with myself. But getting back to my point, like that lady in the NYC marathon episode of "Seinfeld" yelled down to the runners from the window, "YOU'RE ALL WINNERS!!!"

[ladybug on a mission 0]

Great post!!! I have alot of those same feelings. Just starting on this journey.....starting on it for me!

[Ron K 0]

Thanks Jane. I hope all goes well with you. Good luck!

[jllybean1982 0]

Thanks for posting this Ron! I struggle with the same issues. I'm scared that my brain won't catch up with the weight loss and I'll still see myself as fat. I too, don't want ppl saying I took the easy way out, cuz it hasn't been easy. We have all made a difficult decision to have weight loss surgery..that in itself is not easy! Thanks again Ron!

[Ron K 0]

No prob jlly. There's things I'm going to like about this surgery, mainly the weight loss. And there's things I won't like. Maybe certain changes in my body, can't eat the way I used to. So it'll be a struggle I know. This isn't going to be easy but we'll get through it together. :scared2:

[jllybean1982 0]

Very true Ron! The weight loss is definitely a motivator! I'm still trying to get adjusted to being banded, but I know I made the right decision! I know we all did!:scared2: