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Thank u. I have been super careful so far, but last night I think I just ate a little to fast a mistake I'll never do again lol.

@@Spooney Ha! I had that same question! I don't think I ever really got an answer, seeing as how they are a liquid that's how I treated them. The not drinking water is in part to help not push the food through so fast to where you can eat more so protein drinks won't be an issue....I don't think.

Thanks ya'll. Im nervous , is all beginning to sink in and its all moving very fast now . But im ready to feel normal again !

Glad to hear you are feeling better today. You will make lots of progress every day for these first few days. It's amazing how quickly your body can bounce back. Just make sure you take everything very slowly and don't push yourself too hard too fast.

Hi Angela, You are doing excellent right now. Remember that any weight loss before you are properly restricted is bonus weight. Now is a time for your stomach to heal, not to focus on losing weight(though I know that is VERY hard!!) I went thru the exact same feelings as you are, feeling like I wasn't losing as much weight as other bandsters....Usually there will be a fast loss at the beginning and then the weight loss will slow to 1-2 lbs a week AFTER you are properly restricted. This is the hard part, I won't lie. I couldn't wait till I had restriction b/c I was basically wide open and was able to eat anything and everything. Just try to focus your best on eating lean Protein and veggies once you are able to and off of mushies. You may be one of the lucky ones and experience restriction right off of the bat or with only one fill. It took me 2 big ones to feel anything. Patience is key with this band. I am still working on it!! About the working out, I was able to 2 weeks after my surgery. I was SO sick of simply walking as well so I got the OK from my surgeon to proceed. A lot of people will wait 6 weeks on the weights, it is up to you though. I was fine on everything but situps because of the pain in my port area and stitches I waited. Congrats on your awesome weight loss so far!!! ~Liz~ banded 03/10/06 Dr.Ortiz 241/199/150 5'7''

This depends on a lot of factors : How big you are How long you've been big How fast you lose weight and probably the most important factor : GENETICS.

Both my Dr. and the Ins. co required it. I asked my Dr. why he required it and he said he had a patient who once committed suicied after not loosing weight as fast as her thought he should and the Dr. almost stopped preforming Lap band surgeries after that so that is why he requires it. I assume the ins. does for simmillar reasons.

Hi I have lost 88 pounds since 13 March 2012 but I dont by any stretch of the imagination think it is to fast.In fact it feels like it has slowed down to a snails trail and I find it very frustrating. I still have 40 pounds to lose.So for me it wasnt too fast. How much do you still have to lose?

Newbeginning who is doing your surgery? We have some great doctors here. Many of my friends have had the surgery. Congrats on having a date! My date came so fast I feel like it was here before I knew it!

