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Thats good, I will do what i please. 2 years of heartache and depressionl....need i bring up the fact that you stole my virginity, gave me an STD, stole my parents car, among other things. You need help. And i knew all along you never loved me. Im not stupid thank you. Go ahead say that. When you come crawling back, i will just spit in your big fat ugly face. Have a nice life, you f*cked up piece of shit.

I agree, I came here and posted what i posted for SUPPORT from other LBTers, Not for him to come on here, and basically make a complete fool out of himself. Correct me if im wrong all, but isnt a boyfriend suppose to be one to take out your pain on....arent they suppose to be there to listen.....Anyways. The relationship is over its ended its done. He will be reported. Im here for SUPPORT, not to discuss my relationship with everyone and their brother. Thanks all for your support its greatly appreciated. ~Hotpink~

Hey, I agree with you all, whole-heartedly. Im trying my best to worry about myself at this point in time. Im having a rough rough time, but im getting there, slowly but surely. We think my "boyfriend" if he is even worthy of being called that....is gay anyways, i found out that he was making faces at my dads friend who is gay when we were out st.patricks day night. He was winking at him and everything. He was either being an extremely big asshole, or he is gay. Which dont get me wrong i have nothing absolutely nothing against gay people. But wth......drag me along for almost 2 years...if he really is gay. That makes me a bit mad. NUFF bout him though!!!!!!! I agree i want to lose weight, look good, feel good, and LIVE MY LIFE, to the absolute fullest. I only get one. And from Tuesday March 13th on out, its going to be the best life i could possibly have. Head hunger is really dragging me down. Its so horrible, but i have not cheated one little bit.......im too scared to lol! Im doing good. Feeling lots better today then the past few days. Gas is almost gone.......my blood pressure went down the minute my surgery was completed....really really weird. Anyways....i gots to pee......just thought youd like to know lol. Ill post more later. Thanks all for replying, i really appreciate it. *BIG HUGS* to you all. Bandland is awesome!!!!! ~Hotpink~

Hey just thought id let you all know, They have a variety pack of 0g added sugar which is the same as sugar free i think, im not sure. Anyways it has strawberry, french vanilla, milk chocolate, and chocolate malt. All of which are very very good. I think you can find em at Krogers, or we have a store here called Whitbecks that has it. Im pretty sure if you go into your local store, and tlak to the manager, the manager can always order a case of it for you and then you can purchase it. Try that. Good luck!! ~Hotpink~

The other day i was standing in the kitchen looking for something to eat. I had a can of tuna packed in Water so i thought hmmm what can i make with it besides a boring tuna fish sammy. So i took the can of tuna drained it and put it in a bowl. To it i added some chopped onion, some miracle whip, some mrs.dash garlic and herb seasoning, and some BROCCOLI SLAW.......YUMMMMMMMMY. That stuff is the BEST stuff ive ever had. I mixed it all together, and i ate it with some tortilla chip scoops. It was soooooo yummy. So if any of you can tollerate all of that, you should try it, it is super de duper yummy. I hope i can tolerate it once banded. Try it and let me know what you guys think!!!!! ~Hotpink~

I got this from my binder that i got for my sugery. It says to mix 1 QT skim milk with 1 1/3 Cup dry milk powder to make Soups, diet pudding, cereals, carnation instant breakfasts, and/or Protein shakes. So give it a try. It is sure to help add some more protein into your "diet". Loooord knows we all need protein!!!!! ~Hotpink~

Hey broccoli slaw is just shredded broccoli, carrots, and cabbage. Its like regular cole slaw, only with broccoli. Its much more crispier then regular cole slaw, and it tastes MUCH MUCH better. One of my fav foods now!!!!!! ~Hotpink~

Wow so im only about 13 days away from my surgery, and still so many questions. Will they ever all be answered. Im hoping some of you can help. When we are able to eat solid foods, and we can only have 1/2-1cup of food at a meal, how do you portion that out? How much meat, how much veggies, and if any how much carbs? If you could use ounces i would appreciate it. I still have a butt load of shopping to do to get ready. Im not sure i will EVER be ready. But im at least going to try to be. Also do any of you eat or have a Lean Cuisine or Healthy Choice meal as your meal instead of cooking? Like if youve had a busy day or something. Obviously you shouldnt eat them all the time everyday, but do any of you use them? And also what are some of your typical meals. The kind of meals you eat over and over because they go down easily. Im just trying to get as prepared as possible. Oh also have any of you tried adding say....fruit punch, or any other flavor of crystal light to a vanilla Protein shake? Just wondering how it tasted. So any input is welcome. Thanks all. Wish me luck too!!!!! ~Hotpink~

