dutter girl

well iam 30 years old and have had 5 kids . since i was 17 iv never been the small build that i once was . at 28 i had a tummy tuck and lost a lot of weight but still not what i wished for . i then got remarried at 28 almost 29 . i meet an amazing man that wanted to have a baby and i wanted to give him that so we have had a beautiful son . and now iam back to be over weight more than i would like and not comfortable in my own skin . iam a very vain person that alway have worried about my looks . i alway want to look my best for my husband . iam so tired of not taking my children to water parks or the pool in fear of my weight and how other will look at me . or that my hjusband will see abeautiful girl and not want her but wish his wife looked that way and not the way i do .. he loves me for me but i want to be beautiful for him  :) that  would make me happy . so theres my story i cant wait to have my lapband .. i want it like yesterday ..