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I'm really looking foward to this upcomming year, We just spent the whole last year starting a new life and now we'll spend the next one begining to live our new lives. Congrats to all as each of our days aproach. I went shopping to get a couple of things to wear on our 4th of July getaway. I found myself with a NSV Size 10 jeans!! All I could think was a size 9 is just around the corner, I can't remember the last time I bought single didget clothing. I hope ya'll have a great weekend!!!!

I am back from my trip and happy to see that everyone seems to be doing well. I was correct in thinking that I wouldn't get any formal exercise in, but we walked soooo much that I actually lost 2 lbs! My NSV from the trip was that on the plane ride I no longer require the seatbelt extender like I did on my flight 4 years ago. Not only do I not need the extender, but there is quite a bit of excess that it can fold back a little! I don't really lose or gain much any more. I stay between 95-100 lbs gone from surgery. I gained some when my mom was dying, but lost that soon after her death. I will begin exercising at the gym again tonight. Oh, and I went for my checkup and my doc did bloodwork and it seems that I am HEALTHY. I have the horrible family history of heart disease, but my blood pressure, cholesterol and all blood work suggest that I don't have anything to worry about, so I guess if I have a heart attack I get to call him a liar and punch him...right? seems only fair! Cynthia, keep you butt moving, girl. Don't stop! Hey, Donna, Good to see you check in. I just came back myself. I am active on a different website, because I hate the format of this one now.

Has anyone had any NSV's the last week? I had a few.... I flew to Atlanta last week and found I actually fit in a plane seat with room to spare and I can pull the seatbelt tight across my lap without extending it as far as it will go and see it rather than it hide under my belly! My lane bryant size 14 dress pants and jeans are hanging off my arse and while in atlanta I decided to go shopping (lane bryant 14 is a 'normal' size 16). I bought size 14 dress pants and a pair of levi's in the misses section and a couple large shirts from the juniors of macy's I hven't done that since I was probably 12. Last night my dog took off like a rocket and I ran full sprint after him clear across the community by the time I caught him I was several blocks from home and was hardly winded. Curious how far I had gone I later took the car out to measure and it was 1.1 miles (my dog sucks!). I have never been able to run more than 1/4 mile without feeling the onset of death. It's the little things that make it all worth it!

Ok, I shared this link on the OOTD thread, but there is an NSV here too... The boots I'm wearing are not only regular calf width boots, but for the FIRST TIME EVER, I was able to easily zip boots over jeans! AND still have room to spare to put on some nice warm knee high socks when it gets colder!

Crossing my legs has been one of the most exciting NSV for me

Big NSV I've gone from barely fitting a 3x to fitting into a 1x. It's like a whole clothing world is opening up. I shop at stores like Burlington and Ross and I feel like the plus size selection is sparse for 2X and up. It's also kind of bittersweet. I'm getting off all of this weight that I've gained since having 2 kids and I'm learning that my body composition is.... Different. The biggest part of my body has always been my butt and thighs. My stomach is now the largest area. I'm still thrilled with the changes! Just learning to dress a new body type! Sent from my SM-G960U using BariatricPal mobile app

These days I've been coming up with NSV's that somehow/sometimes don't really seem like NSV's, as I'm not quite sure how I feel about it. So here's another one: Yesterday, Mr. carried me up the stairs, not like on his back like piggy-back, nor over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes/flour/presents/whatever, but like over-the-threshold kind of carry...which he hasn't done since he literally carried me over the threshold to our first house before the Kid was born (~15 years ago) All the way up, I kept thinking he was going to pull his back out or something and we would take a tumble and then when we got to the top, sooooo relieved when we got there intact.

yesterdays NSV - I was able to buy a few items of clothes at a physical Old Navy store because I didn't need plus size . Today, I realized I needed to go and exchange a couple sweaters because they're too large! So I was able to buy XL sweaters! (even though I know ON runs large, still excited).