Hey everyone, I just wanted to write a little update. I am so not a blog writing person, but I think writing helps me stay accountable and then I am able to go back and read what I wrote. Ok.. so for the stats. I am three weeks post op, I had my surgery on Jan26th (self pay). My starting weight a week before surgery was 220 and then my weight day of surgery was 211 (I think the first scale was a little heavy because I was not required to do a pre-op). And I weighed myself today (without clothes) and I was around 203. That’s only about a 7/8 pound lost from the day of surgery in 3 weeks. I am little disappointment but I know I have cheated a couple of times and I am not very strict about the protein and liquids. I know I need to get it together!! But I am glad that at least I am following my progress so that I can implement some changes and see results. I dont know if I told you all... but my short term goal is to lose a lot of weight by my 30th bday on June 30th. That leaves around 4 1/2 months to lose weight. I want to lose around 30 pounds. I would absolutely love to be 170 something by my 30th b-day. lol. You wont be able to tell me I am not cute. hahaha. OK so back to the stats. I've been on mushies for around 3 weeks. I was lucky in that my dr did not require 2 weeks of full liquids but instead wanted us to do mushies for week 2-4. I can do that. I went to the 2 week nutrition class last week and it was good. I told the nurse that I was only getting about 40 grams of protein a day and she warned that my hair may fall out if I dont get the 60-70. Ouch,, I dont want that. So while I have beefed it up.. I am not where I need to be. So starting today I am taking a renewed effort in getting my protein. I just cant seem to find any vitamins or calcium that taste good.. eeew, the chewables are soo nasty; they taste like chald. Am I the only one that misses eating. OMG.. I knew I was a emotional and mental eater but I never knew it was this bad. I just miss the social aspect of eating. Like now.. Im like well what’s the point of going to the mall or to eat if I cant eat anything good. I guess I am saving money...but I sure do miss eating. I have my first restaurant outing tonight with a girlfriend...hopefully that works. Because I haven’t told her about my surgery and I want to just act like normal. My mushi stage includes fish... so I think I will just get fish and mash potatoes or a veggie. That seems to work good for me. But eating with people..I notice that people eat so fast and just slurp their food up. My gosh... I never knew how much we as a people dont stop to really enjoy and taste our food. Speaking of not telling people.. I just told my BF about the surgery. Ouch. I was really nervous about it. He lives in a different state so I was able to hide it from him but since he was coming down for Valentines day I knew I had to say something. Surprisingly he reacted alot better than I expected. His main thing was that he wish I would have told him so that he could of been here to help me. I asked him would he have tried to talk me out of it..he said yes cause he doesn’t think I needed hte surgery. And I told him..see thats why I didnt tell him. He was really helpful while he was here.. He is a Chef..so he made me lots of soft food and even ate the same foods as me. It was nice. OK.. so I need to focus on a couple of things. I think I have gotten kinda complacent with the surgery already. I need to make sure I take all my vitamins, calcium citrate and water and protein. AND exercise (well I still can only walk until next week) and make better choices of food. Right now.. I am eating any soft thing that I can and not really paying attention to caloric or sugar or fat contents. And I am sure that is the reason for the lack of weight loss. So starting today I am going to get it together. I have my 4 week appointment next week and I want to record some weight loss. I also need to stop cheating . Right now the biggest cheat for me is candy. It my twisted little reasoning.. I was like hmm if I can have chewable vitamins then I can have something like sweet-tarts or smarties. And they go done just fine. Argh, I need to stop eating them. So.. like I said I go for my 4 week appointment next week and for some reason they are combining my 4 and 6 weeks appointments and will be giving me my fill then. I didn’t think anything of it initially but now that I think if it...it seems a little soon for a fill. The good thing is that I wont have the bandster hell that everyone talks about but then I wont really get to enjoy regular food. Because right before I hit the 4 week mark I will have the fill and have to back on liquids for a bit. Has this happen to anyone? Should I ask the dr for a fill later than 4 weeks. OK thats enough for now... I should write more frequently so I wont have as much to say. I think I am going to take progress pics tonight so see if I notice a difference. That should be fun. I know I have a NSV... I was able to button up a coat and not have has much pull as it used to have. it was great. now I don’t have to use a scarf to cover up the snug button. Have a good day everyone.

Yah it really is hard to get the protein in. I also had trouble with the chewable vitamins and calcium. But you do get used to them. Now they don't both me at all. I just suck them. They will disolve. I also have cheated on my diet and often eat more than I should. This is not good. I have resolved to do better. If you really want to lose lbs. you really have to stick to the 3/4 cup food per meal and don't eat between meals. No snacking. And drink plenty of water and exercise. These are all key to losing wt. But don't beat yourself up over it if you cheat occasionally. It is easy to do though. I know. We all fall off the wagon at one time or another. Keep positive and get back on that wagon. I agree with you about taking the time to taste your food. My goodness I have often said how I so appreciate my food now that it is limited. Everything just tastes so divine to me. ha ha. It is great. My problem is I eat too fast, I have to learn to slow down and don't wait to eat till I am starving. Things tend to get stuck if you eat too fast or too much. I have found that out! I got my first fill at 1 month post op. Only 1/2 cc. Didn't feel much restriction from it at all. Kinda disappointed. I think I need more put in my band to make it work like it should. My next appt. with Doc isn't till 1 month from now. Geez. So I guess I will just work at better food choices and like you said trying to get that protein in. And exercise more. Hope the month goes by quickly and I lose some wt. So good luck to you and I hope you have great success with your wt. loss. Keep us posted. Take care.

