Christina,
I can totally relate to how you're feeling. I had extreme cold feet after I put down the deposit. I guess a little buyer's remorse! The first day of my liquid diet was very hard...I had a few tears and a couple moments of rages. My emotions have been all over the place. It must be really hard not having support. You really have to remind yourself that you are doing what's best for YOU. I only told my husband and my mother and they have been very supportive; they really just want me to be happy. Today I feel more confident, just a little nervous about travelling alone. Just keep a positive attitude and try to communicate with as many people as you can who have had surgery. KathyM gave me a good idea of what to expect and was very reassuring. Best wishes, and I will be sure to post about my experiences when I get back.