Hi everyone, July 2009 bandster here... Back on this site since about two years ago, and just wanted to let you all know about my journey. I'm posting this same message in other sites to have more readers. It's been three years since my surgery.
In summary, I've lost over 140 pounds in two years, but the past year, I've gained at least one pound a month and it appears there is no stopping soon.
Last year, I weighed about 103-108. Ive gained 10 pounds this past year and am predictably gaining about one pound a month. Every single month.
It all started last fall when I started to overeat, mostly Desserts. The overeating has become usual now, especially at night.
My mind tells me stop! I think about this horror almost all day long, but I just -don't stop. I see my body growing every moment of every day and I fear getting out of bed to start the process over again.
I had lost too much, so when I started to regain most all said, good, you needed to gain. But they don't hear me when I say I am gaining-gaining and im not stopping until I gain all my weight back!
I feel like the desperate lost fat girl of 2009; a person with no chance of peace of mind or a future worthwhile.
What is my next move?