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Sorry been a couple of days since I checked in, busy weekend. Went to a beer festival and enjoyed every last drop since I won't be having it anymore. My surgeon says that I need to avoid alcohol for one year, after that a glass of wine here and there is not a big deal. They really feel it's just empty calories, so not a good thing for weight loss. But after having the surgery apparently one glass is plenty, as we will absorb it much quicker. He said we'd be cheap dates. :-) I did get my insurance approval, in fact my office won't schedule surgery until it's done. My process was very fast, about one month start to finish. I would have had my surgery this month, but am traveling and asked for it the 15th when I'm back and my mom can come down to help with the kids. It's great to see so many September bandsters.

Steph, if you need another resource let me know and I'll email you my ID & pin # for UM and you can invade their library as well. Home with a migraine. I finally figured out that my students don't know how to read a science book. They just don't know how to transfer their reading a novel skills to reading a science book. So we are stopping curriculum and learning how to read a science book. An example, we are on the 1st page of the reading and I ask the students what is the phrase at the top of the page called (a title) then had no clue, 10 minutes later they still have no clue, so I say, "Okay, if this was a novel what would the phase be called?" Still no clue. After 20 I finally said it is a title. Next question..."What does a title tell us about the section?" 15 minutes later their still don't get that the title is like a main idea. At the end of 45 minutes we had read one paragraph....That's when the migraine started. So tomorrow is a new day, I will NOT get angry, I will NOT grumble, I will smile and say encouraging words and celebrate when they get a small thing right and then I'm going to drink! Remember my 'favorite student' last year. I just hear from a teacher friend in Missoula, the kid just transfer to her school AND to her class. I'm thinking she needs a care package: alcohol to ease the stress, gum, to keep from chewing his head off, and facepaint to paint on a smile when the parents come in and say that she is being unfair because after all their son is perfect Going to take a shower, eat some left overs, figure out how to run my new expresso machine and about 6 tylenol to ease that head. Kari...check your meds. Also check into a full spectrum light or go sit in a tanning bed. Also take some Vitamin D, it helps will stress. Steph, right back at you...you can handle this, I think Michael is playing you a bit. But he could well have attachment issues. Stop beating yourself up, you had to work to feed him, no one is perfect. Work on changing what you can, live with what you can't, and be wise enough to know the difference.

I unlike where you are coming from Pamela can pinpoint almost to the minute when my eating issues started, and led to my weight issues. Most of you know my story----I'll shorten it as much as possible! Married at 17, he cheated from early on, had my DD Manda, divorced, married again 4 years later, and he was abusive, seriously so, and had lied to me from day one, he was still married, was an ex con---all kinds of things naive me had never encountered before! Well one day well into the abuse, we were in the store, and we past a woman who was overweight, but not morbidly so, and he said to me that if I ever looked like that he would leave my ass. HELLO FOOD! Food had never been a big deal to me. I ate and went on with life. I had a normal reaction to food---like "normal" people do. There IS a difference! I have lived on both sides of this road and there IS a difference. From that day, I cooked different, adding butter, and cream, and ate tons more than I ever had or ever had wanted to. I even bought weight gain from GNC and drank it. In the end I know the weight helped me get him away from here, and allowed things to end the way they did. Then, I did not trust myself, my own judgement, I did not trust men-------so the weight was not a hindrence in that respect. I was scared of everything! So I stayed home, was an amazing Mom! And I ate. One day I woke up and realized I did not want Manda to be fat---and tried to change. And it come to light---I am addicted! I have altered the way I look at food, and how my body reacts to food. I have given my body wrong signals for so long, it no longer reacts the way it used to....period! When I was at my sweet spot with my fill, I felt like the old me again---food was not the be all end all. My brother is an alcoholic---------8 years sober, but he cannot drink, at all. He cannot have a small glass 3 times a day....and a shot for a snack twice a day. He has overcome (within reason) his addiction by total avoidance. I cannot do that with food. And where I cannot see him with his drinking issues, stopping after a civil glass of wine with dinner----he would binge.....I find myself doing that with food. And total avoidance is not an option. When Rick come back into the picture---he was already safe, and he already had my heart, so when he accepted me as I was --- it sealed my fate! And I have been trying in all the years since reuniting with him, to get this weight off, be the person I know I was---and the band was the only thing I found to do that......now I need filled back to that spot! I really think once you do whatever to your "eating center" and gain weight, it is changed permanently! It is different. Whether that change come about hiding food in a closet to eat after lights out when someone is 8 years old, or whether it is when you are in your 20's or 30's--------when you change....it alters how your body metabolizes things, and it is a battle from then on! Few people do as I did, and set out to be fat. I had no idea I was setting myself up for a lifetime battle! I ended up with a good life, and don't regret the moves I made, but wish I could do as I thought and just go back to being the old me, and eating and thinking of food the way I did then. Fever is gone, wish the hacking cough and stuffy head would go too!!! I had quit using my sinus spray----maybe a month ago and wham! Gonna go buy me another bottle of saline and Dr. it! BBL----gonna go eat some chicken salad. Kat