Well, the surgery was on Friday and it's Sunday now. Still a bit sore but feeling better than I did yesterday. The liquid diet thing is getting old already. Although the protein whey shake wasn't too bad. I got this strawberry powder one you just mix with water or whatever. Wasn't too bad really. Something different. You get sick of just eating broth and jello. I can't wait until the end of the week when I can go on soft foods like eggs and maybe hot cereals like cream of wheat or farina. Took the bandages off today and my skin is really irritated around the incisions where they were. Walked for a while today around the neighborhood. I'm trying to get out there for at least 30 minutes every day. I'm just happy these two days are almost gone because hopefully the worst of the soreness is over. I know I'll still be somewhat sore for the next few weeks but this really hurt the past two days. I'm off the percocet and just taking a tylenol here and there now. Hard thing so far is eating slower even with jello. I feel hungry so I'm eating it way too fast and later on I feel like there's a lump just sitting there in the pit of my stomach. So I've really got to work on that especially since I'm going to regular food soon. The weird thing is gauging whether or not you're really hungry or you THINK you're hungry. The mind is still telling me "EAT! You're HUNGRY moron, why are you not going upstairs and grabbing a snack?" The commercial on TV for Chili's new burgers didn't help. I sat there like Pavlov's dog and salivated so much I needed a shamwow towel to clean up the mess. Good news by the way. I just came back to writing this after visiting the little boys room and I'm proud to report I had my first bowel movement after two days. I haven't felt such joy since I watched a "Facts of life" marathon on TV Land. I'm just wondering what advice Mrs. Garrett would have had for me about this, what with her down home folksy good humor and wisdom beyond her 68 years. Ok. That's about it for now. I'll write again soon.

it helps me to make up menu's for a few wks at a time. that they i incorporate new recipes or a new item i am wanting to try. make a grocery list and stick to it. the first few times i went to the store it took me forever because i was reading everything and i was very overwhelmed. i cried when i got home. but now it's a breeze since i do the menu's. did you do the liquids, mushies and then solids after surgery? a week out and on solids i think is a bit fast. i know everyone is diff and every dr is diff but there is no way in heck i could eat solids after a week. if you need some ideas go check out the food and nutriton forum or do a search on google or yahoo for recipes. i found ALOT and printed them off and have made myself a cookbook. even if you find a recipe and you might not like something in it you and improvise and make it to your liking.

