Hi Purple!
When i was reading your comment about wondering if you husband is part of the problem, I was thinking the same thing about mine. Much like you, I am the type of person who is always worring about others and doing what needs to be done to make sure that they are happy, before making sure I am! I honestly do believe that is part of why i have let my weight go. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband but I also know that I have to learn to walk away from his moods and the kitchen! I love the idea of starting a journal. I just have to make sure i let myself have the time to write in it. Just remember that you are not alone. I to have fallen off the pre-op diet and felt like you did, however, tomorrow is another day and always a fresh start! Best of luck to u !