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I consider myself something of a foodie too, and while intentionally NOT DIETING the past decade (because it always made me sicker and fatter in the medium to long term) I had been working on resolving any problematic eating behaviours (late night snacking, eating take away when I'm not organised/well enough to cook etc). I've always been the only cook in our family, and have been dating my husband since I was 15. I also discovered over time some of the food intolerances I've developed, with Aspartame, Soy and MSG (in it's many hidden/processed forms) being primary headache triggers for me, and present in pretty much all take away and processed food. So even though I wasn't dieting, I was progressively moving towards healthier from-scratch cooking for other health reasons. When I did previously have potato or corn chips, I'd only have the plain ones, to avoid all the flavorings and MSG, and I'd either have the REAL ice cream/sugar rather than the artificial sweeteners that made me ill - thankfully stevia is a newer sweetener option that seems to agree with my system. While my diet is modified at the moment with the post surgery liquid/puree/soft solid stages, I will eventually be back to eating the same good healthy natural foods I (and my family) were eating pre-surgery, just in smaller amounts, and without any breads/rice/pasta/extras adding in extra unnecessary calories. I have been developing a large veggie patch where I grow quite a lot of our veggies now, and am happy that when feeding the naturally home grown stuff to my family we get fresher, better tasting and more nutrient dense food (I scrambled the past few weeks to get this years carrots, broccoli, snow and sugar snap peas, garlic and onions all planted pre-op). I make real chicken stock from scratch for our soups, I cook at lot of our chicken and steak sous vide for delicious flavor and texture (the super-soft chicken will be extra good for my soft foods phase!), I just need to steer clear of pasta/rice based dishes for myself, but still enjoy making the odd spag bol or creamy tuna mornay for my family to enjoy. Now more than ever there are better quality/health food options available everywhere, and most cafes and restaurants should offer plenty of suitable options for bariatric patients who are well into regular food phases. I very much look forward to new years dutch oilebollen at my parents house this year, but will likely be thouroughly enjoying and savouring one or two, not 6+ and it will probably be my breakfast and half of my lunch that day With regards to your wife, I expect things will be fine. Other peoples comments about your weight or weightloss are going to suck whatever situation you find yourself in. You may find that your surgery success does prompt your wife to more seriously consider surgery herself later, or to just work to improve her own food and portion size choices in a way which complements your future eating together. My husband is 6'3" and built pretty solid, currently 106kg (I've almost made it below his weight 5 days post op, woohoo) and should probably be about 90kg to be in "normal" BMI, he is super happy for me, and we will just see what happens with his weight as I become less prone to illness and exhaustion and am more keen for things like bushwalking and other more physical activities with the kids. Good luck to you, and I think you're making a great decision for your future health.
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I just had my surgery May 1st and had some of the same fears as it relates to food. I can say that I am not hungry and do NOT feel like I am missing out. I can't see any reason that you can't still be a foodie after the sleeve. Your portions will be smaller- so springing for fresh, organic ingredients (fish, veggies, cuts of meat, etc...) will be a wash as you focus on quality over quantity. There are sites like the bariatric foodie that I have been looking at. I think that your relationship with food will change, but it has to if you want a healthier lifestyle. The positive is that you can choose a smaller portion and be satisfied. A portion size more in line with what we should have been eating all along. As far as your spouse, I can't say anything because mine is not overweight. What I can say is that i have family and friends that struggle with their weight and my future success with this surgery could plant a seed in just one of them to take control of their health (with or without surgery). As your wife embarks on this journey with you she is at a disadvantage. Unfortunately, for her, you will have a tool that limits your portion size and gives you a satisfied feeling and she will not. Good luck and keep us posted!!!
