I don't wanna carry the weight anymore.

[betizuka 0]

Hi, my name is Beatriz and I live in the Greater Chicago Area. Thinking about bariatric surgery and looking for info and support.

I thought my latest blog post would be a good introduction:

Moving to a new city meant I had to get a whole new set of doctors. I’ve been lucky enough to find good ones that (seem to) know what they are doing and with very short drives from home. My first visit with the endocrinologist was great and I’ve been taking care of myself, following (almost) all his recommendations. Next appointment was with the OB-GYN to discuss my rather frustrating femaleness and the whole trying to conceive thing; not an easy task for a person like me.

I am not blind to my health issues. I am morbidly obese (that took courage to write down!), I have type 2 diabetes, high cholesterol levels, a poor-functioning thyroid gland and other conditions related to my weight. It annoys me to no end when people talk to me as if they think I have no idea of what I have to deal with. Yet I don’t do enough to change things; or maybe I do but it doesn’t work.

I’ve been chubby all my life. I have tried every single diet in the book. I remember my mom making me drink grapefruit juice and other badly-tasting concoctions every morning when I was a kid. When I was in 5th grade I went to see weight-loss doctor who ended up giving me amphetamines to everyone’s dismay. When I went to college I saw a doctor who was very much in vogue with the Atkins diet. I’ve seen tons of dietitians; I’ve done the Herbalife thing and some others. In 2005 I was able to lose 50% of the weight I need to get rid of all by myself, but once I left the discipline of eating healthy and going to the gym every day I’m back at square one. It happens all the time.

I’m not going to elaborate on the psychological consequences of the “Yoyo Effect.” I think I’ve managed to have a pretty normal life despite being made fun of when I was a kid, feeling rejected by the guy I liked when I was a teenager, being told I wasn’t good enough to attend a certain college where only pretty people go, etc. And while I have to admit all that has played a role in my development as a person, I think it’s a matter of personal responsibility to deal with it and take the steps to change certain things that don’t work.

So now the focus is my health and the fact that if I want to be ready for conception I need to take a very careful look at the options out there. That’s why when my OB-GYN asked me if I’ve ever considered bariatric surgery I decided that I’m going to look into it. I’ve heard horror stories and it’s scary, but there are also the good stories and it doesn’t hurt to ask. I talked to my cousin – who’s a doctor and one of the people whose opinion I value the most – and when she told me “by all means, go for it!” I knew I had to get more information.

So I’ve been reading a lot about lap-band surgery, I joined a message board and I’m trying to get an appointment with a surgeon my OB-GYN recommended (still waiting for the office to call me back). From the looks of it, I’m a good candidate for the surgery, and I know it will be a long process but I think it’s worth a shot.

In Spanish we say “A grandes males, grandes remedios.” – It means the bigger the problem, the bigger the remedy needs to be. Maybe it’s time for me to think bigger.

[Devana 0]

Good luck with your journey, Beatriz. A whole new life awaits you!

[meldlc37 0]

Welcome Beatriz,

I too was heavy as a child and it just progressed as I got older. I was banded November 25th 2009, and it was the best thing I've ever done for myself. I have lost 40 lbs so far and 27 inches. I feel great and people notice I'm losing. It feels great to run into someone I have'nt seen for awhile and have them comment on how good I look.

I was on this sight for awhile before I had my band and it answered alot of questions and fears that I had. I hope you get all your questions answered and make the best decision for you. Good luck, let us know how you're doing.

[KimDB 0]

Beatriz, your story is another perfect variation on all the stories I've read over the past few months while researching this.

I had read up on GB and LB for at least a month before even making the initial call to my Primary to discuss it with her. I remember my hands were actually shaking, and I think I dithered on that phone call. I wasn't due for an exam, I just wanted a visit to discuss my health and bariatric surgery. I felt my tongue was tied in twenty knots.

My heart rate increased, I felt an adrenaline rush ... and what can I say, I felt like my body and subconscious were both saying "yes, yes! Do this for yourself !!!" Like getting on a plane after a lifetime of being afraid to fly.

I wish you a bunch of luck as you go ahead. I am still a newbie myself, but totally identify with everything you wrote about yourself. It's not always about how exactly we get to where we are so that we need this assistance ... we travel different journeys ... but seems the underlying issues are always so much the same.

hugs, Kim