My VSG Story PRE-OP: Two weeks prior to my surgery date of April 10, 2013, I had a check up with my primary care physician and tipped the scale at 343 pounds, 5-10 in height. I researched the VSG procedure and doctors in Mexico due to my insurance not covering bariatric surgery in the US for several months. All my findings led me to Dr. Fernando Garcia in Tijuana, MX. I went through the coordinating company, Ready 4 a Change. I chose that company because the response was instantaneous and I never waited more than a couple of hours for a response to my questions via email, even on weekends which is unheard of in the States. All in all, I would definitely recommend this coordinating company again. Also, I travelled alone, which went extremely well, and I guess would depend on the circumstances but I would not hesitate to do it alone again. On 3-27-2013, I started my two week pre-op diet which consisted of all liquids, protein shakes, and small salad for dinner. I did fairly well on the diet but cheated a few times very minor like one bagel bite, or a small bite of my wife's burger. Anyways, the diet sucks nonetheless but after day 2-3 it's really not that bad. The protein shakes I used were syntax nectar strawberry kiwi, and the chocolate/vanilla premier protein. I would advise to start some type of workout regimen during this phase. This pre-op diet is meant for shrinking the liver to provide a safer surgery, not necessarily weight loss. Again, all in all the two week pre-op diet went well and it went by fast after the first couple days. DAY OF SURGERY: On the day of surgery, I flew out from Dallas, TX to San Diego, California. Upon arrival to the airport, which I was 15 minutes early, I called the driver with R4AC, and he said he was just around the corner and showed up in 5 minutes flat. He even asked me on the phone if I wanted him to remove the company sign from the outside of the van, which I though was courteous. I told him no need, I'm not ashamed! So the driver picks me up and we head across the border which was uneventful and easy. We make our way to the hospital, as I elected for same day surgery so I would stay two nights in the hospital, and three nights in the hotel. Upon arrival to the hospital (Hospital was Florence Health System/Oasis) I was immediately checked in and taken to my private room with hospital bed with nurse call button, TV, an extra bed for a support person, etc. pretty much anything you would find in a hospital in the states. Now, this hospital is in the process of renovations with state of the art operating rooms as in the states, but the rooms are a bit older but nothing to gripe about for sure, and very clean. So I make it to my room and put everything up, and I am greeted by Melissa from R4AC, and she starts going over paperwork and answering any questions I had. The nurse comes in with a hospital gown and says to take everything off, including the underwear. So during the next 1-2 hrs, I have blood drawn for labs, an EKG done, chest x-ray, and an IV put in (first try,) and given a happy pill to relax. I also meet with all of the Dr's at the hospital including Dr. Velasco who is a bypass patient herself. Dr. Grafias who is a sleeve patient. Dr. Cabrera the anesthesiologist, Dr. Luna who is a bariatric surgeon as well, and Dr. Fernando Garcia, my bariatric surgeon. Pretty much all of the Dr's ask about medical history and prior and current health conditions so your basically checked 4-5 times to make sure your clear for surgery still. At about 5:30 or so, I was wheeled in to the operating room. You have to scoot over onto the operating table but no biggy. Dr. Luna took my wife's number down on his phone to call and let her know once surgery was done and everything was ok, which he did according to my wife. I remember one of the Dr's asking me if I had anymore questions as he was pulling out the left arm rest. I said just make sure I wake up and I was out like a light. I woke in what felt like was just seconds after going out. I sat up with minor pain in my abdomen from the incisions, not gas pain. I looked at the clock and it said 7:30. I'm not sure how much of that 2 hours was surgery time vs waking up, etc, and I didn't really care. I immediately stood up when I woke up and started walking the halls. All of the nurses looked at me like I was crazy and asked if I was ok. I told them I was because several speak pretty good English to communicate. They said most people are not up and walking that quick after waking up from surgery. I guess I was the exception. So that first night was pretty good except the minor pain in my abdomen from the incisions which basically felt like I did too many sit-ups, not unbearable in the least. POST-OP DAY #2 So I slept off and on mainly because the nurses come in every 2 hrs or so to check on you and give meds, check BP, etc. The nurses were AMAZING! No complaints whatsoever, and if I pushed the call button, the longest I waited for a nurse was maybe 25-30 seconds. This day was pretty much the same, walk, rest, meds, repeat! I also had 2 leak tests done, which went good and no leaks detected. One of the leak tests was odd as you lie down on the x-ray table and drink some liquid while laying down. It didn't hurt to drink but was just an odd feeling. While walking the halls, I met 3-5 other people from various online forums and FB who had the surgery and became friends and exchanged info to keep up with each other and our progress. POST-OP DAY #3 I had my drain out this morning. it was WEIRD, like a snake in your tummy. it did not hurt at all, just awkward. I got copies of my lab work, x-rays, etc and was discharged. Then around 10 or so, I was picked up by the Hotel Marriott shuttle and taken to the hotel. It was extremely nice and the same as you would get in the US. I got checked in and taken to my room. You get 3 free bowls of chicken broth, 3 free Popsicles, and 2 free bottles of water daily. I would not eat the Popsicles, but there is a small shop in lobby you can buy Popsicles which were awesome. The broth was ok at times, and way to salty others, but then again it's broth...boring! The first day I relaxed mostly and went out by the pool and lounged around and didn't really do much. Still no pain really except for abdomen from incision sites. POST-OP DAY #4 Today I lounged around again and walked a bit around the hotel. I ventured out and took a can to the local Walmart as I started feeling some acid reflux, which is common with VSG, and bought some omeprazole which helped a lot and it was gone in 2 days. Dr. Luna came by and removed the staples from the incisions, which did not hurt, and cleaned all the sites and put steri strips on them and covered up the drain hole. I was given medicine before leaving the hospital which included antibiotics, disgusting liquid acid reducer, and pain meds, which I didn't take any of it. I had dinner with some new found friends and co-sleevers and got some sleep. POST-OP DAY 5 Today was the same as day 4 pretty much. Lounged, went out with some new friends, had dinner, etc. I packed up all my stuff and got ready to leave in the AM. I got a call around 8:30 by the driver who gave me the option of leaving at 6 am or 9 am. My flight left at 1:20 pm but I was ready to get back to the states so I opted for 6 am. POST-OP DAY 6 I woke up and was checked out of the hotel and in the lobby by 6, when driver promptly arrived. Myself and 2 other sleevers headed back to the US. It took us about an hour and a half to make it across the border, it was very busy but an easy process as we all had our passports. Made it to the airport, caught my flight home, end of story! All in all, I would say the level of service and care in MX was equal to and even greater in some areas than that in US. I would highly recommend Dr. Garcia and his team, R4AC, and Florence/Oasis Hospital. I would do this whole over again and look forward to taking some of my family members and/or friends to MX for this procedure. If you have any questions, feel free to e-mail me and I hope to help others with their journey if I possibly can. Johnathanw1988@gmail.com

Thanks for the fast reply. I have lost about 37 and I am still losing, but I continue to read how the band won't work without a fill and I know that I am doing most of the work. It is not the same as when I was first banded and didn't want to look at food. The weightloss was so easy then. I am just wondering if that is what will return with a fill and proper restriction. That would be so much easier than the daily struggle I am having now. Thanks Wendy

My doctor gave nausea meds too. If it is bad, you can give them a call and see if they can give you some. The pain meds made me nauseous. Eating or drink too much or too fast can make you throw up also.