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I'm sure your surgeon will order an EGD, most bariatric surgeons in the US do, and suspect,Canadian surgeons do too, Okay,with an EGD you go to sleep, thry,put a fiber optic tube,down the eosphagus, through your stomach,and,into the,beginning of your small intestine. Sounds scary, it,is not really, very smooth and entertaining to watch a video of. Actually the YouTube videos of sleeve and bypass are much more a upsetting thing. While,they are down there they do a good look'around, take biopsy samples ect. I had one,in December. 2017 by my gastroenterologist, the second in my lifetime,my first was June 2015 by a general surgeon. This one went smooth as silk, my doctor was gentle, skillful and didn't even make my throat sore, the g s in 2015 really did. Both times I got a report with color pictures of different area in my gi system. I'm telling about this because you probably will have a hiatal hernia, 85% of us do, also possible they will find signs of GERD many,obese people do, and if you do, congratulations, you have your second comorbidity and insurance might cover things after all. If not, well you were prepared to,pay already. My results moderately severe GERD moderate sized hiatal hernia small gastric ulcer,notready to perforate My baby,ulcer, named Hector, was not,from h. pylori, which causes a lot of,them. Hector instead was from excessive use of NSAIDS. I have,had osteoarthritis since,i was 25, also have R A but haven't had a flare recently. Common for me to take 4 or equivalent,of Advil,every 4-'6 hours. Well,it tamed the pain down to a tolerable range, but,now I am paying for it. We,keep,Hectot sleeping,with Dexilant, the,Ferrari of PPIs, would cost $350 monthly,without insurance and that's at WalMart the cheapest place in my,town. CVS and RiteAid would be out of sight. So maybe,in June I will have,my,bypass surgery and be able to lose and sustain weight loss, which I can't do now.
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Heather you can count on me in the cheering section. For various reasons also it has been an almost 3 year battle for me also. Things are looking up, I may see a June Surgery shining in my future. First consulted with a Bariatric Surgeon in August 2015. But I haven't and won't give up, many reasons, stay my friend and I'll,tell you some of them. Even wrote a poem yesterday , you can find it on Surgery-"its the easy way". feel free to,look it up. Welcome again!๐
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You know seeking Bariatric Surgery has been a good thing,in my life. I gave,me some grooves guys and gals on here, reading most posts brightens my day, I don't feel alone in this endeavor. Although there are other Buckeyes on here, there is nobody I know of in my town doing this. I have 2-3 casual friends who were sleevers several years ago. They are in the background cheering but I don't seem any of them that often. The nearest,Pal,on here is in Zanesville, maybe,60-65 miles SE of here, to be,honest I think,i only heard from her because I was looking for a Mid-Ohio,Bariatric Chapter, there is no such animal. So some of my support comes from on here, you people can understand where I came from, where I'm planning to,go, and why a decision was made for surgery. And if I hit a bump or roadblock in my path, someone here all,iunderstand where outsiders just can't. And occasionally I'm able to help a newbie as I was helped by veterans here. And my depression is leaving, I've overcome my blue dunks and am regaing my,metal health. Bariatric Pal is a ๐ฏ percent win-win for me. ๐ And I'm not scared because I won't face my surgery alone.
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My surgery was at a Bariatric Center of Excellence, like many others. The nutritionist said that the PatchMD Multivitamin Plus works great and decreases many pills that must be swallowed. So easy to use! Slap on a new vitamin patch every morning.
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Bariatric haul! What have you bought for your journey or plan to buy?
magpie26 replied to Yo-yo girl's topic in PRE-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
just a possible warning. My doctor gave me ODT meds (psych meds) and the new tummy did NOT tolerate them! I made sure I had some backups on hand to take just in cass. And I never did crush my pills, too bitter, made me throw up, just swallowed them at night in divided doses before bed. I'm 19 days post op now. As for vitamins, my dietician recommended Flintstones chewable instead of super over price bariatric ones. And I have done weight watchers etc forever, BUT I do recommend a scale. WE all probably know what 3 oz of chicken looks l like, but you won't know what 1 or 2 oz of blended meat looks like lol! I got mine at walmart for $10, didnt want to invest in a lot. -
New here, saying Hi
Frustr8 replied to Briswife15's topic in General Weight Loss Surgery Discussions
And Sarah, hello to you and welcome to infinity and beyond. I am in central Ohio and planning RnY surgery. June probably, after being the Bariatric God/Grandmother ( I am 72). perpetual bridesmaid for many months, waving and wishing well as everybody powered on by me, my Surgical Wedding Day should be coming soon. Ask any questions you might have about this pathway and journey, if I don't have the answer somebody else on Bariatric Pal will. This is a good place to be as you prepare for this life changing experience, we welcome,new friends, we truly learn about this and life, in general here. ๐ "Leading others to happiness is the greatest triumph" -
Should We Just "Accept Our Best Shot" and Not Be Bothered If We Don't Make Goal?