With the sleeve, the 30/30 rule between fluids and solids is so that you do not fill up too quickly without getting in all of your nutrition. With the bypass, it's for that reason, but also so that the water doesn't push the food through the bowels too quickly causing dumping syndrome. Admittedly, eating soon after drinking is much easier than drinking after eating. What I ended up doing when I would go out was have my alcoholic drink and then eat. I also went from mixed drinks full of juice, soda, ice to just 1 or 2 straight shots of silver tequila or vodka. It kinda helped because I'd have my shots, feel my buzz, enjoy the company, and then eat (which would kill my buzz). It kinda worked out except that it got way too easy, and I started preferring drinking to eating. My meal wound end up being may be three bites/forkfuls of food because my sleeve was full of fluid (alcohol). But even if it'd been water, I still wasn't getting everything in like I was supposed to.

8 days into my 90 day plan... Saturday - Normal low carb day Sunday - All Chicken and Broccoli day Monday - IF break late Tuesday - IF break early Wednesday - IF break late Thursday - IF break early Friday - All Shake Day No Alcohol 10k step goal (for reference... surgery date was 11/15/2021, start weight was 403)

I Well everyone I will try to peek in on ya'll in the morning...if for some reason I can't, I will be back Monday. Going to Louisiana to visit friends...and maybe have an alcoholic beverage. (drinking is a must when going to Louisiana) lol Gonna be a blast! :thumbup: Be Good and make healthy choices:thumbup:

No acne, but a pimple which is odd at my age (56) and then I broke out in a rash at my thyroid area, asked my nephrologist about it and he said it isn't my thyroid so now I have no idea WTH it is??? I have had my surgeon say and a surgeon I am following on Youtube, Dr. John Pilcher out of San Antonio, Tx, say repeatedly about how the bariatric surgery somehow resets your hormones so I'd say it is probably "normal" to have hormonal changes affecting your body like a teen in puberty. I normally have very clear skin and it is usually in great shape for my age but it has been very dry since surgery (but I had also discontinued my thyroid meds at the time of surgery and have since re-started) and I feel like I look like my skin has aged 5 years since! IF this doesn't improve and the red blotch doesn't go away by next week I'm going to see a regular md and then a dermatologist bc I hate the look of it. Another weird thing to consider: We are all probably eating more fats/meats than before surgery? Broths and cream soups can have high fat contents, eggs, cheeses, etc. especially if it wasn't your "usual" diet. I rarely ate eggs/breakfast foods but have been waking very hungry and it is one of the few soft foods so I've gone through nearly 3 dozen eggs these last 31 days! I don't think I've ever eaten so many eggs. Ditto with Chicken broth and cream of chicken soup. /for the pimple I just wiped it with alcohol, used my metal face pimple clearer thingy to scrape/pop it off and reapplied alcohol and it was dried up and gone the next morn. p

Let me rephrase this a little... Because my doctor didn't just say, "You will become an alcoholic." He was basically giving me facts, about how most of us have an addiction an it's food, that's our comfort an go to. When we can't have certain thing we try to replace them with sonething else.. Like alcohol. Statistics show that 34% of wls patients that drink to early after surgery continue to keep drinking more than they had prior to surgery, an 15% end up doing rehabilitation programs for alcohol instead of over eating. He basically was giving me facts an letting me know the statistics of what others have gone through. I have been looking for these statistics online to post link but I can't seem to find.... Sooooo idk if dr was pulling my leg or not, but to be honest I really dnt care. It's not a crime to have a drink every now an then, so I will continue. #BottomsUp

