i am pigging out

suki · November 18, 2005

my surgery date is approaching and i have been pigging out for a few weeks now. i feel so horrible and full and miserable, yuk... i guess i'm trying to subconciously trick myself into thinking i better eat everything i can get my hands on while i can. now i'm so miserable. i hate it when i do this.

mariposa, i noticed you said you were a lightweight and that's why you went to mexico. i'm in the same boat. i'm way lighter than what the states require but i know i need help and i'll do what i have to to get it. i'll be in mexico on the 13th for surgery, as well as my mom, she's getting banded after me. we're both short and fat, and it's been a constant battle my whole life. i can't remember a time that i wasn't battling this. i've noticed that the heavier people who have this done lose alot right away. do you feel that since, as a lightweight you had less to lose, you're weight loss has been alot slower? i need to lose50 -60 pounds, i'm just wondering if it's going to be alot slower than usual.

Jachut · November 18, 2005

I'm the same, at the lighter end of what my surgeon would consider. I swore blind I wouldnt stuff my face until surgery day and so far I havent - I usually do pretty well when I want to avoid gaining weight, like on holidays etc, but I cant seem to actually lose weight. I wanted to lose and I havent lost anything, but at least I havent gained I guess.

My surgeon's office rang yesterday to remind me its time for the Optifast diet (3 weeks till surgery) I said "he said I didnt have to do it" and she checked with my file and said "you're right, lucky you". And I was thinking "thank goodness, I dont think I'd be able to", lol, some banded patient I'll be right? Cant even do the pre-op diet.

After surgery I'll see how I go but I have steeled myself for less spectacular initial weight loss. I need to lose about 70-80lb.

Mariposa Bella · November 18, 2005

Suki, from my experience, I have lost very slowly, I started at 190 and wanted to lose about 50-55 lbs, I thought surely it will be fast since I don't have as much to lose. But I was hit with a slap on the face, it has been a year since I was banded and I am still not at goal. I was down to 146 right after my tt and Lipo and have gained back to 159, yuck! Will I ever win this weight loss battle?? I went without a fill for a long time due to the recover time from the ps, but I got filled this week and I think I over did it. I have been suffering with horrible acid reflux and I am so miserable. I had gotten a fill last week from 1.5cc's up to 2cc's and felt nothing, and went back on Wednesday and got an additional .75 cc's so I'm up to a total of 2.75 cc's and I'm too tight and now its tough luck for me. My doctor is out of town for the holidays and I'm stuck with too tight of a fill, it really sucks, but its all my fault.

I didn't have to do any pre-op diets so I continued to eat normally until my surgery date so I did enjoy some of my favorite foods. Its normal, so don't be so hard on yourself. Good luck on your upcoming surgery.

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