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My eyes are filled with tears after reading this thread. I have been having a pitty party for myself since July 2010 and honesty felt completely alone. Both of my parents and my little sister are success stories and I have struggled and have been angry and have all but gave up. So here's my story...I was banded April 27, 2009. My starting weight was 251 lbs and I am only 5'2". I was doing great until August of that year when I received a fill that went over my sweet spot, so the doctor backed some out. This went on (being over filled and having it removed) through March 2010 when I had to have emergency gall bladder removal. I was assured that was the reason I was getting sick and not the band. I was down 65 lbs in March and was able to maintain it while being slowly filled back up. That is until July came around, and once again my doctor OVER filled me. This never should have happend because I told him I thought that he was putting to much in me and he assured me I was wrong. The next morning I woke up feeling like I was dying and continue being sick for a week not able to hold anything down not even liquid. By the time he was able to see me I was so dehydrate that I couldn't even stand. So once again he removed all of my fill. He has only be able to see me one time since then and I have no restriction. I have been depressed since July and have honestly been on a eating binge. I am back up to 230 lbs and am horrified when I look at myself. I was so sure that I would never be in my big girl clothes anymore so I gave them all away. Now I look like a stuffed sausage with a big rig tire around my waist. You have all inspired me!! I am going to get my log book back out and start over again. We are visited by Angels all the time and I feel that God brought me to this post to bring hope back in my heart. THANK YOU ALL!!! Best of Wishes.

I have had mine for a year and a half and feel like a complete failure. Since last August I have been back and forth getting fluid in and then within a week having to have it removed because not even liquid goes through. Was told it was my gallbladder so I had it removed only to experience the same thing after getting filled. It has been two months now since my doctor removed ALL of my fill and I have gained 25lbs. I am so mad at myself for gaining and at my doctor for not listening to me when I said I thought he put me over my sweet spot. Getting in to see him is like finding a needle in a haystack so I am even more upset. Unfortunatly I am not able to withstand a lot of fluid in mine like the majority of people on here. When I get 4.75 cc in me is when I close up completely. I am trying to get back on track with eating right and exercising, it's just really hard when I'm so deperessed.

Hello all. I had my surgery April 27, 2009. All was going well and I lost 60lbs until exactly one year ago. In August 2009 I received a fill and within a couple of days I was closed up and had to have some removed. This continued until March of this year when I had to have my gallbladder removed. Had a couple of fills all was well until last month when I closed up again. Too much was in my fill. My doctor removed it all and now I have gained 25lbs. I am so bummed out! I still have high hopes that my doctor will pay closer attention and listen to me when I tell him I think there's too much.:biggrin: Has anyone out there experienced this or am I truely special????