SSDiva: I am so impressed with your ability to express your thoughts and feelings. Some people thought that "The Passion of the Christ" was a wonderful, marvelous, fantastic movie. I believe it exploited the story of Jesus for profit and to try to shame people into feeling badly about how He was treated. The guy (Mel Gibson, an alcoholic - probably with horrible guilt and demons of his own) who made the movie, must feel really good about all the graphic flying flesh and blood that he blew up for the big screen. It was one of the most gory, graphic movies that I've ever seen. It made me want to vomit. I didn't feel guilty, I felt disgust toward the person responsible for such an exploitative vehicle. I also want to vomit when some people try to pull the same profitable stunt by carying placards with bloody photos of dead fetuses outside abortion clinics. They are hoping to guilt women into bearing children that they are unable to love, nurture and take care of. In fact, many of those anti-choice, anti-abortion, anti-compassionate people will use any means to try to convince people that abortion is a hideous, horrific, bloody, painful, regretful, murderous act. They want to believe that each and every woman who chooses abortion will be plagued for life with visions of death and blood and gore over that choice. What balderdash! They believe the ends justify the means, so it's okay for them to use ridiculous "parallels" equating slavery to abortion, or any other thing they can so that they may be able to shock people into believing that abortion is the murder of a living, breathing, viable human being, and not a relatively simple medical procedure that should be made available as a choice. Listen, science is science, and nature being what it is, women must absolutely MUST have it in their power to terminate a pregnancy that threatens their lives. I find it one of the most ironic things in the world that anti-choice people don't care one whit about a woman whose birth control has failed, or who has been raped, or who is simply not able to healthily carry a child to term - for any reason. They care about the baby because the baby has no voice of his own. Uh right, sure. Well what they don't get and never will get is that they have no right, NONE, to interject their wishes upon that baby or that mother. The only person with that right is the mother. That is because without the mother the child doesn't exist. The child is dependent upon the mother-host for it to have any chance for survival. Interjecting themselves between a mother and a fertilized egg while it is in the mother's uterus, is ludicrous. We have had that kind of law in place before and the result was horrific. Like I said, this thing may not go quietly away with a change in the Oval Office, but believe me, many, many of us will never put up with the government interjecting itself into women's uteruses again. By the way, you made an excellent point about legislating bodily functions. What if we passed a law that said that the government gets to decide when and if a woman can have a baby? What if we were so overrun with children that it threatened our planet? What if women were compelled BY LAW to HAVE abortions? Well, if you can force a woman to have a baby, it isn't too much of a stretch to say that we can force a woman NOT to have a baby, given the right circumstances. Neither scenario would be right or good. We just won't stand for it. Nor should we. Thank you for your passionate and thoughtful post, SSDiva. We must stay united to ensure that women never become just a commodity in this country.

Well...when life throws you lemons...make a double shot absolut vodka lemonade out of it. Before I get ANY lectures about transfer addiction, I haven't had a single drop of alcohol in almost a year...but today put me over the edge. So I came home and told Lee that I was going to drink my supper tonight. He asked me how that was different from any other night thinking he was funny. I wasn't amused!!! Now I think it is kind of funny...though I think anything is funny right now. So I still haven't heard anything from insurance. I was really hoping some miracle would happen, but I just keep waiting. Well considering that it has taken me a while to type this I think I should probably go. I'll check in when I can feel my tongue! Karri

I doubt it would be allergy to the vitamins themselves, but different preparations of vitamins are full of fillers, some with sugars/sweeteners/sugar alcohols, etc.

Hello girlies!!! OMG, I'm glad to be back on. I have so so many pages to catch up on!! So I hope everyone is doing ok and nothing major has happened while I was absent. I pretty much filled ya'll in on my vacation but yes, we have such a wonderful time. It is trully like paradise there and we relaxed and pretty much did nothing the entire time. The days go by so slowly there, it's absolutely wonderful. We would get up in the mornings around 8ish and put on a bathing suit and a cover up and flip flops and wander down to breakfast. Huge breakfast buffett spread with the freshest fruit imaginable. They would whip up whatever type of juice you were in the mood for. We would take our plates and sit out on the balcony overlooking the ocean and just eat leisurely. Then we would wander down to the pool or to the beach and take a long nap. Would wake up a few hours later and ask the pool guy to bring us pina coladas and margaritas and that would pretty much set the tone for the rest of the day. We would eat lunch either by the pool, on the beach or we would hop on a little boat and they would take us to a little town over and we would eat on the beach there... The freshest seafood you can imagine. That's mostly what we ate there the whole time. Fresh seafood, fresh fruits and vegetables. But I think the amount of alcohol we consumed pretty much negated any of the good benefits that we got from all that healthy food, LOL! It was pina coladas, margaritas, rum punch. We would eat, drink, nap, and then do it all over again. I really really wish we could all go down there. It's absolutely amazing and it does help just de-stress you and just forget about the rest of the world even if it's just for a few days. It makes you come home refreshed and able to cope with every day life just a little bit better. This little high will last me just enough to get me to my next vacation, LOL... So I ended up getting my laptop back on friday but something else is wrong with it now. Juan went to use it on saturday night and all of a sudden it blacked out on him. I think that we're gonna have to suck it up and just buy a new one. Good thing they're not too expensive right now. So if anyone sees a good deal please let me know! Weekend was so beautiful here in Houston! We did a Theology seminar at church on Saturday and it lasted from 8am to 8pm so we missed that whole day but Sunday we made the best of it. We got up early, went to breakfast, went to church, hit the German Festival for a few hours, then took our bikes and went to the park, then had dinner at an outdoor cafe. We got home pretty early but we were pooped so we went straight to bed. I read for a few hours in bed and finally dozed off around 11pm. My boss is out of town all this week so things will be quiet around here!! YAY YAY YAY i'm gonna go try to catch up on the posts now!!