I was sleeved just a week ago. Last night I was eating a pudding, and probably a little too fast..LOL. Well I took a big bite and felt like it literally stretched my sleeve a bit. Like I could feel it, kind of a stretchy pain. Now all day today I have a weird pain if I eat or drink anything. It's near my belly button. It's more of a sore overworked muscle feeling than like a sharp pain. Knowing me I probably damaged something!!!

Yes I just had surgery on May 28. When will this pain go away. It hurts like hell. Not sure what hurts worse the gas , the nausea or this pain in my shoulder / neck Thank you for the fast replays. I was really scared . And my doctor hasn't called be back. Gotta love Vegas. Lol

I'm getting banded on sept 19, it can't get here fast enough.

I know quite well what you're talking about. Despite and because of that, I shall not coddle you. Digging for some reality seems more the thing. The common wisdom is that people don't fear failure; we don't fear the familiar. It's fear of the unfamiliar that makes us break out in hives. What do you think the unfamiliar might be in context of what you've said? A week's fast on water? That's not too masochistic. What does it mean to "re-set my body?" It sounds like an orthopedics procedure. If you can't stick to a diet and exercise program, it's likely that you're not ready for surgery. The procedure isn't magic. Losing and maintaining weight loss is a matter of your doing the work. If during the psych eval you tell the psychologist that you can't stick to a program and want to rely on surgery for a cure, you will not be approved. A major part of getting approval is being able to say truthfully that you understand that. There is no magic in weight loss. Never make that mistake. You'll go through surgery and remain as you are or perhaps even continue to gain weight. Approval depends in large part in demonstrating that you're expectations are realistic and that you are capable of understanding and following doctor's/RD's/NP's and whomever else's instructions. "What if,"what if," "what if." Waste of time. Anxiety will see you locking yourself into a closet. One thing at a time. Tormenting yourself is not permitted on my watch. Do you really think you need a therapist? Why ever would you say such a thing? From my perspective and my own experience, I'll venture a guess that you sure do. There, too, the work is yours to do. The benefit can be invaluable in helping you sort out lots of things that need sorting out, the emotional and psychological as well as the pragmatic. Try sitting down with paper and pen. Real paper and pen, which I think will connect you more closely to the task. The task is to write down what you want. Not what you think you need or what you think you "have" to do. With very few exceptions, no one "needs to" anything. What matters is what one "wants to (fill in the blank)." Really wants. Make a list of what you want in broad terms, not only about losing weight. Then work on a list of all the reasons you want to lose weight and other goals. Keep them very specific. Example: "I want to be healthy" is far an excellent reason, but too broad for this exercise. Break it down into what you want to change, listing each health concern separately. You'll learn more, e.g., your values, priorities, et al., about yourself that you may have known. Lots of good information to have. Start by writing the things that come to mind immediately. You don't have to sit for hours until you think you have a complete list. Add things as they occur to you. You'll keep those lists because, when you do begin your journey, you'll still use them. As you accomplish each goal, you'll check it off. As new goals and desires occur, you'll add them to the list. Nothing is to unimportant or silly to go on the list. In fact, those things that seem small (and, when it comes to making changes, none is small) may be the first you accomplish. Seeing the check marks is a source of energy to stay with it. Bear with me. I don't have time to be brief. I hope I've helped.

Swizzly- sorry for any confusion. I will work on making sure my fitness posts are readable by folks with different levels of experiences and background. Sometimes, it makes perfect sense to me in my head, but may not come out reading that way!! Something for me to work on. Anyways, back to the descriptions. 1) is definitely a straight up plank, but do hold it in a push up position if you can instead of on elbows. In other word, hands flat on the ground directly under your shoulders, straight body and on toes. For fun, you could vary it more by taking one foot off the ground. 2. and 3. Now that you have expressed confusion, I thought about this. These are not really planks, but rather push-up variations. Both start in a position position as described above in 1., but the execution of each rep is a little different. Instead of pumping up and down fast like a regular push-up, slow it down to controlled and very precise movements. For 2, lower yourself to slightly above the ground and hold for 5 seconds. Now push up back to starting position of push-up and hold in position for 5 seconds. That is 1 rep.start out with 10 and increase as your core and upper body strengthens. For 3, lower yourself to slightly above the ground counting slowly from 1 to 5. Instead of pausing as in 2, change directly seamlessly, and raise back to starting position over 5 seconds. The is 1 rep. Start out with 10 and increase as your core and upper body strengthens. The rep should be 1 continuous movement with no pausing as you slowly lower and slowly raise over the span of 10 seconds. These are going to challenge you. As you get stronger in the core and upper body, they will be a welcoming exercise to really build strength. And you can make them harder and more advanced in any number of ways such as slower reps, more reps, 1 legged or 1 armed. Is the more clear? Hope so!

