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Hi Ladies. Long time no talk. I have just been really discouraged with this whole band. It bums me out more than anything to watch everyone do so well. How come I am failing at this thing???? I have been at 215 for 6 months now. I get on the tredmill 3-4 times a week for 2 miles each time. I just can't stop eating the crap that goes thru this band so easily. I don't know if I'm afraid of the old me. I was pretty damned frisky when I was 150 and single. Now I'm married and quite comfy. Although, the men still give me whistles and stares. Not too long ago, I had some young hottie sitting next to me at a red light. He signalled for me to roll down my window. I thought he was going to ask me for directions. I rolled it down and said "Yes". He said "You are gorgeous". I was dumbfounded..............I just laughed and said "Oh, OK, thanks". He then honked and wanted me to talk to him. I just sped off when my light turned green. I'm always thinking to myself, "If they could only see the bottom half of me, with my huge ass and hips". hahahahahaha Well, I'll try to keep checking in. Jen

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...finally!!! Yeah, I'm filled again. Since I have been completely empty for 3 weeks, I've put on almost 10 lbs. My Doc gave me .7 cc's. Hopefully this will be fine for me. I went to Panda Express with my hubby just now and I could barely finish a child's plate. I decided to make better choices when standing at the counter. I would usually get Orange chicken and Steamed Rice. This time, I changed it up. I thought that my ole favorite might be too sticky to get through my fill. So, I ordered fried rice and Chicken and String Beans. YUM YUM. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Jen

I NEED A FILL.............................................UGH!!!!!!! I just ate 4 peices of pizza. I want to cry. OK, so anyone want to join my pity party???? When I began WW 4 weeks ago I weighed 218.00. Three weeks ago, the day I raced down to TJ to get a complete emergency unfill.....................I weighed in that morning at WW at 210. I went to WW yesterday (after being unfill for 2 1/2 weeks) I got on that scale and it read 219.5..........................AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. What the hell???? Heck....................ooooooooooopppppppppppsssssss. Jen

I'm seriously struggling. I ate 2 servings of chicken enchiladas for dinner. They tasted sooooo damn good and I couldn't stop. The only thing that I have any control of is my walking. I finally got my pedometer set and I have walked 10,000 steps yesterday and today. It really didn't seem that hard at all. I am working at a Pizza Parlor in the morning doing food prep, and then in the afternoon I work at a middle school as a campus supervisor. I get to walk a lot at the school. Jen

I am sooooooo depressed right now. Remember how I was puking really bad and raced down to TJ??? Well, they completely unfilled me. And Dr. Martinez showed me that my stomach had actually pushed up through my band. He said that my band had not slipped. Yet, from all of the puking, my stomach pushed it's way up through my band. And now, I am eating like a maniac. I was 210 last week at my WW meeting. Now, one week later, I weigh in at 216. Just shoot me now please. Jen

Mariquita..............................what's the address at your job??? LOL Good luck girl, you can do it!!!!!! Jen

Good morning Ya'll............................ Did I mention that I was down 4.6 lbs when I weighed in at WW???? The lady at the register was like, "oh my goodness that is great, how did you do it"???? I couldn't tell her that I had been puking for 3 days. I bought a pedometer at my WW meeting. I saw Valarie Bertanelli on the Ellen show the other day and she is wearing one. Her goal is to walk 10,000 steps each day. I'm gonna aim a little lower than that. Shit, first I have to figure out how to set this darn thing. Enjoy your day, Jen

Down another 2 lbs today.........................yay me........209 now. I'm off to WW and then racing, yes racing down to TJ for a slight unfill. I can barely swallow this morning. I puked all day yesterday and the day before. I'm starving. I want food, real food. I can't even truly do WW since I can't get any food down. Jen

Fluffer (Jen) checking in. I'm down to 211.......................from 218 when I was completely unfilled and eating out of control. Tomorrow morning is WW meeting and I hope to weigh 211 with my clothes on. Yay me. My 20 year reunion in Aug. 4 my goal is to be into ONEderland by July 1. Then maybe another 10 down by Aug. 4. I CAN DO IT...............I WILL DO IT..............I'M A ONEDERLAND WARRIOR!!!!!!

DrewsLou, I checked out the skating website. I am sooo jealous. I would be right in there with ya. I love to skate. I think I'm going to go online and order some new skates. Yep, that's it...............I'm doing it. Jen

I'm checking in. Geez....................Kym..................LOL Well, I just ate my lunch. A weight watchers Sante Fe chicken Meal worth 2 points. But I am PBing like crazy. I'm going to hold it in as long as I can before running into the bathroom and puking it up. I chewed really good too. I don't know what the heck is stuck. UGH. I went to WW on Tues. afternoon and weighed in. I was down 3.4 lbs.......................yahoooooooooo buckaroooooooo. Jen

Drew and Kim.............................I'm on my 5th wedding cookie right now. And get this, I went down to TJ yesterday and got a fill. Whatever. I should have had more put in. I'm only up to 1.0 cc's right now. I was empty, remember??? So, I guess this will have to do for a couple of weeks. Then back down to TJ. Jen

OMG......................my twin.............LOL May 2 was a good day wasn't it???? Did you get banded in TJ by Dr. Ortiz???? Were we there together??? What kind of skating do you do???? I used to speed skate on a team when I was 12-15ish. I wish I had my old skates still. Jen