bluezfan01

Hi all, I went to my doc this week and was discussing some concerns I was having, some fears. I have been heavy most of my life and I have reached a weight where I spent a good part of my adult life and is a fairly comfortable place for me although still a very obese place. My doc asked if i was afraid to be thin. I have to say..maybe a little. She shared an article by Dr. Matthew Anderson. there was a checklist and I answered yes to many of the questions. I do find it hard to be noticed for looks instead of how funny or smart I was. I have always struggled with relationships. I present as strong and self confident but, truthfully...nope. I am afraid that I will be rejected... anyway wondering if anyone has heard of this author and if you agree or may feel the same way.

June 10th Surgery date Down 50lbs at 6 months...I hope to have 50 more gone by the 1 year mark.

Newman's Own Light Sesame Ginger salad dressing....mmmmm yummy and 35 calories per serving!

What is it?

Good to know, because I was thinking I was going crazy.

How do you stay motivated? It is so hard not to return to the same way of eating, lack of exercise.

Just got filled today...I have 8.2 cc in 14cc band. I was at 7.6 last time and had started to feel some restriction. I am hoping this one will do the trick. My NP said that average is around 8cc's for the 14cc band. Of course I need to exercise more and stay away from carbs and I would be much more successful!:laugh:

I have the 14cc band too. I was banded 6-10-10...I have had a couple fills and am now at 7.6cc's still dont have full restriction. I believe 8cc's is suppose to be average for that size band. What are you doing way up there? :biggrin:

I am battling the drinking with a meal too. I didnt realize just how much I want to drink with meals. I have not reached my sweet spot yet, but am getting close. I am ready for the time when I cant drink with meals. It is amazing the rollercoaster of thoughts...did I make the right decision, I feel like I am on a diet ...hate that! blah blah blah...I hope it gets better.

FANTASTIC :biggrin:

You are an excellent writer, I enjoyed your post and can relate although not as close to goal weight. It is interesting to take note of the subtle differences. I am down about 38lbs but I have noticed I dont feel as invisible. At times I wonder is that my perception due to feeling good about myself more often or is it real. I think its both. Thanks again!:thumbup:

I am going on a trip next week, I have a 14cc band and only have 4cc's of fill. Since I really dont have any restriction I am not worried about flying, I know that my doctor had said that they would remove the fill before a vacation. I was thinking since I didnt have any restriction I wouldnt get it removed, after you post I am wondering if I should make a call.....