andason

I have struggled with my weight my whole life.  I remember my mom dragging me off to a weight watchers meeting before I was in junior high!  My biggest is about 245.  I have yo-yo dieted my whole adult life and teenage years as well.  I have considered surgery several times,  but every time I stop and think, "I can do this without surgery"!  This last time I finally faced the fact that if I didn't have surgery that I will never be healthy again.  I have lost the weight, well I usually get down right around 200, but never can keep it off.  So, the moment I decided that enough was enough was the day that I watched my 8 year old inhale a cheeseburger and almost choke!!  Everything she has learned is because of me.  It broke my heart.  I remember being "normal" up until the about the 3rd grade.  Looking at her is like looking in the mirror, she is just like I was.  I decided then that I had to change my life to save hers!!  It is a very emotional decision.  I LOVE to eat, love sweets!!  I am, of course, an emotional eater and think about foods all the time.  I know I have a huge journey ahead.  I am scared, but at the same time, very excited!  People don't understand this, unless they have had a weight problem for most of their life.  My best friend had RNY about 4 years ago.  SHe weighed 320 and now weighs about 165.  She is beautiful, but she still struggles with seeing that beautiful person that everyone else sees.  I remember shopping with her and when she was down to "normal" size clothing, she still would walk right over to the plus size clothing!  She would pick up a size 10 and say, "I think it will be too small."  I am glad I have been with her through her transformation to see a glimpse of what the future holds for me...