Well my surgery is scheduled for October 25, 2010 and I am really nervous. I know that this is only going to improve my health and well being but it doesn't make it any better. I am scared out of my mind that something is going to go wrong or that it isn't going to work. I know that these are fears that I don't need to be having but I am a total worry wart. I am sitting here at work and all I can think about is my surgery. I am super excited that I am going to be able to do a lot of things that I was never able to do because of my weight. This really is for the best and I just need to keep telling myself that everything is going to be ok. The past 5 months of preparation have been worth it and I am glad that I am finally going to be able to live the life I have never had.