Am I doomed?

[jr64044 0]

I was banded end of July 2009. I have done pretty well with my weight loss up untill the last few months. I was getting food stuck-aparently according to my dr alot more than I should have been. But I thought it was normal and I was still losing so I sucked it up. I was at 6cc's in March and went up to 6.5. It was way too tight and I went in for a slight unfill. I went back down to 5cc (in a 10cc) band. They wanted to leave it be for a few weeks to let the swelling in my stomach go down and then they'd put a cc back in. I went back a few weeks later and had still lost 3 lbs so my surgeon advised me that they would leave it, and I was ahead of schedule according to the way the band is designed to work..and to call if I wanted a fill but untill then he re-scheuled me for 2 mos out. So here I am..and I've done a great job at maintaining...but not losing. I lose 2 lbs then gain em back then lose 3 then gain 1 back etc. So all in all from my last appointment I am up 2 lbs this week (convenient for my body to pick THIS week to go up) and I'm terrified to go. I'm embarassed but at the same time i haven't been totally strict on myself and have only gained 2 lbs in 11 weeks. I guess I am wondering if this has ever happend to anyone else? I'm sure it has but I just feel like a huge failure. I am going to get a small fill but I can't go back to jellyfish (getting stuck) I hate them, they hurt, and they make me miserable and mortified. Anyone else have any un-fil stories? is it hard to get back at it even after a fill?

[LeighaMason 19]

Maybe you should try smaller fills, my last 2 have been .2 and .3. And try and sneak up on your sweet spot instead of getting .5 at a time.