PrincessErin

I thought about this while I was laying in the hot Florida sun today: I'm moody. I'm a horrible, raging moody girl right now. I take things extra personal. I yell. I throw fits. I'm a brat Sometimes I am just a brat but I'm hardly ever an angry brat. Until now. I think it's twofold. Reason one: my bestie called food has stopped talking to me but still hangs out will all my friends and family. Reason two: my fat is angry. I think we store toxins and hormones in our fat or something. I'm no scientist but there has to be something going on. I'm not normally a crazy human. Thoughts?

I'm so so so sorry. These are the horror stories we wish didn't happen. How did you get the blood clot? That sounds so scary. You aren't a failure. You are going through a horrible bump in your journey. But you are still on your journey of life and that, even in it's darkest days, is still beautiful. Please keep us updated. I am also a band to bypass patient and I understand the frustration of having to find a new dr because the first one just won't help. My band almost killed me and it did destroy my stomach for a while. I can to relate to those feelings of failure. But I am not and you are not. What happens next for you once you get established?

I'm glad dreaming had a better day! Claire, I love your words. You really know exactly what to say. I love to read your posts. I am having trouble keeping pasta down. It is a no-go for me. I did have about an ounce and a half of talapia last night. It was delicious and didn't come back up. I have been practicing eating slower and paying attention to when I am full. I've thrown up way less the past few days. It was a beautiful day here in Florida, so we went to the beach. This means my family ate lots of fried chicken, chips, cookies and sweet tea and beer for the adults. I had some delicious multi grain crackers and hummus that for sure do not make me sick, some water and half a beer. I won't make the protein requirements today but I had a wonderful time with my family. I am loving the balance I am able to find. I will be glad when I can handle more protein but for now I do what I can. I hope everyone else had a wonderful weekend, too.

Welcome Julie!! Any friend of Claire's is a friend of ours!!!! I totally understand how you feel regarding wondering what you did to yourself. I still feel like that. I'm glad overall but sometimes I really wonder why I put myself through such a drastic change. I miss food!

Do you have a band?

Well if anyone ever comes to Orlando, I'm close to there and will come say hi!! I'm so sorry for your loss dreaming. That's a tough week to go through. I hope you guys have a nice weekend!!

I miss salad. Crazy!

I always have eaten too quickly. Always. I still do and I am going to focus on eating much slower and see how that changes things! Thanks for the good advice!

Benefiber is a great idea. I'm going to pick some up tomorrow. So now that I'm trying to eat more normal food, I find myself throwing up every day after dinner. I've got to find a way to progress with what I eat and recognize the signals of what isn't working for me before I get to that point. I've lost 27 pounds. Starting: 219 Current: 192 Week 1: 11 pounds lost (preop included) Week 2: 5 pounds lost Week 3: 3 pounds lost Week 4: 1 pound lost Week 5: 4 pounds lost Week 6: In progress but 2.8 pounds so far. At a rate of about 3 pounds a week, I would be at goal in 22 weeks. That's by the end of August. Wow. I could be 125 pounds by the end of summer???? That doesn't even sound real.

That's gonna be your before pic!! You're other pics are gonna be a major improvement.

I'm so sorry. I've had those days. I totally understand. I hope tomorrow is better. I quit the protein shakes. I just can't with them. It does does does get better! I remember being so pissed that everyone was eating and I just couldn't. It's a big change. It's a radical, overwhelming change. It is ok to be upset.

I totally think the constant dashing to the toilet sounds bad, too. Abdominal cramps are just the worst. I hope we both get some gastrointestinal balance.

I throw up a few times a week. also, I often feel like I have an unsettled tummy. I take tums and it helps.

Guys. How many of you are experiencing horrible cramps when it is time for number 2? I'm lucky to go once a week and when I do I feel like I could pass out from the cramping. I think my intestines hate me.

The same thing happened to me. it's probably normal but be aware of it.

I know what you're saying!! I hate throwing up and I push limits and throw up and then I feel miserable. I hate it when I do that! I don't think I can handle anything like salad for a few more weeks. Iceberg maybe, but definitely not any veggies. I still have to chew everything to a pulp before I swallow it.

I knew you would understand what I was saying Claire. I truly enjoy living my life and one of the things I loved the most about my band is that I was limited in amount but not food types. That being said, I feel so good knowing I can get out there and do things and not feel held back. There Is usually at least one option on the menu that I can deal with!!!

When can we eat a salad?

Welcome all the newbies!! Dreaming, I'm so glad you're doing well! I spent the weekend in Orlando at Universal Studios and Islands of Adventure. It was a nice getaway for my boyfriend and me. I ate a Bevita breakfast cracker for breakfast. Four come in a pack. I had one. For lunch I ate a few chips. Not healthy but I was scared to try anything and crunchy works because I can chew it up so well. I did partake in part of an alcoholic beverage. A few sips here and there over the course of an hour while waiting in line for the new Harry Potter ride. I am aware we aren't supposed to drink. I am also aware I am living life and not hiding away because of my surgery. For dinner we went to Bubba Gump's at the City Walk. I asked to order off the kids menu and was told no, but after I explained my situation I was allowed to order. I ordered popcorn shrimp and mashed potatoes. I ate 2 popcorn shrimp and 2 bites of mashed potatoes over the course of the entire meal. Very slowly and very carefully. I also had a few sips of my boyfriends drink and water. This morning I had a bite of cereal at the continental breakfast and hummus with crispy crackers for lunch at a yummy restaurant called Tu Tu Tango. For dinner it was back home and back to my regularly scheduled program. It was nice to know I could be "normal" and participate in life without feeling completely alienated from what I enjoy. It was important to me not to get sick or overdo it. My goal is to keep my pouch working for me but not be condemned to a life of yogurt. So there ya have it. That's my update. I'm down 25 pounds. Starting weight:219 Date if surgery: 214 Today: 194 I'm almost 6 weeks out. I have a friend who is a personal trainer and she is going to show me a workout I can do at home with my teenage daughter.

Claire is right. it really is ok, and the worry almost seems like it wasn't worth it. Can't wait to hear from you dreaming!

Dreaming, You've got this!!!! It's scary. There is no doubt. But you are going to be so much better off! Be brave. Set the example. No more living in fear!

I used it and the interest rate wasn't horrible. They have a website. But yes your bf can use it on you. It is a credit card. But if he has great credit you should get a loan from your bank, you might get a lower rate.

Thanks :) I can't wait til I can see it.

I'm really losing quite slowly. Here are my one month pics. I don't see much of a difference but I am going to do this every month anyway. Hopefully one day I will look back at this and wonder why I was so worried about it.

I'm really losing quite slowly. Here are my one month pics. I don't see much of a difference but I am going to do this every month anyway. Hopefully one day I will look back at this and wonder why I was so worried about it.