I'm SO ready... (little long)

[MelissaN 0]

...to get the ball rolling. I don't even attend seminar until this coming Wednesday night. And I know that there could be a potentially long wait before I actually get banded (fingers crossed that my insurance is compliant), but I just want the ball rolling.

Yesterday, I drove my mom to the day spa to get her hair colored. There was a scale in the bathroom. Should've known better, of course. I stepped on, curious and it flashed 255 at me. Now... I haven't weighed here at home in 3 weeks, but... I WAS at 235. 20 pounds?? Seriously?? HOW??

It hardened my resolve. I've considered WLS for over a year now... But, I got pregnant with my son just as I had started looking into it, so obviously it kinda took a back burner. And now, I'm nursing him. So, again, I assumed (read : decided to be LAZY and assume) WLS was an impossibility. After my research, I've seen that that is not necessarily true.

So, after over a year of waffling back and forth... And 5 years before that of being obese... And a lifetime before that of being overweight... The time is here. And I'm ready. SO ready. I'm more than willing to make the changes needed. I just need HELP to make them. And I truly, truly believe the lap-band is what can help me. I've read so many INCREDIBLE stories/blogs/posts from people and am just SO thankful that I've found this place and quit trying to convince myself-- "Hey, Melissa... You're not THAT FAT!" Because... Well... I am... And, as y'all know. IT SUCKS.

[LeighaMason 19]

Melissa, Welcome to your journey. I read somewhere that a journey of a 1000 miles begins with one step. We all have to start somewhere, congratulations on deciding to take the first step.

[erikaw1971 0]

Congratulations on getting here. Honestly, it seems like half the battle to really get this far.

I think I know what you mean about the "Hey, you're not THAT fat"...but truly are. I still look in the mirror and usually don't really see all of the fat because growing up, I wasn't overweight. I'm like the opposite of people who can't believe that they're thin after they lose all of the weight and still see an overweight person. I've been in denial sooooo long. :smile2:

The only thing that really got me here was seeing pictures from our last vacation. I was horrified when looking at them. I was huge, obese. When did that happen? How did that happen? Oh yeah, I have been overeating for years. It was like a kick in the well-padded ass.

Now I'm ready. I'm excited to lose the first 25 lbs so that I can start jogging...then 40 to start running, then 50 to play a decent game of tennis, then 75 to run a half marathon, then 100 to do anything I want.

Good luck in you WLS Quest. Even if it means 6 months of a nutritionist (it sucks but gives you time to get focused), it will truly be worth it.

[MelissaN 0]

Erika, LOL! Yeah... I'm weird like that... I played tennis in high school and worked in competitive gymnastics for SO long... For some reason, I really never see myself as "obsese". My MIL took a TON of pictures this past Christmas (new grandson's first) and when she sent them to me I was HORRIFIED. I was like, "Gosh, what am awful angle! I look atrocious!"... And then, as I kept flipping through 'em... It was NOT the angle. It was me. And it was BAD.

*shudders* I suppose it's better than all out hating on yourself all the time, but... What a shocker to realize you've gone from OK to morbidly obese in one fell swoop! (Well, in MY brain anyway!)