This scale was from Amazon... Etekcity brand... not too expensive. Interfaces with my phone via an app. It's really helpful. I recommend it. I'm back to tracking. Using Carb Manager app for that. I have 94 days until my next dr appointment. Time to focus for 90 days. Ramping up my daily steps goal to 10k. And... no alcohol. 90 days to see where I can land.

I agree that Russell should know BUT he should in no way feel responsible!! If she had not gotten the drugs from his brother, she would have gotten them somewhere else!! Nobody held a gun to her head and part of dealing with the real world is being able to say "NO" when drugs or alcohol are offered to you!! They're everywhere!! If Russell is 'mad' at his brother, fine, he has every right to be!!...but guilty?? ......pfffffft!!

And just another general catch-up post from me. 17 months post op, I have lost another 2lbs this month after a loooong stall when I thought I was done losing. Now 140lbs. If I lose 2 more I will have exactly halved my starting weight. What a thought!! Still eating around 1500 calories a day on average [1300-1400 on weekdays, 1800-1900 on weekends (alcohol!!)] 😁 All is good with me basically. I have started to run a leeeetle bit after many years of not being able to. It's my favourite kind of exercise - just am older than when I did it before and gonna be sensible if it doesn't work out for me (and my older hips!) Any other November 2021 people still around and, if so, can we hear how you're doing now?

Hey ladies & gent Riley - call your book "Alcohol with Lap Band" Oaklander... Welcome to the group! You will get weighed and that will be your starting weight - wear heavy shoes & eat BFast first. DON'T BE LATE OR THEY WILL NOT LET YOU IN. You will find out who your surgeon is and get your first appt date by the end of orientation. Be sure to put that you are completely open on the questionnaire they give you - that way you will get the earliest appt available. Liz & Nicole just had orientation and had their surgeon appts and hour later!! I have THE Doc Fisher and have to say that he is the best (compared to what others have said) with getting all the gas out - I had zero pain after surgery - and my incisions/scars look really small & straight! Warning: He is a little more harsh on the initial weight loss requirement but it's all worth it. All the Doctors are good at what they do but some have different specialties - If you read back you will see that I had big issues about the scars because some I've seen aren't too pretty but The Doc does a really good job with that. I haven't had a fill yet with him - oh, and he typically puts in 4cc's at surgery - except for me cuz of my big ass hernia he had to fix (swelling). FYI: All of the surgeons push/advocate for the RNY/Bypass surgery so do your research, be sure the band is what you want and let them know that!