I hope Tess and Harley are back to feeling 100% - this is hardly the time of year to be feeling unwell! Well, it looks as if I was the one who let the team down T-day! I probably took in a good 2000 cals, but because of my weight, that was hardly the end of the world, and I have no doubt I lost on the day. I do have some restriction now, something I've been reminded of twice in the last couple of days. Friday I wolfed down a piece of leftover turkey with white bread and a bit of mayo - apparently not enough mayo because it got stuck and was rejected. And last night I was in Madison Square Park (a public garden, not an arena) and went to the shake Shack (a kind of trendy, high quality take-out place in the park) where I got a hot dog. Which also got stuck - luckily it was dark and cold, and no one saw me sending it back the other way into the garbage. I'm slowly coming to terms with this thing, and that I can't gulp stuff down like a gannet! I actually have to follow the guidelines if I want to continue to thrive. I'm losing weight - I had to tighten my belt another notch yesterday (small NSV!). I'll weigh in tomorrow morning at my office, then tomorrow night I get on a plane, and will be in Paris until Xmas day. And we shall just SEE how I do there. I think I'll do quite well - I mentioned I'd met someone online, and we're going to meet for the first time on the 26th or 27th, when she'll be visiting NYC. It'll be interesting to see which is stronger, the allure of the perfect pastry, or the possibility of love! I don't know how often I'll be on for the next few weeks - I haven't yet had internet service installed in my apartment. I have to finish writing this damn thing, and I didn't want to be distracted by anything. Now I'm thinking I don't want to be isolated over the holidays, so... we shall see!

Karla -FYI CAKE can act like bread sometimes - and as tight as you are it may - Have you called for an appoint to get some taken out... It's NOT SUPPOSE TO HURT TO EAT... Have you tried drinking something hot before you try to eat and yes protein bars are just like candy bars - just as many calories as a candy bar - only diff is that they have protein.. Karri turned me on to the pure protein bars - They are very good especially when you keep them in the fridge.. There is nothing to be embarrassed about 213 - heck we all were there at one time... You are 40 lbs lighter than 2 months ago and that's what matters - You are on your way girl.. Congrats on the NSV by not eating the ice cream... Congrats on your gym time - I guess doing weights I could maybe do a little longer at the gym - but really and hour and a half is my max time there... Did legs tonite - going in the morning again for another 2.5 miles and then tomorrow nite for arms (make up from monday we didn't do our traing as the gym closed early) Congrats on Member of the Month !!!! That's Great :crying: Ya I know you like a little competition :0) Ya you will win in the losing more - cuz I really don't think I want to get any lower than 135 - and I was able to maintain 138 until after easter - since then - it's been 139 - 140 - 141 I want 138 !!! I don't want 143... I am having flounder tonite - never had it before but it looks good - need to go ck out tv food network to see how I am suppose to cook it.. Phyl - Steph - Kari - Denise - Candice - are you all in on our 5 lbs in 2 weeks...

Hello my Lucky # 7's. Well we went to our Halloween party last night and guess what...............DH and I (raggedy ann and andy) won 3rd place!!!!! HAHA It was sooooo fun! We lost to a little boy (kids always win though because they are just so darn cute!!) and my mom and her boyfriend. They really deserved it though!! They went as a 1920's flapper girl and gangster. They looked awsome!!! I danced the night away and had a couple of strawberry strippers. Didn't look at the calorie count on those because I prob would have freaked out!!! I don't feel guilty though because it was a special occassion and I do not do that very often. I have to tell you though I was so proud of myself. All this yummy food around and I didn't over eat and didn't even think of the food after I ate. I had made my maidrites (93% lean ground beef and salsa) and I ate the meat and a very few (not even a full serving) of chips and that is all I ate. I was very satisfied and didn't feel deprived at all. I think I might just be winning this head thing and my thinking is definately changing. I wasn't worried about 'how am I going to get more food and not be noticed' or eating just a little and starving myself because I didn't want to look like a pig. I was more worried about getting out on that dance floor and gettin my groove on. LOL What a NSV!!! Anyway sorry I was rambling. I am down 2 pounds for the Thanksgiving challenge!! Haven't gained yet today from my last night adventures but sometimes it takes a couple of days. I have ramped up my exercise and kept myself moving today hoping to ward of gain and maybe burn extra because of last night. Hope everyone else is doing great!!!

It still amazes me that I can get in a size 12! I am pretty sure that the last time that I was a size 12 it was size 12mo when I was an baby:tongue:! I can't fit in all size 12s, but I can feel that the ones that I am wearing are starting to get a little looser. Maybe I can fit in all of them now, but a month ago I couldn't. It still is that dang top roll that is killing me. My brother's girlfriend gave me some of her old clothes that don't fit her any more as she is now a size 4, but the cut just isn't right for me. She gave me a pair of size 9 jeans, but they are so low waisted that my top roll sticks out like a sore thumb. The jeans fit and my BF liked what they did for my butt, however I don't think I could find a shirt that I would be comfortable wearing with them. Besides, I would have to get new underwear to wear with these. They are very low rise! I even fit into the pair of size 8s that she gave me, but again it is the top roll. I have got to find something that will take it away. I have not even contimplated plastic surgery as I just don't think that there is anyway that I would ever be able to afford it (especially until my surgery is paid off), but I don't know that this top roll is ever going to go away. Also, my breasts are getting really bad and I am only 28. I look alright when I am fully dressed, but naked :eek::eek: it is not a pretty sight. Janet - as for the food, you may be like I am right now where mornings are tough to eat anything and then you open up at night. I am still not where I would like to be optimally, but I am doing alright. I am getting to 1000 calories now so that is good for me. I have been battling a lot of head hunger this weekend but I think that was because I was sad. However, I did relatively well and when I went to the store specifically to get something for dessert...I got fresh melon instead of cheesecake which is what I really wanted. It turned out that the fruit was just as good and took care of my craving. Good NSV for me! Well we are on a 2 hour delay here so my lunch time has been way off, so I am completely out of whack! But I have to get my portfolio's together for my evaluation so I should probably get that done. Later!

Marcy - Great NSV :clap2::clap2::clap2: Food on your plate - but it into a box ASAP so you won't be tempted to continue to pick - I am the same way too. It's mind over matter you can do it... I know you can.... Make good food choices and sweet spot being hit - you will do it....

Okay ladies. I have a couple of minutes while the kids settle down to sleep before I wii fit. I wanted to say a few things about what I read this morning.... Marcy, You look fantastic. 50 pounds is a great loss in one year and you should be celebrating it. It does look like more than that from your pictures. What a whole new you! Congratulations on your Bandiversary. I hope you are going to do something spectacular to Celebrate your success. Kari, what a great NSV!!! I'm happy I did the surgery before the diabetes became an issue but I can imagine how exciting it is to be coming off your meds. And lowering the BP is a great success! Wow for you! Karri, I hope you are enjoying a quiet day in the a/c. Let the coolness lull you to sleep. Did your doc give you any suggestions on what you could do to help you sleep since she took away your narcotics? I'm really hoping the cooler air will do the trick. I hope you got a good nap in this morning. As for the bacon issue, I wish I had your taste buds. It all still tastes fabulous to me. Except maybe ice cream....that's too sweet. I can live with a bite or two of dh's every now and again....but all the other bad for me stuff still tastes so darn good. I wish I knew how you did it. You are amazing. Have a great day and drink drink drink, eat, eat, eat!!! To add cals have you thought of that powder that weight trainers put in everything....I think it's just Protein but I don't know for sure. I know you have trouble with milk products so I don't know what to suggest....what about a nice hearty meat, bean, and cheese enchillada? Add some salsa and that could be good. Adding protein to oatmeal or hot granola might be good. I don't know. Okay. I think I need to wake dh up from his lunch time nap so I can kick him out and get fitting.....see you later ladies.

