I think your feelings are perfectly normal. I am getting banded on July 19 at NYU with Dr. Fielding. I am 52, and I am ready, but go through bouts of being fine, then scared, etc. My daughter, who is 25, had the lapband last year with Dr. Ren. She has made wonderful progress after a year's time, with still some more work to do. No one that I speak with has ever been displeased with the band, and most say it is the best thing they ever did...so you will be fine. You made the decision, and it is the beginning of a new life for you. You are young, and you should be enjoying NYC and going out and meeting others, while feeling good about how you look and feel, not to mention the health benefits! I wish you luck!