Okay I've caught up! This was a busy weekend for me so I've been away from the boards. I had an oops moment I guess? I'm not sure the rule on alcohol because I DON'T DRINK. I've never had a taste for alcohol, so my doctor didn't tell me anything about alcohol.. except no carbonation which goes with cokes, so I know no beers. Well Friday some of the girls in the office were talking about going to a bar, and I knew my fiance had plans that night, so they invited me along and I was like SURE! So, I rode with them.. I ended up getting tuckered! :faint: I had a few cranberry with vodka, a couple tequila sunrises, a shot of buttery nipple, and a few other shots of things people ordered for me. I'm sure the caloric count was no good, but my saving grace is that I had not eaten today (or was it my saving grace?) so I know I couldn't have gone over my daily intake. I was feeling great, we bar hopped, ended up at some club and dancing the night away (workin up a sweat, and not carin that I'm an akward dancer LOL). Was 3 of us women, and they're my size 0 hotties, so they brought a lot of attention. I really had fun that night, then I got a migraine and had fiance come pick me up. He kept telling me to drink Water (I never did get sick BTW, just headache from hell). So I drank about 2 bottles of water and passed out.. Woke up fine on Saturday (whew) in time to go to a friend's wedding. Was nice, and I skipped the reception so I wasn't tempted by wedding cake.. mm. I got to talk to them between the wedding and reception, so I didn't seem rude (he knew I had the surgery). Then me and fiance had a movie night. On Sunday was cookout with my family, and I'm able to eat quite a bit now since no restriction (should change Wednesday!!). They always have sooo much food. My g'ma brought boiled eggs for me So I had egg salad, some baked Beans, and a couple bites of my mom's cheesedip. Didn't touch any Desserts. Then we went to my new house (which is where those pics came from), and then we walked around the lake at my mom's house (wheeeew it was HOT yesterday). I am extremely excited about the house, we did get to pick out EVERYTHING, and our new 'tentative' close date is June 22! We'll likely pay rent for July and slowly move in (I also wanted to repaint the walls before we move in, they won't let you paint anything but beige, in case we back out and they have to resell it).

Hey that's not so bad! If you can adrink wine and STILL stick to you food plan that is great. As it turns out, I got way=layed from my Wii this morning. My BIL called from Mexico(he's driving on his way back to Canada now) and my nephew is in a mental health crisis... But DNephew 'dosn't think there is anything wrong with him'.... oh my gosh. So I spent an hour on the phone with him trying to convince him that he needs to get into see a mental health provider for an assessment... US (the family) are convinced that he is BiPolar but he dosn't see it. This kid is 29 yrs old and has screwed up everything in his life with DRUGS, Alcohol, failed marriage, lost his kids to his estranged wife.... blah,blah, blah... just imaging "days of our Lives" and you get the idea. I don't think I was successful, but I planted a seed anyways and gave him some resources to check out - if he's interested. I am not optomistic, but I told my BIL that I would try to get t hru to Nephew... The rest is in God's hands... Nephew is GOing to church these days, since rehab in the fall... but to talk to him "everything" is always somebody elses problem... it is very sad. But, I am NOT eating over it,.... It is not my problem - I can only be supportive if HE wants my help.. which he made clear he does NOT want. So Wii will have to wait until after work tonight...

it is mainly caused from alcohol,there are no statments to say it is caused from lap band and lets be honest here you can get more wrong with you from yo yo dieting,and being overweight anyway it's a chance you take most people are happy with the band being fat and getting a band,i think there is more chance of getting disease from being overweight ie diabetes would you not agree would you sooner be fat:w00t:

I feel like every now and again I need to have a de-fill and a little normality for a month, only problem is the weight comes back on. So is this my story for the rest of my life I ask myself? I cant eat and drink alcohol, its one or the other, or else I put weight on I'm also scared that when I get my next fill, I wont lose the weight I have put on. Is this normal do you think?

Ughhh, stressed, soooo stressed. I am firmly in the grips of Bandster Hell, and right now my main worry is not food, but alcohol! Cause I want a DRINK!!!! I am hungry, stalled, and ready to kick some arse, lol. Not to mention that my rental office is trying to make me get rid of my dog. Regardless of what one might think his breed is (but isn't), he is my family. He cared not how fat I was, just that I played with him on a regular basis and put food in his bowl. Too bad he does not represent all men, haha. Feel free to read the devastating story at the link below.... petbulls: Rental office snafu, now I am freaking out..... I have a fill coming on Tuesday, so hopefully all of this despair will be gone by then. But right now I am struggling. And I can't stop crying at the prospect that I might lose the only thing in life that has loved me unconditionally, regardless of how fat or unhealthy I was. Thanks for letting me vent, and wish me luck! :blushing:

