spycbyn8re

I have my first surgeon's appointment on Thursday (in TWO days) and I'm going insane!! I can hardly sleep. My mind just swims with questions, information, hope, fear, worry, excitement. I'm going crazy! I feel like I'm a stalker. I'm reading as many threads on here as I possibly can. I've gone over just about every before and after picture available. I even downloaded and sent some of them to my mother (who is a bit of a downer). I've saved them onto the computer and called my husband over to see them. I am going insane!! I am so excited that I can barely stand it. Lap-band is all I talk about! It's all I think about. I'm soooooo ready to get my butt to the gym after surgery and get this junk off of me, that I'm seriously planning out what I'll be doing and excited about new things to try. I've made a list of about 30 things that I am excited about that comes from significant weight loss. I realize that I'm just at the beginning of my journey. I'm sure I still have multiple other dr's appointments, challenges and hurdles ahead but I'm just so excited at the possibility of HOPE. Now, if I could just get these two days to go a little quicker............

No need to wait a week or so to hear a response. I just got off the phone with my insurance provider. My husband is who it is through and he's "too new to the job" to get services like weight loss surgery. He has to have been employed for a year. So it looks like I won't be getting this until April of 2011. I am so disappointed but I'm still going to my dr's appt on Thursday. I might as well get the ball rolling and set it all up to have surgery the day I become eligible. Plus maybe there is more that I need to do before getting it done..... diet history, sleep study, etc etc etc. Now I have time! (Trying to keep this positive and not fall into depression over this news) :thumbup: I really was hoping this would be an easy thing since most things in my life are difficult... guess this is just gonna follow suit! lol

So for the last 3 years (yes, THREE YEARS) I have been thinking about getting some sort of WLS. I could have already lost my weight by now but I needed to be ready before I just jumped into this. I had my last few stabs at losing it myself and crazy at the gym every day weeks only to wind up weighing more. I think I spent about 5 hours on the computer yesterday and last night reading and looking at all the pictures etc etc etc. I knew I was ready. I asked my husband (who works at a hospital with a few surgeons who perform the banding surgeries) if he could get me the info from one of them. He was too busy at work last night to get the information but today when I opened the paper there it was. All the information I needed. I called the doctor from the paper and have my very first consultation scheduled for next Thursday. I am SUPER excited and ready to get this ball rolling. I'm not sure what to expect at this appointment as I did not go to a group meeting seminar. All I know is I'm ready.... excited, nervous, hopeful, and scared all at the same time! Currently my BMI is 54.8. Man, to actually see that in writing is both a shock and scary. I know I MUST do something now if I want to see my kids grow up and if I want to be HAPPY. If I could have the surgery.... I'd have it tomorrow! But for now... baby steps towards my goal. Ginger