I truly understand your feelings and I understand your "keeping it on the down low" I felt the same way. My decision to have lap band surgery was strictly my decision, it was all about me and I didnt feel like everyone needed to know. It was a hard decision, very scary and getting out of bed after surgery - no one told me about that pain! I wouldnt change a thing. I am very glad I had the surgery, it has been very successful for me. You've got my support.