Are You a Compulsive Overeater? Welcome to Overeaters Anonymous. This series of questions may help you determine if you are a compulsive overeater. Do you go on eating binges for no apparent reason? Do you have feelings of guilt and remorse after overeating? Do you give too much time and thought to food? Do you look forward with pleasure and anticipation to the time when you can eat alone? Do you plan these secret binges ahead of time? Do you eat sensibly before others and make up for it alone? Have you tried to diet for a week (or longer), only to fall short of your goal? Do you resent others telling you to "use a little willpower" to stop overeating Despite evidence to the contrary, have you continued to assert that you can diet "on your own" whenever you wish? Do you crave to eat at a definite time, day or night, other than mealtime? Do you eat to escape from worries or trouble? Have you ever been treated for obesity or a food-related condition? Does your eating behavior make you or others unhappy? Have you answered yes to three or more of these questions? If so, it is probable that you have or are well on your way to having a compulsive overeating problem. We have found that the way to arrest this progressive disease is to practice the Twelve-Step recovery program of Overeaters Anonymous. Overeaters Anonymous is a fellowship of individuals who, through shared experience, strength and hope, are recovering from compulsive overeating. We welcome everyone who wants to stop eating compulsively. There are no dues or fees for members; we are self-supporting through our own contributions, neither soliciting nor accepting outside donations. OA is not affiliated with any public or private organization, political movement, ideology or religious doctrine; we take no position on outside issues. Our primary purpose is to abstain from compulsive overeating and to carry this message of recovery to those who still suffer. Is OA for You? Only you can decide that question. No one else can make this decision for you. We who are now in OA have found a way of life which enables us to live without the need for excess food. We believe that compulsive overeating is a progressive illness, one that, like alcoholism and some other illnesses, can be arrested. Remember, there is no shame in admitting you have a problem; the most important thing is to do something about it. Source: http://www.oaregion8.org/ Going to a face to face meeting tomorrow. Online is not cutting it for me right now. Whooooo, feeling really vunerable right now. PR

Riley- Very impressed with your Alcohol knowledge. Many new recipes after surgery (my hawaii trip next year) Shoot you should write your own book..."Cocktails 101" by Ms. Riley Jane." Thanks for all that info.

Sorry for the long email. This whole marriage and relationship things got me thinking.............. Last november when I started my lap band journey I brokw up with someone. They didn't get it and my reason was the next 6 months to a year are all about me and getting my life and health back. It was a good decision for me I have needed all the me time to get through this.......... I want another relatsionship but not until I feel like I have gotten myself emotionally and physically back together. What they say is like attracts like. So you attract your emotional equal. That scares me because I don't want to be with someone who is my emotional equal right now!! I still have alot of work to do. Sometimes I think with bariatric surgery we are with someone who was our emotional equal when we were at our lowest emotional point and as we change our bodies and minds and grow emotionally our previous choices no longer work for us. Again we outgrow people. Eithet they grew with you or in your journey to emotional health you leave them behind. Sometimes other people don't want to change with us and we have to respect that and let go. We can only change ourselves and it is arrogant to think we can force someone to grow with us if they are not ready. So with marriage you are a part of a we but also a me. Hard balance sometimes. Relationship are dynamic not static. Both people have to constantly change and grow together for it work. I don't know. I hate divorce and I hate what it does to people. I think people should make it work if they can but sometimes it just is what it is. And I totally get why the divorce rate is so high. Same thing with alcoholics and drug addicts they get sober and more times than not they lose their marriages and relationships. The nature of the beast when one strives to become more emotionally and spiriturally healthy is we sometimes lose things and people who we think we can't live without. But life has a way of putting other people in our life who will grow and change with us to replace what we lost. Saying goodbye is sadly a huge part of emotional growth sometimes. Nothing easy about change as we all know......... If you tell someone what they are doing or saying is hurting you and they try to change or try to do something different keep those people around. Those people really care about you. But if they refuse to change or refuse to stop doing things that sabateage or hurt you than protect yourself and walk away. But the only way to know what kind of a person they are is to put yourself out there and tell them how you really feel. Don't assumethey already know................and in the end remember that "if someone shows you who they are..........believe them." Don't make excuses for them believe what they are telling you and saying to you and how they treat you. Ok, ok...........seriously enough thinking I have to sleep. Sorry for all my philosophying tonight. Food log tomorrow but I was a good girl!! No PB'ing and no over eating. Not to hungry so a good day!!!

Homecare, Kathy would tell you herself she knew she has liver problems. It was not caused by alcohol and certainly not by a couple of glasses of wine!! isn't red wine supposed to be good for you!! I had similiar fears that they'd find something when they opened me up, i'm a bit neurotic, if I have a headache i think it's a brain tumor! OK worse case scenario...IF and a very big IF there was something there wouldn't we be best knowing about it NOW so we could do something about it???? Perhaps Dr Chris saved Kathy, hopefully that will be the case that she's caught this in time. Your fears are totally natural and don't think yourself stupid for having them, you're only human. If we don't chat before Thursday, I'll be thinking about you on Friday and will wait in anticipation to hear your journey. ShellXXX