jamigirl67

Hi.  I've been overweight since I was a teenager.  Always about 20-25 lbs overweight.  Always dieted, struggled to lose it and gained it back instantly.  Now at 42, I'm about 70 lbs overweight and have been for at least the past 5 yrs.  I hate looking in the mirror.  I hate when I'm invited somewhere because the first thing that goes through my mind is "I have nothing to fit into".  i'm so tired of losing some weight, giving away my fat clothes, and then having to re-buy them.  I'm sick of my stretch pants.  Sick of being tired all of the time.  Sick of my double chin.  Sick of that feeling I get when my pants are too tight and cutting me and can't wait until I can open them up.  I'm sick of being the fat girl with the pretty face.  I've thought about surgery several times and did some research in the past about the Lap Band.  My BMI ranged between 35-38 and I fortunately don't have any co-morbities.  Anyhow, my insurance would only cover it if I was heavier and in bad health.  Don't think I didn't think about gaining some more weight for them approve me, but I would to have to hold that weight for at least 6 months, and that thought was not pleasant.  So I decided to join the gym, and sign up with a weight loss system.Well we all have been down that road.  Start out strong, spend a ton of money on supplements, weight loss products, consults, and I would lose about 20-30 lbs.  Never the full 70, but I would lose enough to feel better about myself.  That was when I would stop the diet.  Stop the exercise.  Of course, gain back all the weight and feel like a fat pig again.  So disgusted in myself.  This same routine has played itself out over and over through the years.About 2 weeks ago I went for a consult for a Lap Band.  No hesitation.  I'm so tired of living my life this way.  I'm still young and don't want to let anymore years go by not being happy with myself.  I decided that if I can get approved for the loan, I would go for it.  So that is what I did.  I had my surgery on Thursday the 19 of August.  Today is my 4th day post op.  I'm swollen and sore, and moving slowly.  I'm so excited for the future.  Just want to stay positive.   I can't wait to not live to eat anymore.  I want to be the person that doesn't go back for 2 or 3 helpings at the buffet.I'm on my way!!Jami