I have this guy up at work that keeps saying negative comments about my upcoming surgery. I have been assertive in letting him know that this is my decision to make and it is a major life change that I am willing to undertake. This has been the "norm" for the past three months since I started working at this place. Fast forward to today... we were all rearranging our office (drafting office so there are a bunch of desks) and I was sweating and getting winded. (easy to do at 400 lbs.) This fella says to me "you just need to work out more and eat less, not take the easy way out by getting surgery". Man that burned me up! Like I said I am the "new" guy and It is a pretty loose office. We have fun and joke around with each other. It really is fun at times. It is a small business and there is no real HR department. I do not want to look like the guy trying to get people in trouble. What on earth can I do? The fella is bipolar and really strong so I don't want to tick him off too much if you know what I mean! I am at a loss for the first time since I began this whole journey.

So far 90 in 10 months... Stalling is normal, i am stalling now for the past 3 weeks its normal... I been thru plenty of times... But then u loose them fast... Dont worry, i know is hard... But its normal

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I’m feeling awful, not physically but emotionally. I am 2 months post op today. My first month post op I felt great. I recovered quickly & was learning quickly how to eat and drink afterwards. My sleeve seems to like just about anything unless I eat too fast and don’t realize it. Emotionally after surgery I also felt amazing. I felt better than I had in years. I finally felt like I was seeing progress and started to feel a lot better about myself and I felt as if I was dealing with my relationships with people a lot better (I always felt very anxious around people). I felt so confident about the decision that I made, that I decided that it shouldn’t be kept a secret. If someone asked where I’ve been or how I had been losing weight so quickly, I had no problem telling them about the surgery. It was the first time in a long period of time that I didn’t spend a couple days crying over things that hurt me, it felt freeing and I felt on my way to this ‘new’ life. But the last two weeks I have felt absolutely awful. I feel like everyone’s treating me like crap. My boyfriend was very supportive when the surgery happened but now continually tries to offer me food that I shouldn’t be eating. We went out to eat and over dinner I wanted to talk to him about how serious it was that I change the habits I had before surgery and how I didn’t want to get sucked back into greasy, fat, fried & fast food again. I asked him if he could please just eat a little healthier around me (ex: a sandwich instead of a burger) instead of asking me to stop at a fast food place when he gets into my car if I can just make him something when we get back to my place. He still didn’t understand after this conversation what I was saying.. He thinks its ok to eat that kind of food because I “can’t eat much of it anyways”, so he thinks it does no harm. Not even five minutes after this conversation he asks if I want to split a milkshake with him. *rolls eyes* On top of this, I have also lost all of my sex drive.. I honestly don’t know if it’s because I’m finally taking birth control for the first time ever.. or because I’m fed up with all of it. Other than that my mother has never been supportive of any kind of surgery and thinks it’s easy to just jump on a treadmill and eat some carrots in order to get down to the weight you need to. I moved in with my sister 5 days before I had surgery. She has always been the All-Star of the family. Skinny, dancer, beautiful, dresses & carries herself nicely & so on. I’ve always been very envious of her and always have looked up to her. These past two weeks have had me feeling so awkward around her and her friends. I just feel like that fat kid in the corner that doesn’t have a clue. Besides everyone else, I’m really not making myself any better. I get all dolled up and look in the mirror and sometimes I just cry.. I feel like I look awful and I get such anxiety just thinking I have to go out looking this way… I don’t have much support with the decision I made besides myself. I was comfortable with that but when people, a long with your own mindset try to throw you off the wagon.. It gets really hard to try to get back on.. I honestly don’t really know how to get my mind ‘back in the game’. Don’t get me wrong.. I’m still having all my protein and vitamins throughout the day. The only thing that has lacked recently is my exercising. I guess I just needed to vent.. but mostly was hoping for some feedback.. any suggestions on how to get out of this rut…