So im talking to my boyfriend online, and we are discussing things. I told him, that my surgery is only 2 weeks away, and that from now on, until i heal from having the surgery, the only thing i can worry about is myself. For once in my life, im worry about myself and no one else. Im not going to worry about him, or my parents, or friends or anyone else, but myself during this time. He doesnt seem to understand that. Am i wrong for saying that im only going to worry about myself during this time. I dont really think the added stress of worry about other people would help me at all. The stress of the surgery is enough, dont you think? Im just wondering what your opinions are on this, am i wrong for saying i can only worry about myself.....or am i being selfish? Lay it on me people, i need responses on this one.....Thanks. ~Hotpink~

Damn right frustration is working its way out. It pisses me off that he gets on here, and acts like he has been asking me about it, and checking up on me, and asking me how i feel abotu this whole life changing thing. He hasnt done shit like that. NOTHING. Yet he comes on here, and says he has. Im sick of the lies. Im sick of feeling like he doesnt give a shit about me or what happens to me, because he just doesnt act like it at all. How the hell can he care about my surgery, if he doesnt even act like he cares about me. All the stuff he has said on here, I have never heard. NEVER. Not once. Im so sick of it. Its about ME now. Not him. Its always been about him. I have kissed his ass all along. He doesnt even bother to ask how im doing, if ive gotten the stuf fi need, how i feel nothing. He doesnt ask that. If someone really cared about me and the surgery. They would actually ask it. Not come on a board, that i NEED for support during this time, and say that he has done all that when he hasnt, and make me look like a liar. Who does that. Im really pissed off right now about all of this. My original post wasnt even really about him, what he said made me start thinking, that i need to worry about myself now, and i was asking if it was wrong to worry about myself and not others, that was the question. It wasnt about him. But obviously you can see it has been made out to be about him hasnt it? Yeah so now maybe you all can see what im dealing with. Im really mad right now, I cant write anymore. I need to take a breather. ~Hotpink~

You know, I really dont appreciate him writing on here and saying that. Because then it makes me look like a liar, and that im making him out to be some mean horrible person who doesnt care about me. If you could see the conversation, you would know what was said, and why i said what i said. Things arent very good between us and havent been for quite awhile. And now because of this, because he came on here, and had to add his 2 cents worth, im looking like a liar. Obviously my side wasnt believed, until good ole sin came in to tell the truth. No he didnt join this board to look up stuff. He only comes on this board, when im on it, to check and see what im up to, because he doesnt trust me. He has hardly ever read, let alone replied to anything on this board, that is BAND RELATED. If you go look at his posts, maybe 3 of them, are band related. The others are not. So please do not sit there and think that he is coming on here because he cares and wants to be supportive. I had my final surgical appointment last week. I found out the time of my surgery and all of that, he knew about that appointment and what it was for. Do you think he has bothered to ask what time it is or any of that? Has he asked me once how im feeling about it? If im getting nervous? Has he checked to make sure im doing wht im suppose to? NO he has not asked any of that. Nor done any of that. So before anyone jumpes and thinks that im making him out to be something he isnt. Get the whole story. If he says he has asked about anything or tried to do anything, he is lying. Which wouldnt be the first time he has lied to me. Lets just leave it at that. Im not trying to be mean, or yell at any of you. This is between me and him now. And iw ould like to leave it that way. Thank you. ~Hotpink~