Healthy_life2 replied to FluffyChix's topic in Rants & Raves
@FluffyChix Is it accepting your best shot? Is it accepting if you don't make goal? The goal is healthy. That will look different for each of us. I don't want to overlook people that may have more things to battle and overcome. I am sympathetic to anyone that doesn't make goal or gain weight. (medical issues, mobility, eating disorder, medications etc.) It can take a toll on you mentally. I'm like you, I didn't have surgery to settle. I fought to get the most out of it. My personal choice was not to be a bariatric statistic. Made goal in six months. Side note - I love all the research, chart's formulas etc. There is a fine line between useful charting and obsessive compulsive lol I have to be careful, I have an addictive personality and fear of weight gain. -
Not exactly, a Nissen fundolplication, they wrap the top,of your stomach over right below where the esophagus enters the stomach, kinda like a flap on a clutch handbag, some wrap,back-to-front, others front- to - back, suspect it has to do with what surgery school surgeon went to. It will reduce the diameter of the esophagus going in there so in one way it's like a lap band only using your tissue instead of tube. After the folding over it is sutured in place. Someone in the know likened to the nursery rhyme about the little girl with the curl on her forehead. When it's good, it's very very good When is bad- its horrid. We have a general surgeon here in our town-does them all the time- people are so discontented, have so many problems eating and pain trying , 80-85% end in up in Columbus having a genera/bariatric. surgeon undo his handiwork, most end up with bypasses, a few sleeve. Why hasn't he stopped or been stopped? Well a small %,don't have that many problems, the rest are so ashamed they subjected themselves to this misery they drive 50 miles to Columbus rather than to demand he repair his mistake. No he didn't do that to me, he saw me for a different condition, didn't like his personality, extremely self-righteous and overbearing, so stopped going to him after he said someone should do a RnY on me as a form of punishment. Ha ha, Doctor Dimbrain, I will have a RnY, but only because it is the best type of bariatric surgery for my health needs, not as a form of torture. Alas my cousin Theresa wasn't as bright, she let him perform his brand of magic on her, nothing but misery, she's lost. a third of her body weight because her diet was so limited, bad news she, unlike me ,was NOT obese, started at145 , lost 48 lbs and is the same height as me 5ft8in. Yeah under 100 lbs. I hope my surgeon is as good as I believe, because she may be following me to OSU to have hers rectified. I don"t want to die fat, but I'm hoping they also can save Theresa to a healthier life. And also with the Nissen,they may or not repair your hiatal hernia, although they should. After cousin T's problems I would never ever consider a Nissen for,myself๐ฉ
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So thankful for support at home - and sometimes it's funny
Frustr8 replied to Miss Topaz's topic in Gastric Sleeve Surgery Forums
Orchids and Dragons & Miss Topaz-you don't realize how much I treasure both you. Miss Topaz, I'm not sure of your age but,I know chronologically I am older than Orchids and Dragons, probably you both. Yet when I read your posting, you have your "act together" so much more. And I enjoy your perspective on things. โบ I'll confess something, when I was a "newbie" there was a certain poster I gravitated to, as time went by either I grew in courage or she changed her outlook. I still post occasionally on the same forums, she no longer acknowledges my contributions or posts back. So I guess we are electronically estranged at this time. She used to help me understand this weight loss๐ข journey, now she's off doing her own thing, ๐ฏshallower in perspective. She even bullied me on B.P., don't know why for sure it happened, maybe her post-surgery hormones? But I'm gonna keep on keeping on, still struggling towards my๐ง finish line. Some days it starts seeming easier, the the fits and starts come back, the doubtful๐ฃ voice inside starts saying " you are not good enough, you are very unworthy, this is why you are being punished" most of the time I am strong ๐ชenough, brave enough to say " Shut Up๐ " but others I can't blind it๐,out. I had a ray๐ of hope the other day. You,have probably heard me allude to my next Columbus appointment? I have been calling it my "trifecta" appointment because I'm meeting 3 ladies for 2 hours, my case manager, dietician, and nurse practioner. I had rationalized it was merely a "Hi,Nice to Meet You" meeting, okay I guess I can live with that. Then I happened to follow while submitting my viewpoint on some topic, another surgery seeker who was meeting with the self-same people at her hospital ๐ฅand it was her immediate PreSurgery appointment. And hope๐ started. to sprout inside, maybe just maybe it will be that way too. I have been through a Bariatric program ๐twice through, could it mean the new program,is now accepting everthing, there will be no further requirements and I also will receive my surgery๐ท date? Oh,is this a valid ๐hope? And suddenly I felt a twinge of self-worthinessโบ, a small seedling๐ฑof hope starting to grow. Maybe, just maybe, all my work, all the tears ๐ฆI've shed had a purpose. And I'm still hoping it comes true! May 24th I'll know more of what lies ahead for๐ธ me. -
Might be cancelling Surgery. Given the choice would you do it again?
