mikesjourney

OK here it goes...I am 44 years old, I weigh 295 lbs and it SUCKS. I have always been overweight most of my youth, and now. There was a point in my life at age 30 where I lost 100 lbs. I had a major life change of coming out and felt like I was reborn. I went from a waist size of 44 to a 32 and worked out daily. I kept the weight off for 3 years but then something just happened. I met my partner and we have been together for 7 years. We are happy but I am not happy with myself. He is 13 years younger than I but loves me and is is very supportive. We have a gym in our house that we never use. He is only like 20 lbs overweight. Somehow, something with me in the last 5 years changed. Maybe just dont care anymore what I look like, maybe stress losing both my parents, maybe stress giving up my daughter to her stepdad? I just dont know...What I do know - is I am SICK OF BEING FAT, miserable, out of breath, unattractive, no self cofidence etc...I am very good friends with a_thinner_me on here and we work together. She and I were going to get the lap band together but I insisted I could do it on my own. HA HA what was I thinking? I am not 30 yrs old anymore. All I have is pain everywhere due to this weight. a_thinner looks awesome and now I am convinced that I need help. My seminar is Sept 16 to initiate the process.