Rarefy

I have started the process. I have met with the surgeon, met with the psychologist and have to meet with the Dietitian in a week. There are test to be taken and forms that need to be filled out. A lot of work but I guess none of this is going to be easy. I graduate college in May 2011 and am really hoping to have shed some of this weight. I was married right after a baby so i was over weight and have been overweight every since. I don't want to look back in another ten years and see nothing in pictures but the fat person. I have spent 13 years fat and i am not longer wanting it. I know longer wonder if i will ever be able to take control over my weight, it is just something I have decided to do. no longer will it control me. This is my first step. As I can easily remove weight and then fight the battle (and lose) of it trying to come back, i feel sick and a failure. I don't like this feeling when I accomplish so much more in the other parts of my life. I will do this now and be better for it. I believe the lapband will give me the help I need to finally keep it off.