Malpraxis replied to Chickensoup's topic in Gastric Sleeve Surgery Forums
1-Go for it. 2-Feel great. 3-Exercise. 4-Roundhouse kick your coworkers in the mug. Generally speaking, people afraid of surgery are people who haven't had surgery. Bariatric surgery has vastly proven to be the best alternative both cost effective and healthwise. I'm willing to bet hard cash against anyone that can bring me a scientific paper from a reputable source that says otherwise. When you go back in a few months and look at this thread, looking and feeling great, you can print it and place it on a prominent place at your workplace. -
Out With the Old--In With the New!
Miss Topaz replied to FluffyChix's topic in Tell Your Weight Loss Surgery Story
I haven't ventured to CO wine country yet. It's on the other side of the mountains, cuz on the eastern side, nothing grows but prairie grass! I did break the taco trend last night by getting bison/prickly pear cactus chili. It was tasty! Hubby tried the 'devilled egg tacos' which were, as I expected, weird and unsatisfying. I did do a bariatric no-no though. I ordered a drink with dinner - drank some beforehand but did sip some in between bites of chili. I'd had over 60g protein earlier in the day so didn't feel too bad. First alcohol since sleeve! It was a cider made with CO peaches (which are awesome - from the other side of the mtns of course) and 'high-altitude' apples. Not sure we have any other kind in this state! I didn't finish the pint as tiny tum was full, but it was tasty and didn't immediately make me fall off my bar stool. I think 2 would've done it though! Re those jeans - I haven't tried his jeans yet, but a couple years ago we got quick dry pants for kayaking. I had xxl and he had xl. I tried on the xl yesterday and they fit! So in a way, I'm now wearing his pants And now, talking about wine tasting, I want some good salumi and cheese for dinner.... I can live without the baguette and sweet butter, but damn.. -
Just found this forum and wanted to introduce myself. I'm Sarah from CT, and just recently decided to explore my options for bariatric surgery. Currently can't decide between VSG and RNY. This site has been so helpful! I'm leaning towards RNY because I have diabetes and reflux and also need to lose over 100 lbs. Sent from my SM-N950U using BariatricPal mobile app
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Finally out of the Hospital. How do you keep yourselves distracted?
Malpraxis replied to Malpraxis's topic in Gastric Bypass Surgery Forums
Thank you for your friendly advice. I know it will be tough, but I've already ordered a few videogames, read 5 books on post bariatric care and complications from various clinics, I'm thinking of taking a less thought intensive hobbie, like cooking healthy meals and will probably take on gardening or something. Definitely not something work related, since I was micromanaging from the moment I was fully conscious. My surgeon noticed and ordered me to hide my work phone where I couldn't reach it, which is probably the best advice. For the time being, I'm just thankful I found this community where I can compare results, share experiences, vent and help whenever I can. After all, I got a Diploma on post bariatric care and weight management before going under the knife to help myself (yes, I'm THAT obsessive). Helping others seems like the reasonable thing to do. And sleep. The extra sleeping time is nice too. -
Considering a lap band - scared after reading this forum!
Viviparker replied to Elrix's topic in LAP-BAND Surgery Forums
The lap Band I had was in for 14 years.It did NOT control my appetite. I was 280 when I had it and my best ever weight was 210. I had it when bariatric surgery was new and now there are more effective options like the Sleeve or a Gastric Bypass. As you are scared why not try the Gastric balloon? This will control your appetite and restrict eating without surgery. If you have surgery this will not be an option in the future. I had my lap and removed in 2015 and it was embedded,difficult to remove and had caused adhesions, I am struggling to keep my weight down. I need an appetite suppressant but there are none available in the UK. I consider myself too old for a revision. Personally I would not chose the Lapband again,it is just not very effective. Good luck anyway. -
Almost quit on Day 1 of my pre-op liquid diet
moondoggie1983 replied to Yo-yo girl's topic in PRE-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
Itโs only sold at Bariatric surgeons offices or dietitian offices. Unless you want to roll the dice on eBay.... HW: 311 CW: 257 SW: Weโll see on May 10! First goal weight: 191 lbs Second goal weight: 159 lbs Goal weight: 142 lbs 5โ6โ 34 yo female in NC -
Might be cancelling Surgery. Given the choice would you do it again?
BabsR replied to Chickensoup's topic in Gastric Sleeve Surgery Forums
I struggled and even cancelled my May 10 date. But then after reading more and speaking again with the doctor I am ready. I actually wish it was earlier. I have had two people I have told so far try to talk me out and to just diet. Thatโs not what will work for me. I know in my heart this is going to change me and my life. I see a counsellor who specializes in clients that have Bariatric surgery and that has also helped. The mental impact this change will have will be great. I was told not everyone will be happy for me and many will be jealous. At the end of the day all that matters is that you are happy with this choice. If you are unsure postpone and research more talk to your surgeon..... it has to be right for you and you only. -
BariatricPal Hospital MX Q&A: Safe Bariatric Surgery
My Bariatric Life posted a topic in Weight Loss Surgery Magazine
Since many health insurance plans exclude weight loss surgery, more people are opting to self-pay and turning to Mexico for bariatric surgery at facilities like the BariatricPal Hospital MX in Tijuana. That is because the cost of weight loss surgery in Mexico can be significantly reduced from the costs for surgery in the USA and Canada. But is it safe? My heart breaks for morbidly obese people whose health plans do not cover bariatric surgery. With health plans that exclude weight loss surgery, if they deem it a medical necessity then you may be able to successfully fight for surgery coverage. I don't know what the success rate is for people who attempt this but it is surely worth trying. Since many health insurance plans exclude weight loss surgery, this leaves people faced with the decision to self-pay for bariatric surgery or to forgo what could very well be a life-saving procedure given the devastating effects of obesity and obesity-related diseases on health. Accordingly, more people are opting to self-pay and turning to Mexico for bariatric surgery at facilities like the BariatricPal Hospital MX in Tijuana. That is because the cost of weight loss surgery in Mexico can be significantly reduced from the costs for surgery in the USA and Canada. For others, the preconceived notion of Mexico being an undeveloped country filled with sub-par "everything" and drug cartels has banished any thoughts of traveling there for bariatric surgery. But I can tell you from personal experience that Mexico is not like that. I drove through Mexico last year from the US border to the Belize border, throughout the Yucatan Peninsula and most of the eastern states. I spent about 5-weeks living there. And I even received healthcare from a gastroenterologist at StarMedica in Merida. It was a very good experience... a wonderful experience. And both the healthcare and the facility were on-par with -- if not better than -- that which I have experienced in the USA. Mexico is largely like the USA with cities and infrastructure and shopping malls and hospitals. Of course there are isolated rural areas, but I did not encounter problems with safety even there. What I did encounter was a very warm and friendly culture that I would one day like to revisit. With the question of safety of weight loss surgery in Mexico being being top of mind, I turned to Alex Brecher founder of BariatricPal Hospital MX for further exploration. Alex Brecher opened the BariatricPal Hospital MX in 2017 after having run a Mexico medical tourism business for 10 years. I am sure that my interview with Alex Brecher of the BariatricPal Hospital MX will further set your mind at ease. Our entire discussion is about safe surgery. -
BariatricPal Hospital MX Q&A: Safe Bariatric Surgery
My Bariatric Life posted a magazine article in Pre-Op Support
