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In July of 2008 I know that I was going to die because I couldnt stop eating.. I was an overeater....  so working at the Insurance company I did... I found out I could get it paid for all of it with just a lil deductible.. so I went to a seminar and then I thought ok.. this is definently for me... the day of surgery came really fast sept 8, 2004.... it was my first time ever  being put to sleep for anything.. no children... no dental work.. no nothing... well the surgery went fine up until the end when they were closing I had an allergic reaction to "Fentanyl".. it caused me to go into ventricular tachycardica... { you normally dont come out of}.. I had no pulse or electrical activity for 6 months , was paddled by the defib 4 times and received strenuous chest compressions for 25... finally I came back.. I was out of rhythm.. go figure.. so it had to be stopped and then restarted.... but i came back perfect and in beat.... I wound up spending 8 days in cardiac ICU to watch me and I was on a machine for 13 hours... I fought hard and came off that thing as soon as possible.... my surgery did get complete.. they did a full cardiac work up and everything was great.. no build up blockage.. no electric problems so it was def just a reaction to meds that could have killed me.. this was not noones fault.. i lived... well in the beginning I would trick the band so i can get down certain foods.. i drank star bucks about 4 times a day 7 days a week and wasnt losing... after about 2 years of being scared to death about what hapened i came back to the doc.. got refilled and in june of 2008 i had went from my beginning weight off 365 to 229 and I am almost 6 feet tall so it was perfect.. anymore and i was going to look sickly.. I do have alot of skin on my belly and I will get that taken care of later.... well in 08 when I weighed in I had him unloosen my band for vacation in florida the next day for a week... I was supposed to go back and never did.. it hought i can do it alone.... hell was i wrong... here it is 2010 and i almost 300 again fast... its so sad but I know after I get filled, I wont be able to splurge eat like i do and i can get this off.... i did it once and i will again.. please pray for my will power!!