As of tomorrow, i only have 2 weeks, 2 FREAKING WEEKS until my surgery. I am scared as h e double hockey sticks! Im double scared because of the post i just read, about someone waking up with the tube still down their throat. I will make it a point before i go in, that i WILL NOT, and i mean i better not wake up with one down my throat, cause if i do, i will scream...or at least try to scream bloody murder. Im at the point now where im going through the, am i making the right decision? What if i tried dieting harder? Wont i change? I dont want to change, i hate change, what am i doing, are you sure your doing the right thing, if you dont do this your weight will just continue to spiral out of control, your going to do this, you HAVE to do this, its not optional for you, its your last chance, your too young to just let your weight keep going up, its for the better, your making the right decision. The biggest thing im afraid of is going under. I had surgery when i was 7 for my tonsils, so going under isnt something new. Being cut open is though. HOwever when i had my surgery at 7 yeras old, they forced me, and i mean literally pushed the gas mask so hard down on my face to put me under i was screaming and crying and trying so hard to get them to take it off to just let me breathe and calm down for a second and they wouldnt, so because of that, i got these things they call night terrors, wher ei wuold wake up in the middl eof the night, half asleep still, screaming that people were trying to kill me. It was absolutely horrible. Not cool to scream after having your tonsils hacked out of your throat. Puke a lot of blood up after that one. So that freaks me out, what if i dont wake up too? What if i just die on the table? What if after im out of surgery if i dont die, what if i screw up and ruin everything, what if i lose a whole bunch of weight, and i change who i am not only on the outside but the inside too, how will people around me react. Will i be able to do this? I need some encouraging words here. No one in my family, my boyfriend no one could possibly know how scary this is for me. They are just like, ohhh youll be fine. I'll be fine, i'll be fine? Ive never been cut open before, i have NO clue what to expect. Im scared to death. Im stressed about so much right now, the surgery beign the main thing. I just hope all goes well. I just need some of you to tell me, it will be ok, this is all normal, and that i will do amazing in this journey im taking. I really really need that. No one else is giving it to me. Sometimes i just want to sit down and cry. Very emotional person i am lol. SO if any of you could help me out and give me some encouraging words and let me know its going to be ok. I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you for letting me vent, and thank you for reading. You all have been very helpful, and im going to be here a lot more once banded. Wish me luck. Thanks all. *BIG HUGS* ~Hotpink~

I mean that i always think about and worry about other people, and how they are doing, and what they are doing, and if they are ok. I told him that i need to worry about me right now because he told me he was stressed about his job and school and paying off bills and what not, and i said im sorry but i just cant let that stress me out right now i have enough stress with my surgery coming up and i need to worry about ME for once not others. Its about me right now, not him, not my parents, just me. My parents are there 100% and i think they and my boyfriend know its a big change, they just arent acting like it. They are kinda acting like, oh your having surrgery, and im freaking out, trying not to let their issues get in my way of taking care of myself. If any of this makes sense. Its as simple as, im worry about me, not joe blow and how he is doing. Thanks for all the replies, i greatly appreciate it. ~Hotpink~

Hey all, Just thought Id throw in a little Valentines day fun!!!!!! I saw a thread on here, about people and their pets, having other names for their pets rather then what they were named int he begining...sorta "pet" names for your pet. So i was thinking the other day, that i hadnt saw a thread on Human Pet Nams. Do you have a pet name for your significant other? I and my boyfriend, who is on this board also, some of you may have seen his posts, his sn is Sin, we have pet names for each other. He calls me Baby, Hunny, Squishy, Wifey, Cookie. I call him pumpkin Butt, Sugar Bear, Hubby, and Crumbs. Kinda cheesy right? But it just isnt right if we dont call each other those names. It doesnt feel right. So the question is, If any of you really want to dish, Do you call your significant other any pet names, If so what are they, If not do you think pet names bring couples closer together? Just a little fun for any of you bored bandsters out there. Have fun with it, and I look forward to some of the responses. HAVE FUN!!!!!! ~Hotpink~

Well Id just like to say, That i will not be coming to this Forum anymore. It seems that some BLEEP decided to report me to whoever you report to, for stating my OPINION. Forgive me for thinking that this forum was for support, venting, and stating your OPINION. I forget, everyone else can open their mouth and say whatever and vent. It appears when i do it, that its wrong. So i will be finding a different board to provide support for me. Thank you to all of you who were extremely nice to me and helped me i greatly appreciate it. To those of you who werent so nice....what goes around comes around, have fun waiting for what you dish out to come back and bite you in the ass! Bye all. ~Hotpink~