My heart breaks for morbidly obese people whose health plans do not cover bariatric surgery. With health plans that exclude weight loss surgery, if they deem it a medical necessity then you may be able to successfully fight for surgery coverage. I don't know what the success rate is for people who attempt this but it is surely worth trying. Since many health insurance plans exclude weight loss surgery, this leaves people faced with the decision to self-pay for bariatric surgery or to forgo what could very well be a life-saving procedure given the devastating effects of obesity and obesity-related diseases on health. Accordingly, more people are opting to self-pay and turning to Mexico for bariatric surgery at facilities like the BariatricPal Hospital MX in Tijuana. That is because the cost of weight loss surgery in Mexico can be significantly reduced from the costs for surgery in the USA and Canada. For others, the preconceived notion of Mexico being an undeveloped country filled with sub-par "everything" and drug cartels has banished any thoughts of traveling there for bariatric surgery. But I can tell you from personal experience that Mexico is not like that. I drove through Mexico last year from the US border to the Belize border, throughout the Yucatan Peninsula and most of the eastern states. I spent about 5-weeks living there. And I even received healthcare from a gastroenterologist at StarMedica in Merida. It was a very good experience... a wonderful experience. And both the healthcare and the facility were on-par with -- if not better than -- that which I have experienced in the USA. Mexico is largely like the USA with cities and infrastructure and shopping malls and hospitals. Of course there are isolated rural areas, but I did not encounter problems with safety even there. What I did encounter was a very warm and friendly culture that I would one day like to revisit. With the question of safety of weight loss surgery in Mexico being being top of mind, I turned to Alex Brecher founder of BariatricPal Hospital MX for further exploration. Alex Brecher opened the BariatricPal Hospital MX in 2017 after having run a Mexico medical tourism business for 10 years. I am sure that my interview with Alex Brecher of the BariatricPal Hospital MX will further set your mind at ease. Our entire discussion is about safe surgery. -
bariatricpal hospital mx BariatricPal Hospital MX Q&A: Safe Bariatric Surgery
My Bariatric Life posted a topic in Mexico & Self-Pay Weight Loss Surgery
In this article I interview Alex Brecher founder of BariatricPal Hospital MXabout the safety of weight loss surgery in Mexico. http://www.mybariatriclife.org/bariatricpal-hospital-mx-qa-safe-bariatric-surgery/-
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Start a file to show him it's right for you. Hey we all are landing hard on you? Sweet Sleevie I could be the worst of all. I am 72,yeah you read that right, and at this late date I'm still growing up. See I was what you could become, I was married 44 years to someone, when I look back , was very emotionally controling. Why did I stay there? My generation was taught you put up with a lot just to keep a man, you're nothing without a man, ooh I'd could tell you until nightfall, but now I'm finally,standing,on my own 2 feet, not easy,when every joint is broken down by arthritis. My parents didn't want me to rush my health, I didn't have surgery, I got married, my husband put,me down for my weight, I didn't stand up to him about,it, I stifeled my heartbreak and kept,on, doing any thing to appease his anger so I could keep that man, and I grew a little heavier, had a daughter, raised up until she started school, goody half the responsability, now b I can have some time for me, lost a little weight, felt a little better about myself, did Mr Perfect notice? He complimented me to others but never to me, I was the fat blob,that should always obey him, asked about surgery, told what good would that do? As since I had be taught not to rock the status quo, I gave in, I was warm in a house, yes I had groceries, as long as I cooked what he wanted when he wanted it things were peaceful. I was such a good robot that when the 2 subsequent children cried I took them somewhere, took them for a walk so their noise wouldn't disturb Mr Perfect, the Great White husband, and I started gaining again, when he told me how ugly I was getting, I just gave in , agreed thinking that would make him love me more. Did it work ? Maybe,but he was still against a surgical change for me. And my arthritis kept on getting worse but I gritted me teeth and went on. And my children grew to young adulthood and then adulthood. Did I leave them or him? No I had promised to stay married to him in the wedding vows and my main duty was to,prep him and all the children happy, my wants got stuffed down and I continued on in my warm sheltered prison. Even when I got a job I was expected to return home promptly, gave my check into,the family coffers and kept my mouth shut, I wasn't out in the cold that way. Toward the end of my marriage I got a little more independant, having a job gave me a little more fire in my soul. I didn't hardly,mention WLS but I decided I would eventually have it for I felt my bodybstarting to slow down from the years of weight. The last few months of his life he started a new tactic on me. I couldn't cook right, now the children were mostly