I feel the exact same way. I am just getting started with the Seminar on July 29th. I have such a battle going on in my head. Could I do it without the Band. But if I could do that I would have already done it. But then I will have to change my eating & exercise habits anyway. My husband will support me either way but he made the statement...."If you eat now what they are expecting you to eat with the band, you will lose the weight anyway" BTW he is very overweight too. I have failed so many times. I am at a point now that I can't even do my housework much less walk for exercise. I truly understand how you feel. I'm still praying about the decision.