LOL, Thanks guys. You all are very very nice, and im so glad you all took the time to reply to my post. I didnt think what i said was bad in any way shape or form. Im glad you all see that too. I will from now on stay away far far far away from the canada section. However i will be staying on LBT.....why? Well just as you all said....basically because im welcome here too, and just to piss off the person who reported me....hehe. Thanks again all. I appreciate it more then you all know. Happy Banding to all of you, my date isnt far away, then i hope to be able to relate to a lot more of whats going on around here. Also, thanks for inviting me to visit the Aussie section, I want to visit Aussie some day....problem is im not much of a plane rider.....id have to be hella drunk first, to ride on a plane first of all, let alone fly over....water? YIKES! But thank you all your great!!!!! I hope to get tons of advice from all of you once im on the losing side!!!! Cross your fingers for me, next step in all of this is just waiting for insurance approval!!!!!!!!! *hugs* to all thanks!!!! ~Hotpink~

Thank you all SO SO SO much for your posts. Of course i dont want to leave. This board is part of the reason im getting the lap band. Without this board i dont think i would have gotten the information i needed to make my decision to go ahead with it. I thought i would again get "in trouble" for posting this thread. I realize everyone disagrees every now and then and i realize some people dont get along. I just dont appreciate the rude PM i got from the lady who reported me. I also dont appreciate being reported for stating an opinion of all things. Of course i can understand reporting me if i was rude, or threatened someone in any way, but i just simply havent done that. I will probably stick around now that ive had time to cool down from reading the pm she sent me. I thank you all very very much for your replies. Usually im a tough person and do stand up to people. Dont know what came over me today i was just liek fine, if she is going to report me and be that way, then i will just leave. Thanks to you all i realize i have as much right to be here as she does. And i will be here whether she likes it or not. She can deal with it. Thanks again all. *BIG HUGS* to all of you. *SMILES*!!!!! ~Hotpink~

Thank you, It was mysherryjo who reported me, i added my opinion to a thread a bout surgeons in Mexico. And someone had said that it is wiser to choose a surgeon who has done thousands of bands rather then hundreds. I replied saying that, i dont believe thats true, that a doctor in mexico who has done thousands is any better then one in the US, who has done hundreds. I stated that the only reason the surgeons in mexico have done thousands is because the insurance companies in the US, suck major butt, and so most people have to be self pay, and its cheaper in mexico which is why the doctors there have done more. Not because of being able to do it better then anyone else. So therefore because i stated my opinion, and i didnt see that the thread was posted in the CANADIAN forum, which on my screen it said it was posted in the general lap band discussion forum. But because of that i got reported and got a nasty private message from mysherryjo. I just stated my opinion thats all. Watch out what you say, or you may get reported.....just beware all, opinions are obiously, not welcome on this board. ~Hotpink~

Seeeeeee that is the problem im having. In no way shape or form am i taking off my underwear, when he wont be anywhere near my hoo ha. Why in the world does my underwear need to come off for him to cut my stomach? I feel the same way when you go into the hospital for lets say a head ahce. They tell you take EVERYTHING off and put a gown on. Now why on earth do i need to take my underwear off and socks for you to check my head for a head ache? Its ridiculous i tell you. No need for it. My underwear arent going anywhere, and i will fight!!!!! Im just a tough patient hehe. Oh well. They are afterall MY underwear. ~Hotpink~

Hey, I know how you feel 100% i was so so so so so so nervous going in Monday for my endoscopy. When the lady did the IV, i dont know why, but everytime someone does my IV, then end up squirting my blood all over me, and i FREAKED OUT, i started bawling and shaking and screaming, I cant stand seeing my own blood on me, i just cant handle it. But after that everything went so smoothly i was shocked. It really wasnt that bad at all. You will be just fine, I promise. Good luck!! ~Hotpink~

Hey, I think what your talking about could be an endoscopy could not be. I just had an endoscopy and they found i have a small Hiatal Hernia, and Gastritis. Nothing that wont keep me from getting the band, at least thats what the doctor has said so far. So i dont think you will have any problems. The endoscopy is very fast, and virtually painless, except for the IV. IV's hurt no matter what. The medicine they give you is absolutely amaaazing. I love it. No worries. You'll be fine. Good luck to you! ~Hotpink~

March 13th here, since my surgeon only does it on Tuesdays. Sucks kinda, but its coming way too fast lol. Have fun all!! ~Hotpink~

