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Thank you all. I feel like I am on a roller coaster. I was so excited did what I needed to do thought I was super close to the weight I need to close BUT>>>>> then I stepped on the scale at the Dr office and I am still 5 pounds away, I wanted to cry. I am was told by my doctor I am doing great and I am pushing things a little to fast. Well I am still working on eating issues so I guess that is good but now a week later and no weight loss at all this week. that makes me feel worse. And now it seems EVERYONE knows I am going to get the LAP Band so I am getting when? When? from everone and that makes it worse. I mean it is a lap band NOT lypo. The weight will not just be there one day and gone the next. Ok back to work trying to think good thoughts and maybe those last few pounds will be gone by next week.

OK so where do I start. I am always been a bigger girl. With my bone structure I will never be tinker bell but I know I can be way better then I am now. For the most part I have not let my weight stop me. Slow me down but not stop me, at least until the past few years. More then just my weight what is stopping me are my knees. I know the two go hand and hand. So it is time for some changes! Tried “Almost” ever diet out there lost some then gained it plus more back. I have dieted my way to where I am now. I need to change and I am hoping with the help of my little friend the lap band I will be able to make the life time changes I need. So here I am trying to lose the 5% of my weight needed to have the surgery. I have done my 1st appointments with everyone except the shrink and I have that appointment on Monday. I have done the sleep study and I think I am just great there. So what is holding me back…….. Darn it that 5%. Funny I need to loose weight in order to get the surgery to help me lose weight. I totally understand the what and why I am just struggling with the how……………..

Please NO Guilt! Sure you could have picked something a little better but No guilt. Just learn and go on. Good luck remember this is for a life time not a couple weeks. There will be times we just need taco bell it is learning to not want 2 tacos and a burito.