I am totally insane. ashamed to even post here, now

[OnTheWay to Thin 0]

Dont beat yourself up. The band is always there, and you can decide to fire it back up at any time. Take a look at what you are eating, honeslty look at the calories. Maybe you need a fill to help you get moving again. Dont let yourself go for over 60 days with no scale movement, it it is not moving, look at what you are doing, and then evaluate the need for a fill or dietary adjustment. This is a slow process, I seem to loose abuot 4 lbs a month, I wish it were more, but it is steady and I am in this for the long haul, not a quick fix. Good luck.

[kimmyv 0]

You are not insane and not alone-- look at all of us here that are having the same struggles.

I slacked off and didn't want to face that I was sabatoging myself. I sucked it up and just went and got a fill today. A couple of weeks ago I started by recommitting-- to tracking what I eat (on daily plate), focusing on working out, and following the rules. Seriously-- if I do not work out and do not eat right-- i will not lose. I cannot just eat less with my band--it has to be healthy and I have to work out.

I have a new fill doctor (i moved 4 months ago)and she is awesome. She is also re-testing my thyroid and helping me get back on track.

Refocus, go talk to your doctor, get a fill and set a short term goal for yourself. Vent to us. Don't look at what didn't happen or what your long term goal is--focus on just the next step in front of you. You can't change the past and if you only look at the end you'll never get there because the potholes (or donuts) in front of you will keep on making you fall.