wasbigb4notnow

wasbigb4notnow,Hi my names Alexandra, I was banded May last year by Dr Aly from the Darebin weightloss Clinic.It has changed my life and I will be forever greatful for the support and love that I have had before,during and after my operation from my husband,family,close friends and all the staff from the clinic.I first talked about having the surgery when I was single and morbidly obese. I was constantly depressed,angry,bitter and hated the world (myself included). The only time i felt like a million dollars was when i was up in front of my band singing. I spoke for quite a long time about getting the surgery with my beautiful mum who only ever wanted the best for me and for all her life has also suffered with her weight. I kept on telling myself I can do it I can do it on my own I dont need surgery,I got into boxing and walking and dropped a bit of weight but never more than 5 or so kgs then depression would kick in and so would the over eating and alcohol consumption. ENDLESS CYCLE!!! All my life I had only ever wanted one thing! A man who would love me for who i was..WARTS AND ALL. I was about 120kgs and singing in my covers band,over life and the constant heartbreak of being hurt by the opposite sex. Our band decided to part ways and at the very last gig we had when on stage this gorgeous ,tall, spunky man walked in singing Jessies Girl at the top of his lungs, He near took my breathe away! I knew him through the drummer of the band and had seen him a few times but never "noticed" him but that night WOW did i notice him! By the end of the night,he had been up on stage singing with me for most of the night dancing up a storm and making the night amazing. We exchanged numbers and in the next few days went out on a date or two...the rest is history! and this beautiful man is now my husband!I always promised myself that the man I would marry would love me for who I was and for the size I was. He proved to me that there are still so many beautiful men around that really love women for the women they are. It was about 12 months into our relationship that I knew that I wanted to be with this man for the rest of my life and I wanted to be around for him for the rest of his life, but being in a relationship didnt help my weight.I was comfortable and he told me how beautiful i was everyday,BUT I wasnt healthy! my weight had got up to the 129kg mark and as much as I knew he loved me if we were ever going to think of having children then I couldnt possibly carry a child safely or be an active mum at this weight.This is when I decided enough was enough and went for my first appoinment.I was just going to talk to someone but the next thing I knew I had a date set. 18th May 2009. When I came home and told Dave he was so supportive and said that he would be there for me through everything and he has stuck to his word from that day on.In January 2009 he took me to Marysville in the outskirts of Melbourne ,took me up to St Stevens falls and under the waterfall bent down on one knee and asked me to be his wife!This was the happiest day of my life and I knew how much I had to look forward to for the rest of my life with this amazing man,who YES loved me for the woman I was 129 kgs and all.In the next couple of weeks we set a date to be married,it was the 28th May 2010 ,this gave me 12 months after my surgery to be the beautiful bride I had always wished to be.Today I have been banded for about a year and 5 months. Im about 94 kgs and still would like to reach my goal of 85kg. I WILL get there but I am so bloody proud of myself and where I am from where I have been. It has been the most amazing journey and I have loved the changes in my body and the confidence I have got. I also love the fact that I dont mind looking at pics of myself now.I wish any Pre bander all the luck in the world! All I can say is be patient,do the right thing by your band dont take it for granted and EXERCISE!!!! Thankyou for taking the time to read my journey and I hope my story can be inspiring to at least one person out there.x