Hey there Bandsters, hope everyone is good and having a Great New Year!! I know I have been MIA for a while. Took some time off of work and just been enjoying the home life. Back to the grind now. Got on the scale this morning and after two weeks it finally moved 4 lbs. YAY ME!! Got a NSV, my 8's are getting too big...lol...that was funny just to type it. Could I be going into a 6? Just blows my mind. Down 50 pounds in 5 months. WOW!!! Made a new years resolution to start going to the gym at least 3x's a week. I have had a membership just always able to make an excuses of why I cant go. Not this time. Exercise starts now...I have lost 50lbs without exercising, i can only imagine how much would be gone if I had been doing what I was suppose to. Only 14 lbs till my goal of 135...

GOOD MORNING GANG I AM BACK............................ 800 miles between Friday and Sunday :thumbup:... Good to see my Sister and my neices & nephews - I hadn't been up north for a couple of yrs (my sis was here last nov) they where shocked about my weight loss and I guess it's showing in a pic that I will post in a bit from my GD graducation - you will get to seen my 2 gk & son I went to the gym friday before I left then gs and i went to the mall and he gave me a great NSV - when we use to go to the mall he would be 10 steps a head of me - well on friday he said LaLa why are you running (walking so fast really) as I was a head of him - I said I am just walking.... Then we went to target and I didn't look for a parking space close to the store - took the first one I saw - he said - you really have changed:biggrin: At my sisters on Saturday morning I did one mile with my BIL - an ok speed then I did 2 more miles at a very good speed by myself. Hope all that countered the 2 1/2 cookie and wine I had :thumbup: Yes you guys were quite - I remember looking at page 700 when i posted on Friday - so that I would know what page I had to go back to - well 701 -- I wanted to sleep in but dogs had me up at 7 - which is better than 5 - well woke me up at 5 put took Angel potty and went back to bed. I think I need to go do my 3 miles this morning since I am off and then I meet my training partner at 5 - my trainer is gone this week so it's just us girls :thumbup: I am going to go see if I can post the pic - it's been a while since I have done it... CBL

Phyl that a BIG NSV for you :eek: Be Happy & proud... You deserve it...:frown: Yep - good job - boring game until the last 5 minutes - My GD & I were for NY - DIL was for NE - I kept asking my Son why the news was so down on ELI - He gave me the scoop - Well now he can tell them all to jump in the lake he won the super bowl....

I am here, but I have been busy. We went shopping yesterday before our party and OMG talk about NSV's. We went to Ross to get some pants, because all of mine were starting to get to the point of putting my career on the line. I mean if they fall off when I am teaching that could put a damper on my career! So I filled up my arms with a bunch of size 12 pants and trotted off to the fitting room. By the time I finished trying them all on, I was in tears. Tears of joy that is. NONE of them fit. They were all too big. I am now in 10s. That was my original goal. I never dreamed that I could get smaller than a ten but with 24 pounds to go to get to my goal, who knows what is possible:biggrin:. So on the brag board I posted my pics along with the 10 ten things that I have learned in the last 6 months, but I want to add another one that I just thought of. Here are the original ten that I posted for those of you who don't stray from this thread often. Top ten things I have learned in 6 months 10. 650 calories takes 5 minutes to eat and 2.5 hours to work off. 9. There is NOT always room for Jello. 8. Sometimes it takes 28 years before you can finally run that mile. 7. Even if no one sees you eat it, the calories still exist. 6. Size 10 is not just for someone else. 5. A double chin is not necessary for survival. 4. I wasn't big boned...just fat. 3. The scale only gives you a number, and I am MUCH more than a number. 2. To chew or not to chew...depends on how much foam you want to spit up. And the number 1 thing that I have learned in the last 6 months... 1. To love who I have become, and to forgive myself for the past. So I think that #11 would have to be...a PB sandwich is not the same as PB'ing a sandwich!:thumbup: I wrote those for my non-bandster friends, but I don't think they would get #11! The party went really well and it was fun because it was on my 6 month bandiversary so I showed them my before and after and everyone was amazed. On another front, I have given up my scale. I have been obsessed with that thing for so long, so I made my BF hide it. I have accomplished so much in the last 6 months that I don't need to define myself by a number anymore. And if I am going to use a number to describe me it is going to be "10" for my clothing size. I will only weigh on my bandiversary dates (9th of each month) from here on out. I am running, holding my head high in cute clothes, and am no longer ashamed to look in a mirror...that is more important than what the scale says. I am not changing anything else. I am still going to workout like I have been, count calories like I have been, but I am not going to obsess about that damn scale. Well I have to get back to working. I still have a few things that I would like to get done before tomorrow. I will check in later. At that point I will go through and respond to everyone elses post. Man around here, you don't check in for a day or 2 and you could spend your whole afternoon responding! I love it!:eek:

:biggrin: You are too funny Janet... I LOVE Oprah, but the show you refer to PISSED ME OFF as well. ANd you know what else I think? The people who say " oh I lost it all myself" are jealous that they didn't have OUR tool. Sure the band does help ( am finally getting it now) but I am also choosing Better Calories to eat.. watching my protien, calcium, sodium etc. Oh, and another NSV... by blood pressure PRE-band was 130/78, well now it is consistently 123/68!! I keep re checking it with different machines.. cause its almost too good to be true!!!! I am Happy:tt1: At work today, one of the massage therapists was eating a large chocolate bar and "sharing" ha.ha..... NOPE , thanks anyways - don't want it!!!! I will allow myself a sugar free Hot chocolate but that's it!

Morning ladies, Kari - I'm sorry you had a horrible birthday. :tt2: What you need to do next year is plan your own little birthday party. Heck, you can plan a belated birthday for yourself this week!!! Book a table at your restaurant of choice, dress yourself up pretty and go and enjoy YOU. Nobody else has to come with you, but let them know of your plans and if they want to tag along, they'll have to call and add themselves to your restaurant reservations. :tt2: One of my many mantras is "if I want something done right, I'll do it myself". God knows I love the two men in my life, but if I were to suddenly fall off the face of the earth they'd be lost without me. My son probably wouldn't even realise I was gone until he ran out of clean socks and underwear. :tt2: I went "almost" shopping this weekend. "Almost" as in I almost bought something, lol. I was going to buy new jeans. Finally! And I plucked up the courage to grab some 14s and 12s off the shelf. From the NORMAL people section! :tt2: I tried the 14s on and a couple of them fit okay, except that they were a little baggy on the sides of my thighs or were too long. Then I tried on the 12s and was surprised that I was able to actually get them up AND do the button up! :tt2: They were a little more snug and I didn't like how my tummy kind of oozed over the top of them. They were low riding hipsters though and I didn't realise I'd grabbed them. Probably wasn't looking properly as it's been too long since I was in the normal section of the store. :cursing: I'm very impatient when it comes to shopping and that had run out by the time I'd tried on the 4 different pairs. But it felt wonderful being able to get into both sizes! My NSV for the weekend. Maybe next weekend I'll actually buy a pair or two. :tt2:

Hi everyone :wave: Chim, glad you've finally got your first fill and it's working in your favor so far. YAY! :whoo: I got my second today. My doc told me at my first fill that it might take another one or two to find my sweet spot. I haven't been ravenously hungry, but I've been able to eat more than I should have and not lost any weight in two weeks. But the good news is I haven't gained either! So now I have 2.5cc in my 4cc band and am assured I'll definitely feel the restriction. I'm looking forward to it. There are times when I miss eating and sharing different foods with my family, but I sure don't miss the insatiable hunger and over-eating. I also managed another NSV this week. I went for a check-up with my GP for Insulin Resistance. I had blood drawn and tested for free testosterone and insulin levels. The results came back good! I'm doing better now than I've ever done on the medication I used to get those levels under control. So good in fact I'm NORMAL!!! It's been a good number of years since anyone's told me I'm normal. :confused:

So I have decided that my fill is still too tight. We have been told that we are supposed to finish our meal in 20-30 minutes. But in order for me to get in everything that I am supposed to it is taking me at least an hour to eat because everything under the sun is getting stuck! I got stuck on YOGURT this morning. How in the world does that happen? Then trying to get in my high fiber cereal took about an hour and I did have that much. GRRRRRRR... My snack went down alright, but here I sit trying to eat my quiche for lunch and I feel like I am swallowing an elephant. I am really hoping that it loosens up soon because I don't have very many sick days and I need to save them in case something really comes up. Right now it is just an inconvenience. Nicole - Vegas can be fun, I just didn't like living there. We were supposed to go down there for vacation at the end of the school year but with the upcoming tummy tuck and my soon to be hubby taking 2 months off of work to take care of me we just aren't going to make it. I would really like to go back as a visitor. It really can't be as bad as I remember it! Ruby - That is one of the very few things I like about where we live - no allergies. There is nothing growing over here to be allergic to. But I guess if it takes sneezes to resist the cookies, I am glad you have allergies:tt2:! Jackie - nice job on the cheese cake. My DF and I bought 2 small slices of cheesecake the other night but I only ate 3 or 4 bites cause I didn't really like it. before I would have eaten it anyways but now it just isn't worth it. Huge NSV for me! Peaches - Thanks for the tip on the spag squash. The same thing happened to me that happened to Janet...it was too crunchy! As for a new fill, YIKES I would think that would hurt! That is why I am going to have my fill almost totally removed before my TT because I don't want to end up too tight and have them sticking that big ol' needle in my belly when I am sore. Chim - I sometimes wish that I had gotten a personal trainer. I think right now...what is the point, but maybe after I heal from the TT and am ready to focus on sculpting that I might need to. Janet - Hope your day is going well. You are right about hating being the fat chick. I have always been incredibly shy and refused to talk in front of people unless I KNEW exactly what I was going to say. I could give a presentation or a lecture because I had prepared it but just joining in on a discussion or group participation I refused to do because I always figured if I said something that wasn't right that they would think I was stupid AND fat. At least if I kept my mouth shut they would just think I was fat. Not much self esteem. I am happy to report that I am starting to have some self esteem and confidence. It is an odd feeling as I have never had it my entire life. Well I have copies to make and activities to prepare for tomorrow so I had best get busy. I would like to NOT have to come in at 5AM tomorrow. I miss my sleep during spring break!

Good MOrning Ladies! Breakfast is over and I am just getting ready to do my Wii for the day. We had company last night, and yest afternoon I went into town to (finally) visit my MOM.. I thinks its been 4 weeks since I was able to visit. If you remember they had a RotoVirus that hit the place and it was on quarantine... She was so glad to see me, and I was releived to see her too. Mom was sitting in the lounge when I arrived watching her GOLF tournaments.... Her nose has healed very well, and the graft that the surgeon did looks awesome... And he isn't even a plastics man... an Ear, Nose & Throat guy... he was so nice to my Mom too... So that's one less thing to worry about now. My sister comes back from Mexico this weekend... That'll be goood for my Mom too. NSV yesterday for me was I didn't PIG out on the way home from my Mom's and I didn't eat any COOKIES while there either.... That place is a huge trigger for me, but I just kept telling DIANNA to shut the @$#% up.... THen when I got home I made dinner for our guests, they left around 9:30 so I did my 30 minutes of Wii then... Gosh, the weight it had me at was horrible.. but that late in the day I am just ignoring it and I'll take this morings weight instead... Well I'd better get at it... then work this afternoon/evening. CBL

NSV... my hubby has been away this week..... I have NOT eaten JUNK.... did you hear me???? NO JUNK!!!! I've journaled my food, gotten off my fat ass and exercised.... I am liking the bike for transportation. Now the real test will be on Sunday, when I visit my Mom.... usually there are Goodies Galore that are hard to resist...plus I do this emotional eating behaviour too.... ARGH~~~ I will make a plan for sunday!~~~( I promis Janet)

YEAH FOR YOU!!! You are doing wonderful. I was thinking of doing a trainer a couple of times to. I may just have to get really serious about that. Janet you are 10 lbs away from goal!! You are so close!!! You have done excellent. You have pretty steadley (sp?) lost too. I am so proud of you. You will be to goal in another month probably. :ohmy::thumbup: Your getting to be a real skinny!!!! Ruby- so glad you are feeling pretty good today. I would take the meds 'just in case' to stay ahead of any pain that may come later. Rest and take it easy. Ok I have some NSV to tell. Yesterday when I was having such I bad crappy emotional day while in town I went to the grocery store to buy 'food'. Ok first off my deep freeze, fridge freezers, refridgerator and cupboards are all stuffed so I truly didn't need food. I had already started marinating boneless skinless chicken breast yesterday moring so I needed nothing for supper but I was in that stupor and thought I want junk!!! I went in and I went around that store for almost an hour because I just wanted food. I would pick something up and walk through the store and then think no you can't do that. Anyway, I picked up sugar free ice cream. At least it was sugar free but the 'old jackie' came back and I thought 1 half pint isn't enough so I bought 2. Then I went to McDonalds and I bought 2 large vanilla ice coffee and thought I don't care how many calories. I love these things and limit myself on them giving myself a 'treat' once in a while. I know I know I know NO LIQUID CALORIES but we have to have something in our lives. Anyway, on the way home I started crying and I called my mom and I said "I am about to binge." and told her what I had bought and what I was feeling and blah blah blah. Mom being a mom tried to soothe me and told me that once in awhile it wouldn't hurt. Anyway, not the answer I was looking for. Got off the phone and drove about 35 miles per hour along the road trying to take my time getting home. I thought to hell with this. I am not drinking that second coffee and I will not eat a bunch of ice cream. I 'pulled up my boot straps' as Janet says and thought 'get it together Jackie. You know how long it takes to burn off all those calories you are about to absorb and is it really worth the guilt you will feel after wards and all the hard work?' I came home dumped the half of coffee I had drank out of and offered my son the other and told him if he didn't want it I was dumping it. I gave one of the 1/2 gallon ice cream to my in laws 'to try' (didn't tell them why I bought 2. Just told them I thought they would like to try it since my mother in law really likes ice cream and she is watching what she eats) and I continued making my supper. I made my chicken breast with steamed broccoli and brown rice. I ate VERY little and was FULL. I had not eaten yesterday and only had a half cup of iced coffee for calories so I figured later I would eat my ice cream. I put a cup of ice cream in a dish took a couple of bites and said to hubby 'do you want this I don't.' and I gave the rest away. I was satisfied but more than that very proud of myself for recognizing what it all was. I was angry, upset and just feeling crappy and I was on a hunt for soothing and turned to food. 8 months ago I would have prob recognized that after the fact and all the calories but I recognize it for what it is immediately now. I felt really good about that. I made it through and you know what..........the sun still came up this morning and a new day has started. OK now that I have myself all teary eyed again it is time to get going so I can get to the gym and then tan before coming home to shower and go with my aunt this afternoon. I just want to thank each and every one of you for all the support. I truly don't know where I would be without all of you but I can tell you I think this journey would have been a very lonely HARDER journey without all of you. Thank you. I love you all and care very deeply for you. You are my other family. My family that REALLY knows how I am feeling about this and other situations with food. Ok enough of that. I am on my way to the gym. I will try to check back in tonight when I get home. (Aunt flo better get here soon I am a sobbing mess with these hormones :grouphug:)