kourtany93

Over these last few weeks, I've been completely consumed of LAP-BAND. Recently I've brought more books and been to more websites than I ever have before. I feel as if I know this procedure like the back of my hand now, even though I would never perform it. I didn't expect for days to fly by. I keep thinking about how each second takes forever and then I look up and its been a week. I go to random shopping websites just to check out the clothes that I can't fit in now. When most people see an obese person they say, "Why do they need surgery? They can just go on a diet?" Well that may be true but I've always gained my weight back just like many Americans have as well. When I was little I didn't dream of forbidden places or being a princess, I would look at girls my age who did that and wish I was was them, with their skinny bodies and pretty faces. My first diet I would have to say started when I was in maybe the second grade and had escolated ever since. I've come to learn over the years that fairy tales don't exist. No handsome prince is going to come and rescue you from a towers. I've learned that you must make your own sacrifices and just live on. Take what you can get and just keep holding on to it. No one can put me down anymore nor can they make me feel less than I am. I'm ready to take the next step, not for some handsome prince that will never happen or for my mother, who I love to death. This is for me, as well as seeing the rest of my future. This is my ticket to that place. Some Questions for my Benefit that No One seems to Answer: If someone could please help me and answer these, that would be awesome and amazing of you to do so. Thank you! 1. Why do doctors want the liver smaller? 2. Why do doctors sometimes want patients to go on a diet before surgery? Websites I've looked at and are helpful: These are just a few :cursing: www.livestrong.com/article/15571-what-eat-after-lap-band/ www.obesityhelp.com/ www.lapband4u.com/default/lap-bad-surgery www.obesitylapbandsurgery.com/ www.occforum.com/index.php?act=idx

At the end of last week I learned that I would have to do the six month program with my primary doctor. This completely bummed me out. Here I thought I would be able to have this surgery done in January but nope. Then I started thinking. This really isn't so bad. It gives me two extra months to get everything together. I've bought books recently that I would highly reccommend to anyone who is head strong about this surgery: 1. Weight Loss Surgery with the Adjustable Gastric Band by Robert W. Sewell and Linda Rohrbough 2. LAP-BAND® Companion by Mark J. Watson I've learned recently that it's better to have some kind of weight loss surgery but only if it's thought thoroughly. I thought I was the only one for years that was the last kid to be picked in gym class or someone who wouldn't go to amusement parks anymore because I get too tired or that I can't fit on a ride. I'm not alone in this. I close my eyes and I try to picture the new me. It's as if it's right there and I'm gaining momentum on the image. With just the thought of it done, I'm happier than I have been in years. I'm ready for a lifestyle change and I want it forever. It doesn't matter what I have to give up, I'm willing to do what's neccessary for my life. Food just makes me depressed beyond measure. I want to live my life and be happy while doing it instead of living in a comatose state. I dream about the change and what I'll wear in the next few years. I've never been one to go shopping for clothes because I was too embarrassed but now I'm jullivant for these next few years. I'm not wanting the "quick fix," I'm in this for life.

I was finally able to send in my packet information yesterday. It was more of a relief just waiting to happen. I know I want this surgery more than anything. I don't think I do. Right now is the time of my life where I'm starting to decide where I'm going to go from now. Simply put: I've spend the last three years deciding if i was right for me since everytime I looked at a diet I became depressed. I would look at clothes that weren't my size and just pretend that I could someday fit in them. Just waiting for the doctors office to give my paper work drove me insane. Most of my life I've alwys did things off on a whim but not this. Everyday I'm driven to look at LAP-BAND®.com and seach for everything they have in decisions and I can even go to the EMMI website that the website suggests. That's exactly where I am right now. I'm not wanting a quick fix or anything. I'm wanting to change for the better. I'm always looking for the misery in everything positive I see. I want this more than anything. I know that I'm young and unexperienced with so many things. I know that I should wait and see what else is out there for me but I can't do another diet. The word no longer exists for me. I want a lifestyle change to a healthier me. I'm not looking for another size or the number of pounds I want to lose, I'm looking forward to the best years of my life.

After going to the first and only seminar I've ever been to, October 9, 2010, I was hooked. I've been researching and looking forward to the LAP-BAND procedure for the last 3 years, when I first saw the commercial for a better life. I recently found out that I won't have to do the whole 6 month diet that some insurances require. That made me super excited! Even though I'm only 17 now, in a short while (January 2011) I'll be turning 18, which is when I'll be able to get the surgery. Meanwhile, in that time I'll be able to see the surgery and have all the tests that need to be done. Finding all this out just makes my dreams start to come true. :cursing: