I had my surgery in April 2011, so I am 8 months out. I have lost approximately 70 lbs. My doctor is satisfied with this weight loss and says I'm losing at a good pace. I agree and I hope to lose 30 more lbs. by my surgery date to make it 100lbs lost.
The thing is, I don't eat that great. I have tried to keep a journal/log of my food, and it worked in the beginning but I have been through a lot in this past year and I will start up again (part of my new year resolution lol). I think I drink too many calories...well I know I do. Starbucks has always been my friend and still is; I plan to decrease this habit in new year.
I know what I need to do, but I'm so stupid as to why I don't actually do it. I go to the gym regularly about 2-3x/week and I plan on stepping my game up to 4-5x/week and gonna start up P90x with a friend. I got out of a relationship in september and started a new one before thanksgiving..we are still together and I'm the happiest I could be right now. he does not know about my surgery and I don't plan on telling him being that we are still early into relationship. he does notice how little I eat. He also tells me how dedicated I am to my eating habits (although I think I eat like crap, he thinks I eat perfectly healthy). there are times where i will go to panera and foolishly get a large chili..knowing good and well I can't even eat a third of it. this is what messes me up, I still think i can eat like a normal person. I order things I use to eat because I fear people will catch on. I can get a meal at a restaurant and eat til i feel a bit of pressure and stop...take it home, and i have the rest for 3 meals later. I have no idea why this makes me mad. It's gotten to the point where I stopped going out to eat, i make my own meals but then i cook as if I'm cooking for a boy scout troop. My mind has not processed this surgery. I feel like I'm half and half. I get it, but I'm afraid of going forward and I have no idea why.
for the past two months I haven't lost any weight ( i believe i have gyno issues and I am going to doctor in 2 weeks for that issue), but i feel i have cause my jeans do not stay up and my belt is too big; so i'm assuming i'm losing inches. but it kills not to see the scale move. i've told my doc and she said that's fine. i just get beaten up over it. she suggested i sit in on support groups, and i will. i will need to find one in which i'm comfortable in.
I guess I am venting cause I have no one else to talk to about this. Mentally this is harder than i thought. especially when you do it by yourself. so I plan on frequenting the site more to get advice and to talk. thanks for reading