grown and not around to hearing him, he could try a few more belittling things. People at work started noticing I wasn't as bouncy and cheery as I once was, they attributed to me approaching retirement age, I didn't admit the unhappiness I got at home. I had started walking for exercise with a friend, I was accursed of having an affair with her. I couldn't keep the house clean, he could ha e helped, wouldn't, not a mans job so I did what I could in between working, decided he didn't feel like driving me back and forth, started using public,transit, asked if he would help me regain a license, I hadn't driven in years. Thought,maybe I drive it there with him in other seat, because I had learners permit , then if he drive the car back I could drive home. Seemed reasonable to me, he didn't think so, why would I want to be so silly and do that? And he started talking more about my ugliness, if weight,was,mentioned it was my fault,i was fat and ugly. Got a pedometer to check , my exercise level was quite adequate. I finally Rationlized maybe he was getting Alzheimers, if so maybe he couldn't help what he was saying. The unhappiness must be all my fault. And he started getting thinner, maybe I wasn't making sure he was getting enough to eat. He was always home, did he fix his own food, nope? Found out later after he would announce he was too tired to drive me, he would go out to eat. But I accepted everything was my fault. Didn't admit problems to anyone, that would admit my imperfections. After pointing out to me that he could control his diet and the diet didn't control him, another dig at me. He offered his ultimate insult,I was so ugly that not even a blind man would touch me, and if I did ever find,one, it would take every dollar in my wallet to pay him, for no intelligent would do it for free. And still he did this and I meekly accepted it. Then we lost power during a bad storm in 2012, no cold drinks, he wouldn't drink warm drinks or water so he basically dehydrated and died on the 4th of July. After he died I started going through his personal papers, turned out his doctor had told him he was in kidney failure, without intervention he would die. Had he told me, the woman who gave up college, sublimated her wishes, her self respect and did her up most to please him for 44 years, 2/3rd of her life?Nope, and suddenly the blinders fell off my eyes. I had given everything up and got little in return. I was basically alone, yes I still had my son, although he was and still,is a comfort, to me I would have to be an adult, yes the self-same person told,she was nothing wihout him to,lean on. Guess what he was wrong then and he's still wrong. I am loved in this world for being,me,not somebody's daughter, somebody's wife, somebody's parent, loved for me and me alone. And like a prisioner wrongly,imprisoned for a crime he didn't commit, I am free! And since I am now freed, I can want and achieve a dream, bariatric surgery, yes it is a late date in my life, but I can still have a few more years to live smaller, fitter and with a greater degree of health. And sad to say, there probably surgeon's that will say,i,am too old, too physically depleted for surgery. So now I have to carry,my own banner, at 20,30,40 even 50 people are happy to March with you on such,a journey. At 72 I am forced to,make my own kind of music, sing my own song, but even then, the sound of my voicecspeaking up still deserves to be heard. You said he is not supportive of your plans for surgery? Well earlier today I wrote a poem, well I do write poetry, that part of my personality didn't get killed. You'll find it posted under Surgery is it the easy way out? I may be a little proud of my own work but I think,of is pretty good. Go read,it, everyone else reading can too. Then get back to me if you like. I'm almost always within earshot,of my android phone. Your older but wiser friend Frust8
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How Good are You about Not Drinking While Eating?
Gundy replied to Beck90's topic in POST-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
I felt the same way as you about drinking and eating. Thought it was overkill until I was meeting with a Bariatric dietician. I had asked her what keys she thought led to success as a Bariatric patient. She said she saw the most success with individuals who followed the 30/30rule. After I heard that, I started to be a believer! -
I'm not an New Englander, just a humble Midwesterner but I will say there seem to,be quite a few Bostonians here. You might look up Coppola Bus, he will be having his surgery within the next week or 2. At any rate, welcome and please stay awile, we are all very nice people on Bariatric Pal๐๐
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Bariatric haul! What have you bought for your journey or plan to buy?
Yo-yo girl replied to Yo-yo girl's topic in PRE-Operation Weight Loss Surgery Q&A
Wow and here I thought I was prepared lol I need gas x mild laxative and protein water. I just got my bariatric advantage multivitamin and that was a fail. Those things are soooo nasty. I need more unflavored protein too- Oh and the baby food, deff getting some meat flavors and fruits. Yo-Yo Girl from New York City