wanna.b.healthy

We're in the ight month for you now, my Friend! Are you hitting your liquid diet hard now? It's easier when you know that the srgery is imminent. Feeling some better today; been a while w/o pain meds but feeling it. Trying to wait till bed so I'll sleep well! Thinking of you!

Hi - Got home about 3:30 -- Had some low sugar and needed to stay until I got some yogurt and soup down. It went down easily -- little bites. The gas pain is the worst; the incision pain is manageable. I'm pooped from coming home and having the grandkids great me.

Soon......Jill.......!! So excited for you!

Oh, I have your number to my daughter -- she'll call as soon as she hears that I'm out and okay and then I'll call when I'm up to it, but I wouldn't want you to worry if I can't get to you tomorrow at all. Her name is Amanda and she'll leave a message if she doesn't get you!

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for calliing this afternoon. Our timing was right on since I was just getting ready to call you! I wasn't a bit surprised to hear your voice -- you even sound like my friend, so I knew it was you! How weird is that to have a connection that is so sweet so early. Because of the Lord and Because of Food! LoL. It's 10:34 -- should go to bed since I need to be there at 6:30 am, but too wound up to sleep. That's okay, I'll sleep most of the morning tomorrow, I think! Thanks again -- we'll talk soon!

Hey Jill, what's that mean? You have to proceed and wait to see IF they pay for it? You can't proceed? I am SOOO sorry you're going through this. It's after midnight Monday night so officially "TOMORROW" is my surgery -- Wednesday. Can't believe it's finally here. Hubby got home from bus trip and is exhausted so he's no support right now. Maybe tomorrow. And, for the first time, I'm getting nervous! It's a big "Forever" change! Hey, I promise I'll try to call after surgery. But, please let me know what your next step is. Love, D

Hey Jill - one last thing -- I would like to give you a cell phone number just in case you need to contact me and I've disappeared from this forum. But, I don't really want to post it here -- is there a way to do a private message that no one else sees, that you know of. (I had this awful experience once where an email friend just disappeared and I never heard from her again. I tried everything I knew to be in touch and about a year later found out she had been in an accident and died. I had NO OTHER contact info and decided that was not a good idea for future e-friendships!) LMK if you know of a way to do it!

Okay, well, I'd better head to bed. I did 1 hr of wii fit tonight and stuck to the diet completely so I hope I'm done with the goofing around. I want this surgery and I want it now and I want to lose weight and I want not to be hungry all the time. All that wanting is so exhausting I need to sleep!

LOL!

Love, Debbie

He did call tonight and I was nice so that probaby means the worst of it is over. (We don't fight very much, but I think I've probably been annoyed at everything for the past month and probably cranky so I might be looking for someone to vent on in a not-so-friendly way.)

Even when I disappear for a few days, please know that I am thinking of you. I'm going to take my laptop to the hospital next week with me (if,,,,, you know) and I'll try to send you a message as soon afterward as possible. So few people know what I'm up to that I'll be dying to share with someone what's going on and just think, you'll be able to ask every question you can think of and I'll be able to give you an very thorough answer from experience.

Mark has been out of town -- Seattle -- for almot a week now and gone until the day before my surgery. That's not good timing because I've really needed his stability and, on top of that, we fought on the phone the first night so now he doesn't want to call and I don't want to answer --- it's just one of those 30+ years married spats that isn't serious but the timing is bad bc we're both being stubborn.

I am really going to try to focus off my impatience and pray that your paperwork will come through sooner than you could ask or think. NOW UNTO HIM THAT IS ABLE TO DO EXCEEDING ABUNDANTLY MORE THAN WE CAN ASK OR THINK!

That is one of my fav verses because it is soooo like God to do something greater than we ever even though to ask Him for. So, I'm going to pray tht His timing is a gift for you and not a teaching experience! (I know they can be the same, but I want you to have your surgery sooner rather than later.)

Hey Jill -- Where can we write more than 1,000 words to each other. This cont thing is annoying....but then, I'm easily annoyed right now.

I was sooo good to hear from you, though, and you're right, when hubby and friends and other fam tells you it will all work out for the best, you just want kick their skinny behinds and tell them they just don't get it. When you live with what feels like constant deprivation, another few day, weeks, months, seems like F O R E V E R!!!

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Oh, I've heard it all -- "it's so much better that they find out now." "Well, you want to be safe, don't you." "It would't hurt to wait another few weeks or momths. HA - Just the thought of it sends me into a depression and I've eaten real food -- and too much of it-- contantly this past week forguiring "what's the point?" I know none of that makes logical sense but I don't seem to be thinking too clearly right now anywhere. Waiting three more days to find out if I can have the surgery seems like forever.

Anyway, just wanted to explain where I've been. All I really want to do it crawl into a ball and stay there until surgery and then have someone plop me on the operating table.

Have you gotten your date yet?

Sorry for the depressing news. I'm just not a happy camper right now.

Love, Debbie