MerreyMac

I guess its the typical story, I have been greatly overweight since I was about 9.  Pubery hit and so did the pounds.  Im fairly tall so I generally get by with carrying more weight on my frame than others like my best friend who is only 5'3".  I have tried the pills, weight watchers, exercise and diet, and both weight watchers and the exercise/diet worked (but only for 30-40 lbs), however it comes back on after I stop analysing every bite, taste, and lick that goes in my mouth.  And that is an easy wagon to fall off since feeling full is not something i am accustomed to.  I have been eyeing weight loss surgery for almost 8 years now.  I finally made the decision last week that I am going to stop making excuses, save up the necessary funds and get something for me....something that will benefit not only myself but everyone else in my life.  My husband is 10 years older than me and at the rate I am going, i just might die before him if I dont get some weight off.  I know the co-morbities are just around the corner.  My entire family has diabetes, and several have heart conditions, both of which are heavily based on the fact that everyone in my family is overweight.The real eye openers were when I realized that if my husband and I decide to have a child, there is no way I can keep up with a active toddeler, and that is not fair to the child, therefore i need to get the weight off before entering that phase of my life.  I also realized that dont do certain activities when we vacation due to embarassment in swimsuits, or just feeling too big, or worse of all, knowing I can not phyically do it because of my weight.  That is not fair to my husband nor myself, and certainly not fair to the poor souls who have to listen to me huff and puff like the big bad wolf is about to blow the house down...  What is the point in spending money on a vacation when the only thing I excell at or look forward to doing is dinner??..and dont even get me started on the whole image at work thing....lets just say, i would feel much more confiedent a few sizes smaller...because the pre-concieved ideas are "who completely trusts you handling your job duties, when obviously you cant even handle your addiction to food?"So I'm off to see the wizard...the wonderful wizard of oz.....I know its going to be an adventure, sometimes full of happiness and sometimes full of tears, but I'm ready for both and most especially ready for the outcome. *clicking heels together* theres no place like the normal section of the clothing department, theres no place like the normal section of the clothing department *clicking heels together*