Hey girl I know how you feel, but it does get better, in the Uk we have to inject ourselves with fragmin a blood thinner and take fastabs and painkillers for two weeks after surgery , so we understand it isnt a pleasasant first journey, but trust me the pain does get better, but you will still feel odd at the site of the port, mine is in chest wall and boy that hurts if you dont sit straight or lie in a good position at night.