I sort of have a problem with this post. As you said to do your research and make sure you use someone who has done thousands of bands, not hundreds. Just because someone hasnt done thousands doesnt mean they arent a good completely qualified surgeon. The only reason these "great" doctors in Mexico have done thousands of bands, is because insurance companies in the US, have their heads up their asses. That is the ONLY reason. Not because they are better then anyone in the US. I really dont appreciate you say that, since my surgeon hasnt done "hundreds" of bands, yet no matter where i go, he is highly recommended. He was also from what i hear featured in a womans magazine, as one of the top bariatric surgeons. Saying that you should choose someone who has done thousands rather then hundreds of lap bands, is juding a book by its cover, and i think we all learned in kindergarden, not to judge a book by its cover. ~Hotpink~

Hey all, just thought id come on and share my little story with you all. So my aunt and uncle won a free night at the Great Wolf Lodge in Traverse City, Michigan. They have this hotel all over the US, but im not sure where. Dont know if any of you have heard of it or not, but it is a big fancy hotel, with a Water park inside of it. So my aunt and uncle invited me and my mom and dad to come stay with em overnight since the room slept 8. So we did. We got there, went into the bar had some stuff to drive, I had a virgin pina colda smoothie with strawberry added since im not 21 yet, was awesome by the way. They arrived we checked in, went to the room went and ate dinner at the bar and grille in the hotel, then we went back to the room and changed into our bathing suits to go into the water park. Passes to the water park are usually 15 bucks but if you stay overnight it is included in the room price so you get these wrist bands to put on to go to the water park. So i get on a one piece swim suit, i put shorts and a t-shirt on overtop, since obviously im self concious about myself or else i wouldnt be getting WLS. We go down to the water park, go in the hot tub, everything is fine, go into the pool, back into the hot tub. They have like 4 huge slides there, 2 of em you use tubes in and they go outside of the building and back in and wind in and out and what not. The other 2 come off of this huge wooden water house like thing, that you can race people in, of course thank god, they are completely open at the top not closed in completely. Anyways my cousin asks me if i want to race her, im like ehhhhh uhhhh uhhhh sure i guess so. So we head up to the slides and get to the top after getting drenched with water on the way there, and getting racoon eyes (i hate that). There is a life guard at the top making sure n one gets hurt. So her and I step up to the top and get ready to go into the slides. I ask him JOKINGLY, so do you think i will fit in that slide, cause the slide was pretty small, and he gave me the DIRTIEST look, looked at me up and down my body like i was disgusting, looked at the slide, looked back at me and was like, dunno go ahead. Im like what was that look for, and he goes sorry go ahead. Im like no im not going now, that was just plain rude. so i go back down the stairs and i go to the snack bar that is in the waterpark, and im like i want to talk to the person in charge of the life guards NOW, cause that fucking little punk just did that shit to me. I FLIPPED OUT. I was swearing up and down a storm, and so i talked to the manager of the water park and she apologized, and couldnt do anything more, then "talk to him" about it. What the hell? When will it stop? Why why why on earth do people have to do that shit just because im not some skinny little bimbo with blonde hair and big freaking boobs huh? It hurt my feelings and it hurt them pretty bad. I bawled nearly all night long because of it. He did it, infront of a bunch of other people, and i was not the biggest person in the waterpark, so why me? Why do i get singled out and get dirty looks and what not. Im just wondering when this will stop. The only reason i flipped out is because ive been dealing with rude looks and dirty comments my whole life, thats why i dropped out of school because people were so rude, and i hardly go out in public because people are rude, i stepped out of my little bubble that i try to live in once, and that is what happens. Now i know why i choose not to go out in public, let alone go in the water with a bathing suit on. I was scared so scared about having this surgery that i was almost ready to say no i dont want to do it. Now i want it more then ever. I just want to be normal. Not get dirty looks, not get snikcers and comments. Why cant we just be treated like everyone else? Incase people didnt notice, we have feelings too. Just thought id share this with everyone. I will never NEVER be going back to the Great Wolf Lodge ever again, and i do not recommend anyone else go. It is a joke, the biggest joke in the world. Thanks for listening guys. Just had to get that out. Any comments or thoughts are welcome! Hope you all have a good day!!!!! ~Hotpink~

I agree, Thank you Kat817, I think that now my point that people dont know how to respond nicely besides yourself, is proven. ~Hotpink~